Yahoo Messenger: 27 March 2001 06:28 PM

Subject: among the majority who don't get lucky

romeobanglore: hello

julietscity: HIYA

romeobanglore: yes...

julietscity: Today is Tuesday!!!

romeobanglore: no number from me!

julietscity: hahaha... I know there is some websites supply number.

romeobanglore: hmmmm

julietscity: sorry

julietscity: no number

romeobanglore: why?

romeobanglore: hahahaha...I guess you lost some money today also

julietscity: Because I can no longer gamble

julietscity: not yet

romeobanglore: you will lose money of you gamble!

julietscity: Until 6:30 pm our time ... everyone can guess the number

romeobanglore: good

romeobanglore: so you want to try today also?

julietscity: I don't have any number now?

julietscity: Do you want to give me some of your dreams?

romeobanglore: I won't have any number! because you may lose money I will feel bad

julietscity: I went to a website that provides lottery numbers

julietscity: On the webpage, the first sentence announced or commented by the host...

julietscity: "First you have to trust yourself!"

romeobanglore: that's the mistake everyone makes

julietscity: At that moment, I remembered that I had always had a lack of self-confidence ... even for my job now or for the future.

romeobanglore: they trust themselves and find out that their trust was misplaced...they lose money

julietscity: hahaha...that's not the meaning what I want to say

romeobanglore: you should be confident...but, not overconfident

julietscity: I told you "it won't happen no matter how I think", right? And you never believe... yes... someone told me as you said

romeobanglore: I don't believe in that policy

julietscity: He told me that people always remember the worst in their hearts because they forget the good things they have

romeobanglore: yes...I agree with him

julietscity: He said people always do this ... not only I have this experience ... in the end, I agree with that

romeobanglore: hmmmm

julietscity: You know people should pray and have their own belief or religion

julietscity: I was... But I forgot how long I didn't pray for my goal or my expectation...

romeobanglore: so?

julietscity: even now... I'm also afraid to pray

julietscity: Because I believe everything I pray ... will never succeed, so why should I pray for myself?

romeobanglore: if you take my case also, it has happened...but I don't always believe that it happened because I prayed for it

romeobanglore: I have such a belief sometimes...but I know it is a superstition

julietscity: then... Uncertainty or lack of confidence affects my thoughts and brain

julietscity: Because I never thought it would succeed... so... maybe I didn't fight for it or maybe I didn't work hard enough for it

julietscity: hello? Are you there?

romeobanglore: yes

romeobanglore: I have always told you that it's just a belief without any logic

julietscity: I never thought I would win or I might win ... I always like to be a loser or a miserable

romeobanglore: strange...but I don't think so...you want to win

julietscity: I told Sylvia that I've never had the luckiest thing ... especially when it comes to wealth

julietscity: NO... That's not winning... that's fair... I hope everything is fair to me

romeobanglore: you are just making a big issue over it...

romeobanglore: you know out of the 500,000,000 people in this world, how many people get lottery? how many people get the things they want?

julietscity: Someone got it ... we call them lucky

romeobanglore: yes...and luck is just a chance 1/500,000,000

julietscity: Then why is such a person good luck all the way ... and some people never have a chance again

romeobanglore: it is difficult to be among the very few ones....all of us are among the majority who don't get lucky all the time

julietscity: yes... I really have a hard time being one of them...

julietscity: but confidence...

julietscity: Do you think I was overconfident before?

romeobanglore: no one is always lucky...there should be some opportunities for them to get those things

romeobanglore: I didn't say

romeobanglore: but gambling is a sense of overconfidence

julietscity: yeah...

julietscity: you always right

romeobanglore: hahaha...I am trying to make you understand my philosophy

julietscity: yes...and how about my philosophy?

romeobanglore: connection lost

julietscity: I think I don't have the right idea in any theory... I only have fantasies

romeobanglore: this belief is like a fantasy...

romeobanglore: you know sometimes I also think the way like you think...but I know it is wrong and has no logic

julietscity: but a dream...still like a hope

julietscity: People have a dream and realize their dreams... because they believe in themselves and work hard for it

romeobanglore: helllllllooooooo

julietscity: they certainly have confidence

romeobanglore: yes...but they don't gamble because of dreams, hahaha!

romeobanglore: yes... confidence in their "ability"...not in their "luck"

julietscity: If I were more confident ... Do you think things will change?

romeobanglore: you can work for it if you have confidence

romeobanglore: but not everything is decided by us...

julietscity: yes... If I were confident, I might pass the TOEFL test with a high score, but I did not

julietscity: I think it depends on my fate

julietscity: hello?

romeobanglore: hello

romeobanglore: helllllllllllloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

romeobanglore: yes, I got your words

romeobanglore: see...now you are talking with logic!

julietscity: how come?

julietscity: That's the fact I met

romeobanglore: you told that if you had confidence, you would have worked hard and got TOEFL

romeobanglore: so that's confidence

julietscity: that's the simple idea

romeobanglore: not betting over numbers...gambling is ok if you don't lose much money

romeobanglore: hmmm...