From: Kamal E Y [email protected] >

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 26 April, 2000 10:29 PM

Subject: blues

Honey,

Blue days are not regular for men. It is the same for all the people, for men and women. This is what I think. I had never thought of it as a regular thing. Of course, blue days happen to me also. The first time I went to Heidelberg with my friends, was a blue day. I rarely talked or smiled that whole day. Everyone was wondering what happened to me because normally I am too talkative. Sometimes it happens to me, I try not to show. But it comes our sometimes.

You haven't understood the problem of ours fully. I wish I too could be like you. Not knowing many things. You asked me what my parents expect from me. Did I tell you that they want me to marry some girl from my state and live with them? Marrying you and not marrying anyone is the same for them. I have a cousin who is 30 and not married yet. Our relatives are trying to get him married. But so far, he hasn't agreed. I don't know why he is reluctant. I am closely following this happening. If he could make a small change, I could make a big revolution.

See, the problem of being partners. Being married and being a partner is the same for us, right? As long as I have you and you have me. We don't have any problems. But if somebody else comes in between us, we can't stand it, right? I cannot think of leading a normal life with another girl. If we agree to be a partner, I will be forced to face such things.

But anyway, being a partner solves some problems. I need some more time to think. Do you understand what I say?

Why don't you fight with me and call me "weak"? I deserve it.

Kamal