From: Kamal E Y [email protected]>

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 30 March, 2000 02:55 PM

Subject: unheard melodies

Honey,

You have always told me many ideas about changing your job and I have always asked you to act carefully. I think it was because of the situation in India, which I also had faced. After finishing my studies, for about 7 months, I was jobless. So I know the pressure of being unemployed.

But yesterday I thought of it. You have enough job experience and it is easy for you to find any job. Even I am also confident of finding a new job if I decide to leave the company. But for me, the problem is to make up my mind to leave the company. I had told you, that our project manager is a very nice person. He regards each of us as his children. Every time when he sees me, he advises to put on more fat! It is very difficult to go to such a person and tell that I am leaving the company. But I have to...someday...

Next, it may be better. Yes, if you are not satisfied now, it is better giving another job a try. Here, you have to be sure that you are not satisfied with the job. Dissatisfaction doesn't come from one day's experience. So if you are convinced that you are really dissatisfied with this job, it is better to leave. But since you have some debts also, the salary is also important. So make sure that the new job has enough salary.

Next life or next lover may be better. But for me, I am satisfied with this life and this lover now. Just for the sake of the experiment, it is not worth taking a gamble. You have supporters among poets. I think Keats, has written these lines...

"...heard melodies are sweet, but those unheard are sweeter..."

But when I was younger, I wrote like this (I used to write poems!)

"...unheard melodies may be sweeter, but they don't give the feeling of the old lullaby, they don't touch the heart and wake my love up, like the old forgotten song had done."

I also wanted to call you. The first day, I had to be here with my Project leader, we had a lot of work. Tomorrow is the last day for the completion of coding. So I had to stay here late. When I go to bed, you will be sleeping. I didn't want to disturb you. Remember, the sentence "do you know what time is it now?" The other thing is if I talk to you, you will start crying. So I decided to wait until you are here. Anyway, it is only 96 hours to go.

Don't complain about your responsibilities in the job. Responsibility goes hand in hand with authority. You have more power than Melody. The American whom we met had told this. America is a world power, but being power is not an easy task. You have to face all sorts of criticism, tension, accusations. But the power you have is important. Everyone listens to you. They may or may not obey you. But they will always remember what you had said.

One saying goes like this. They may like you or hate you. But one thing is sure, they can't ignore you.

All of a sudden a lot of talks about dying! First I said, then you said, then Helena said...hmmm... We all have something in common...

Why did I write so many things?

Bye, for now, ...waiting to read your letter...

Love

Kamal