Yahoo Messenger: 7 September 2000 01:03 AM

Subject: a bit weak in front of your love

julietscity: but you are always looking for work slowly

romeobanglore: again! I told you about all the things

romeobanglore: you know...no company will call me to your country for an interview...

julietscity: You tell me that after August, August has now passed. Next time we talk again ... it's September 18th, another month has passed

romeobanglore: mostly it will be done through phone

romeobanglore: I told you after August I will start preparations...and I have started

julietscity: If you don't sign up for a job site, who knows you Mr. BIg Great Engineer is looking for a job

romeobanglore: started studying Java and C language

romeobanglore: but before registering I have to update my skills

romeobanglore: I searched in Lucent's site...

romeobanglore: I couldn't find any job there...all jobs are for marketing and sales

julietscity: Not like that... I used to ask it in June... before my house was stolen... also after July... I asked... now...

julietscity: ok

julietscity: when do you want to meet me?

romeobanglore: all the time the same problem... didn't have enough skills

romeobanglore: it depends on when I get the job, right?

julietscity: forget the job...I can't expect the job, right?

julietscity: Maybe you will stay in India ... your company will promote you to become a manager or a good position, then you may not leave

romeobanglore: why you can't expect the job...I will try to get job in your country...if I don't get there, we have to go out

romeobanglore: you can expect the job...but I can't tell you when I will get

romeobanglore: I told you 100% sure I will leave our company even if they promote me

julietscity: until I die...you will still stay in India

romeobanglore: or give me more salary

romeobanglore: NO

romeobanglore: see...everyone will leave the company, not only me

julietscity: Yes...it seems like that...that's one of your characters....again...leave it

romeobanglore: especially the young people who have joined 2 or 3 years back

romeobanglore: they want to go to better places, better jobs, better salary

romeobanglore: you believe it or not...I will leave the company

romeobanglore: even if I hadn't met you, I would have left the company

julietscity: I will call your chief and tell him that he has to keep you in India

romeobanglore: chief can't do anything

romeobanglore: this is my decision

julietscity: oh...call the top manager

julietscity: OH...YES...you make a decision...great...celebrate...

julietscity: now you feel mad on me

romeobanglore: and everyone knows that I will be leaving

julietscity: Ojas told everyone?

romeobanglore: no

romeobanglore: you can't understand

julietscity: is the guy who doesn't like you?

romeobanglore: how things are in software industry

julietscity: ok...ok...more salary competition

romeobanglore: that is not the only thing.

romeobanglore: career is important

romeobanglore: in early stages of career....we do jump to many companies

julietscity: oh...you talking about your career with me now...I am surprise

romeobanglore: some of my friends have ready settled in the US

romeobanglore: why you should be surprised?

julietscity: so... I told you to go to America, right?

romeobanglore: I may go to the US

julietscity: no...you have to make your decision

romeobanglore: but my case is a bit different from theirs. they were in a small company... nobody cared for them

julietscity: If you can't do it, you will lose some opportunities

romeobanglore: I could have made my decision. But I have to think of you

romeobanglore: 1st choice is your country...then the US

romeobanglore: ok....you don't want to talk anything personal.

julietscity: If you ever thought of me, you wouldn't think of your career... Do you know what I mean? This is the second time you have talked to me about your career... the first time in other emails I cried about it... I know I can't stop the dream everyone needs

julietscity: no

julietscity: I told you that for your career, there is only one place to go, the United States ...

romeobanglore: my career is the second consideration

julietscity: no...not like that

romeobanglore: you just don't understand

romeobanglore: career doesn't mean salary or the US

romeobanglore: Lucent can give me a good career

julietscity: You don't know the strict life I chose for job competition, this is an iron law only for successful men and their careers

romeobanglore: or any established Telecom company

julietscity: For men, career planning should consider a working environment that can leverage your expertise to enrich you and achieve your ambitions

romeobanglore: career is only the kind of work you are doing

romeobanglore: hey...I have to leave now........

romeobanglore: career is about molding your future jobs

julietscity: no...promise me, you will go to the US soon. After Sep., then you will apply for it

romeobanglore: where you want to go is determined by your career

julietscity: I know what career means to you ... for a young man and his profession

romeobanglore: we will talk about that in detail later

julietscity: I too know that

julietscity: no

romeobanglore: you don't know the meaning of career in our sense

julietscity: go to the US

julietscity: you have no choice

romeobanglore: I have to leave now... my friend is calling...

romeobanglore: he doesn't have the room key

julietscity: Ojas is there

romeobanglore: no, Mahendra

julietscity: he can come to your office and take the key only 2 mins

julietscity: go to the US

julietscity: promise me and make your decision now!!!

julietscity: And go to the US very soon...

julietscity: Promise all

romeobanglore: you don't want me to come to your country

julietscity: No

romeobanglore: I can't promise

julietscity: why?

romeobanglore: will talk about it later

romeobanglore: I have to leave now

julietscity: when? after 18?

julietscity: nono

julietscity: please...

romeobanglore: after 18

romeobanglore: no

julietscity: NO

julietscity: nonononnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnonononononon

romeobanglore: I am leaving

julietscity: nonononononono

julietscity: noooononononononononononononononononno

romeobanglore: if you don't want me to come to your country, I will decide where to go

romeobanglore: and I have to leave now

julietscity: where to go?

romeobanglore: I will think and decide

romeobanglore: I will tell you then

julietscity: why not the US??

romeobanglore: I am going

romeobanglore: bye

julietscity: Ojas told you his plan and you should go with him, right?

julietscity: and you told me that you may go with him

julietscity: why you can't make up your mind and do it?

julietscity: why?

romeobanglore: he is waiting in the gate. you don't want me to go?

julietscity: no

julietscity: he can wait for others

romeobanglore: I told you...I can't do that now...I have to leave now

julietscity: why?

julietscity: you have planned with Ojas

julietscity: You talked to others for many nights

romeobanglore: Mahendra is calling me... he will come here now

romeobanglore: and after that I can't talk

julietscity: why you... hesitant?

romeobanglore: so please ...I have to go

julietscity: no...he will come, right?

romeobanglore: he is here

julietscity: then give him the keys

julietscity: Tell him to go back, and say hello to him for me

romeobanglore: we even if I sit here, I can't promise anything today

julietscity: why?

romeobanglore: I can't

julietscity: I told you that you had planned it before

romeobanglore: no

julietscity: why don't you face it now?

julietscity: don't guess what I'm thinking... I mean it... this is not any psychological test

romeobanglore: I have to think about it...it is not an easy decision you make in just one night

romeobanglore: it is not any test

julietscity: no...what my point is...you had planned to go...and why it can't be decided in just one night?

romeobanglore: it is a decision of the whole life...that can't be done in just one night

julietscity: You must be kidding...

julietscity: jumping to other companies is common

romeobanglore: kidding? no...

romeobanglore: u can't understand

romeobanglore: my friend is waiting still...

romeobanglore: to jump the company is common...but where to go is an important decision

julietscity: Telecom has no geographical restrictions, only salaries... or reputable companies

romeobanglore: even if I tell yes, it will be a forced decision

romeobanglore: only because of you

julietscity: even you come to S city...there is no future for you...

romeobanglore: ok

julietscity: there is no whole life for you

romeobanglore: I will go to the US

romeobanglore: only and only because of you

julietscity: you still have to think it more, right?

romeobanglore: and I can't guarantee anything else

romeobanglore: are u satisfied

romeobanglore: now you can have it your way.

romeobanglore: my friend left

julietscity: oh, Shit!!!!! Did you do this to satisfy me? If you ask my satisfaction, I will not accept

romeobanglore: what the hell you are getting if I promise you today night?

julietscity: Bye...I am very satisfied now.

romeobanglore: and now you also leaving

romeobanglore: great

romeobanglore: bye

julietscity: what can I do?

romeobanglore: nothing...you can also leave...

romeobanglore: bye

julietscity: now you hurt me and you happy now

julietscity: if...things always have to...become

romeobanglore: I am happy, very much happy.

romeobanglore: because I made the decision

romeobanglore: and you must be too

romeobanglore: happy

romeobanglore: can I leave now?

julietscity: yes...that's the person who we know?

romeobanglore: yes...I am such a person

julietscity: A woman who always stands behind you and is satisfied with your decision

julietscity: STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

romeobanglore: no...the woman who tried everything she can do to make a man make the decision she wanted

julietscity: STOP IT!!!!!

romeobanglore: I stopped

julietscity: Let's take our broken heart and leave

romeobanglore: good.

romeobanglore: u got everything

romeobanglore: I made the decision

julietscity: I don't want to and I can't say anything now...

romeobanglore: the friend left

romeobanglore: now I have to wake all the house to get in

julietscity: I apologize to you...it's all my fault

julietscity: I'm sorry about the whole of your life ... I destroyed it

julietscity: I can't make up for you in my life

romeobanglore: apology?

romeobanglore: why?

julietscity: and...maybe next life or

julietscity: I can't...

romeobanglore: leave my life

julietscity: it's all my fault

romeobanglore: you didn't destroy it

julietscity: if I don't call you

julietscity: tonight

julietscity: then all these things won't be happen

julietscity: I deserved it

julietscity: I always know it

romeobanglore: thousand times I told you that I can't make the decision now

romeobanglore: and you didn't listen to me

romeobanglore: I begged you...you didn't listen

romeobanglore: you were damn sure that I have to do that. So why so much of apology now?

julietscity: sorry

julietscity: I have to let you leave

julietscity: have a nice holidays

julietscity: Bye

romeobanglore: so you can let me leave. you got what u asked for

julietscity: yes

romeobanglore: bye

julietscity: I got what I want

romeobanglore: will write to you tomorrow

julietscity: I already knew

julietscity: But I just want to make sure what I think about you

romeobanglore: honey.....

romeobanglore: I never wanted to talk like this to you

julietscity: If you go to work in the US, it will make me feel better... because I will not be your obstacle

julietscity: but...you did...and I deserve it

romeobanglore: if you are not coming...I am not going anywhere

romeobanglore: thatz because you made me angry tooooo much

julietscity: I won't go to the US...I will stay in my city

romeobanglore: most of our chats end like this

romeobanglore: u won't come with me?

julietscity: No...remember...After Aug...I have my plan

romeobanglore: ok...bye

julietscity: now it's you again

romeobanglore: it is YOU YOU YOU

julietscity: I have to work here and earn money

romeobanglore: you don't agree for anything

romeobanglore: you don't want me to come to your city

julietscity: to the US is your dream

romeobanglore: you won't come to the US

romeobanglore: who's dream? you asked me to go to the US

romeobanglore: I didn't say

julietscity: that is the dream of every Indian engineer. I know from past conversations

romeobanglore: it is your misunderstanding

romeobanglore: Indians go to the US becoz there are so many jobs there and they are easy to get

julietscity: then what's the right information?

romeobanglore: I asked you a question...will you come with me if I go to the same country?

julietscity: when?

julietscity: next year?

romeobanglore: now the main concern for me is to live with you

julietscity: or next next year?

romeobanglore: when I get a job

romeobanglore: I am not the only person to decide

romeobanglore: when I will get the job

romeobanglore: next year, we can be together if u agree

romeobanglore: do u agree?

julietscity: part time maybe

romeobanglore: I am talking about living with me

romeobanglore: do u agree

julietscity: do you know...at the first time when we both agree to live together...

julietscity: and I wait for it for sooooooo long...and one day, you told me it will be after next year's Feb.

romeobanglore: we decided to try S city first...but now you don't want that

julietscity: then it seems impossible

julietscity: you lost your chance... in your own way... you will never find a job here

romeobanglore: I still stand on the same thing....next year Feb

romeobanglore: that is rational....I will try before that...but can't be sure of getting a job

julietscity: How much do you want me? after next year on Feb?

romeobanglore: have u decided that I won't find job there?

romeobanglore: I want you now. But that is impossible

romeobanglore: that is why I told you

julietscity: because you didn't try harder... there didn't seem to be a chance, if any ... you lost it

romeobanglore: don't measure my love with the duration

romeobanglore: why? all the chances end in August?

julietscity: All my waiting power is gone...

romeobanglore: believe me if you can...next year, we can live together, if you are ready

julietscity: From June... we have been arguing... every time we quarrel for next meeting or your job search

romeobanglore: I told you once that we can meet in September for some day...you didn't agree

julietscity: you don't want my busy Sep.

romeobanglore: yes...you just can't accept or understand my exact situation

romeobanglore: and you don't want to meet before I get a job...and now u say u don't have waiting power

julietscity: yes...you will say...not anything will follow my will or my plan to do...you have your situation...and I never try to understand you

julietscity: I don't want you to waste your money

julietscity: money is now very important between us

romeobanglore: I am sorry to say that...but sometimes I feel that u don't try to understand

julietscity: ok

romeobanglore: ok... I won't waste any money... I will keep it and become very rich

julietscity: if the tickets can make you rich...then tell me...I need it

romeobanglore: u still didn't answer the question...or is that you don't want to answer it?

julietscity: which part?

romeobanglore: tickets can make me rich. They can take me to you

romeobanglore: u will come with me after I get a job?

julietscity: to live together for a month in the US or 2-3 months is possible

julietscity: a year...it seems impossible

romeobanglore: that was not our plan

julietscity: Michael's roommate has gone, he needs a new roommate

romeobanglore: so...if I don't get a job in S city, our relationship?

julietscity: be a part time lover?

romeobanglore: so thatz your decision?

julietscity: coming to S city cannot make your parents move here

julietscity: but to the US...is possible

romeobanglore: but what is the use? you won't be with me

julietscity: your parents is the decision

julietscity: not me

romeobanglore: no...this decision is a new thing to me...I thought you will come with me where ever I get the job

romeobanglore: now I know you have something else in mind

romeobanglore: I have to think about it

julietscity: Yes...it's me to change all

julietscity: do you know why I change it?

romeobanglore: can u stop blaming yourself?

julietscity: why can I wait and wait and wait for you until next year?

romeobanglore: you are not looking for me...you are looking for someone who can come early?

julietscity: Only my side needs you more than you ... I have to do something bad to wake the other person up or wake each other up... how to say...it seems that I suppose that everything should not be happening

romeobanglore: I am a bit weak in front of your love....I wish I was stronger

julietscity: I changed everything when I felt disappointed

julietscity: my disappointed created by myself, because I need more...

romeobanglore: I thought you will wait for me till I get a job and then we can live together

romeobanglore: and you changed everything because I can't come early

julietscity: but I asked you early, right?

romeobanglore: I always liked when u asked for more...but...

julietscity: maybe a part of your lazy or busy make you couldn't come early

romeobanglore: I thought that it is because you love me.

julietscity: We agree not to use love as an excuse

julietscity: love still there

julietscity: for me...it will be forever...on my life

romeobanglore: I have only one excuse...and that is love

julietscity: I thought it was... if you love me, you might come here earlier

julietscity: no...you can't say that...that's not

julietscity: hey...now you feel sad

julietscity: At that time you scolded me... I cried, my eyes were red and small

julietscity: If you say I don't listen to you ... it means you may not hear my request

julietscity: hey...please,

julietscity: answer me...

julietscity: connecting problem?

julietscity: You always accept my words, my decisions, just like you always accept your parents' ... there doesn't seem to be any of your decisions in between

julietscity: for example...I told you not to come in Sep., because of money...but you know what...I even thought of you had planned to come here and try to give me surprise

julietscity: How can you say that? You have no decision of your own ... this is what I do, you do not accept

julietscity: why am I talking to myself now?

julietscity: where are you

julietscity: now I am the real fool