Yahoo Messenger: 19 January 2001 10:03 PM

Subject: I don't remember crying the way, I cried in Frankfurt the day you left

romeobanglore: helloooo

julietscity: yes

julietscity: I was thinking...

romeobanglore: ????

julietscity: when we discuss all the uncertain things ... I will start thinking...

julietscity: what it will be in the future...how it will be in the future...

romeobanglore: what?

julietscity: just thinking... My brain and my heart are arguing...

romeobanglore: what?

julietscity: we know each other for 1 year and 6 months

romeobanglore: helllllooooo

romeobanglore: helllllooooooooooo

romeobanglore: are you there?

julietscity: yes

julietscity: Do you know how long we have known each other?

julietscity: hello?

julietscity: hello?

romeobanglore: I know...it’s heartburn to think of all the uncertain things

romeobanglore: yes

julietscity: ok

romeobanglore: nowadays I try not to think of those things

julietscity: 50% to 50% ... Sometimes I still dare not make up my mind ... believe in the plans we might make or ... doubt God will help us

julietscity: but what you do now... it all will hurt your future... and your family

romeobanglore: what I do now?

julietscity: Trick your parents and come here to see me ... will spend money to live in the United States with a girl they don't know...

romeobanglore: no...parents can't say that I can't love you…they can only say I can't marry you...

romeobanglore: in this world, I want to be with you.

romeobanglore: the moments with you will be the moments of my life... no one can stop those little treasures from me

julietscity: Nice to hear you say so...

romeobanglore: it is not just nice words... it’s my heart

julietscity: I cried in bed this morning ... Suddenly I felt crying...

romeobanglore: why?

julietscity: I felt my life…

romeobanglore: you never know how much I think of your life

julietscity: I think my life is worse ... nothing will come true ... I imagine you will stay with me all the time. But I told you ... I'm an unfortunate woman ... so don't stay with me ... otherwise, your future will be as bad as mine...

romeobanglore: I care about it....it’s the most valuable thing for me

romeobanglore: don't think like that... I am fortunate to find you...

julietscity: But if my future is worse ... may affect your life ... and I don't want you to be like this

romeobanglore: I am ready to face any worse situation if we could live together

julietscity: You are also my most cherished person ... I cannot and do not want you to be hurt or in a bad situation

romeobanglore: I know it will never be worse...you are deep in your heart, a little girl

romeobanglore: and you can only love

romeobanglore: not hate anyone

romeobanglore: your hate is based on love

romeobanglore: you are love

julietscity: what can I say to you…

romeobanglore: nothing...I need you beside me…that’s all for me

julietscity: do you really need me?

julietscity: and are you sure you need me?

romeobanglore: I need you

romeobanglore: without you, I am just any animal

romeobanglore: I am 100% sure

romeobanglore: why you asked me?

julietscity: I too need you to be with me...

julietscity: Part of me likes anyone to change my life immediately ... Part of me is still afraid to believe that people will bring me a bright future...

romeobanglore: how could you ask me such a question? I want only you in this world

julietscity: Needs and love are different ... Do you know what I mean?

romeobanglore: believe me or not...I love you much, much, much more than you think

julietscity: to be loved, maybe invisible ... but need, this is real life...

romeobanglore: and I need you to have a normal life... without you, I will be a walking dead man

julietscity: I know...

julietscity: I know your feeling and your heart...to me...

romeobanglore: I need you...if I didn't, why should I still try and think and pain for you?

julietscity: Preeti will get married to Anshu this Xmas, and she will come here and live in S city

romeobanglore: they are lucky

julietscity: yes... Maybe in the first three years ... they think the situation could be worse ... but three years later ... the situation has changed

romeobanglore: many times I have thought that I may even hurt my parents

romeobanglore: their troubles were much smaller compared with ours

julietscity: yes maybe

julietscity: ok... Let time determine the future...

romeobanglore: yes...we do our best

julietscity: I wish I can see you now...because I need you now...with me...tonight

romeobanglore: I also...I feel sad, I feel all dark here

julietscity: You are the only one who can calm me down ...

romeobanglore: I am lucky to have your love

julietscity: yes... when we started saying all this... it turned into a dark and sad world

romeobanglore: you know you are so innocent...you may not think so, because everyone thinks themselves that they are not innocent...

julietscity: but I'm not sure if it's your luck or misfortune

romeobanglore: today I read your chatting with Anshu in an old mail

romeobanglore: you told that you are a bad woman with bad temper, independence and always in a hurry

romeobanglore: but I feel that all those things are because you are so straight and innocent

romeobanglore: I love your innocence...

julietscity: I'm not like that ... I don't know when I become like that ... should start when I meet you...

romeobanglore: I am luckier than anyone in this world to have your love

romeobanglore: no one can ever get a better lover than you

romeobanglore: like what?

julietscity: like the innocent as you said

romeobanglore: no...you were deep in your heart just an innocent girl with a lot of love

romeobanglore: unspoiled love

romeobanglore: I was the lucky one to find it

julietscity: My love is inspired by you ... No one loves me like you...

romeobanglore: I can't love you any lesser...when I knew that we had a lot of problems, I tried to lessen our love, but I can't

romeobanglore: I like you so much...

romeobanglore: your every single atom

julietscity: Can we live for love only outside the world?

julietscity: no...we can't

romeobanglore: means?

julietscity: No one can live outside the world for love ... unless they die...

romeobanglore: yes...you remember...once I talked about stopping the time?

romeobanglore: the moments, I don't like them passing...the world is colorful when I have your love

julietscity: yes... The end result will be ... an eternal moment

julietscity: We both continue to love and only death can solve our pain, right?

romeobanglore: I have never cried out I don't remember crying the way, I cried in Frankfurt the day you left

romeobanglore: death is a solution to us...but only for us

julietscity: I know...

julietscity: I still can't imagine how you cried in Frankfurt ... you hadn't eaten all day and your coworkers brought you food to force you to eat

romeobanglore: so when I think of living together...I don't know how I'll leave you if such a situation comes...

romeobanglore: yes

romeobanglore: I cried in bed...I could not stay there, I sat in the chair and cried...I went to the toilet to wash my face, but the tears kept coming...

romeobanglore: I went outside, but I could not stand...

romeobanglore: I leaned on the wall and cried...

romeobanglore: everywhere I felt your smell

romeobanglore: I remember you full of our room

julietscity: In these 11 days, we can be together ... every minute

romeobanglore: yes...I want each minute with you...

romeobanglore: I can never have enough of you

julietscity: yes...my dear...we will be together...when your arrival

julietscity: till your departure

romeobanglore: connection is playing bad...it’s better to stop now...I need a cigarette

julietscity: That day in Frankfurt ... you were there alone ... yes ... this could be an experience where you learn how to face it ... if it happens again ...

julietscity: ok

romeobanglore: honey

julietscity: yes

julietscity: my dear

romeobanglore: when I say I love you, trust me, it comes from my heart

julietscity: it's time to say bye-bye?

julietscity: YES! IT comes from your true and deep heart!

romeobanglore: there is no one in the world like you for me...to love and fight with me...to scold and cry for me

julietscity: yes...but Sylvia said we can't fight that often…

romeobanglore: yes...I don't want to

julietscity: I can't wait ... so ... Sunday ... fix the time ... we can make sure you will go to Madras

romeobanglore: but you are the only one who can fight with me without being enemies

romeobanglore: I will send you an mail tomorrow to fix the time, ok?

julietscity: ok...

romeobanglore: my honey

julietscity: my dearest Kamal...

julietscity: I love you and need you to protect me ... I'm getting scared ... afraid to change

julietscity: hello?

julietscity: hello?

julietscity: hello?

romeobanglore: I love you too much...I want you to be in my chest

julietscity: say bye now?

romeobanglore: always

romeobanglore: ok...let’s say bye for now

romeobanglore: kiss me

julietscity: mmmmma…mmmmmmma ...mamamammmma...

romeobanglore: I need to go home with your smell

julietscity: bye now...

romeobanglore: bye, mmmmmaaaa

julietscity: bye