Yahoo Messenger: 11 May 2001 01:46 PM

Subject: now you told me "should not wait"

julietscity: hello

romeobanglore: yes...I got you at last

julietscity: why did you get into the office so late

romeobanglore: I got your mails just now

julietscity: and every day seems to be off early

romeobanglore: I went to have breakfast outside

romeobanglore: of course not early...I leave the office at 7

julietscity: Your company has given you too many employee benefits

romeobanglore: because we strain our brain too much

julietscity: but sometimes you go to play cricket at work, and you can go home temporarily to the toilet

romeobanglore: this is the working culture in software companies

romeobanglore: in India

julietscity: haahah...OK!

romeobanglore: they don't care when we come or when we go...only thing is we should work 48 hours a week

julietscity: I will back home on Monday

romeobanglore: when are you leaving?

julietscity: after talking to you ... and discussing what I should do about the business

romeobanglore: discuss with whom?

julietscity: I have to take the bus for 5 hours... so... I have to go immediately

romeobanglore: ok

julietscity: Mr. J and another older president of the company... he also provided me and J's brother with some business from Japan.

romeobanglore: have you booked tickets?

julietscity: not yet... there are always a lot of vacancies when taking a bus, and it is easier to buy a ticket than a train

romeobanglore: where will you stay in K city?

julietscity: stay at the company or live with Miss S, who works at the company

romeobanglore: don't stay in company

romeobanglore: there may not be any bed for you

julietscity: and...last night... I have recently considered our relationship ... I don't know what we are doing these days ... we are fighting and compromising and...

romeobanglore: hmm...

julietscity: that place is not an office ... it's more like a house, but they see it as a company

julietscity: so... these are the questions I want to ask

romeobanglore: what?

julietscity: no matter how many issues we have fought or argued before ... the only thing that matters is

julietscity: you told me ... when you overcome all the problems if I am still here... then...

julietscity: Is that true?

julietscity: I know you told me a lot of things and promised me a lot of conditions... I want to forget all of them... can I just remember only this?

romeobanglore: it is the truth...but you should not wait...it might be too late for me...I say this with pain in my heart...but I have to say this

julietscity: or do you need time to think about it this weekend?

julietscity: oooooh...great! now you told me "should not wait"!

romeobanglore: it is the truth...but you know I don't know how I will overcome all problems...and even when I do, it may be late for you

romeobanglore: you know why I said that...

julietscity: ok.. take the time to think about it this weekend and think about our future relationship, okay?

romeobanglore: because I should not stand in the way of your better future...you also told me that

romeobanglore: you know...I don't have to think...I meant it

julietscity: so... what are we doing now?

romeobanglore: but...you can't wait too much, I know

julietscity: why we still talk to each other and share things ... which is not good for us

romeobanglore: what are we doing now? I don't know...whenever I feel like you are going away, I can't stand it...

romeobanglore: when you come close, I feel guilty of not offering you a secure future

julietscity: then... If you can't do something, try to hold back

romeobanglore: I try to...if I am sure that you will be happier if you leave me

julietscity: then we have to help each other without feeling guilty and try to endure ... okay?

romeobanglore: how?

julietscity: If I lied to you, I would be happier ... would you believe it?

romeobanglore: I won't...I have to make it 100% sure

julietscity: I don't know what to do... just try to help each other and overcome difficulties in some ways

romeobanglore: you know, yesterday I told not to get too close with Mr. J...because he can't offer you a good life

julietscity: how do you know he can't?

romeobanglore: and I can't stand people playing around with you

romeobanglore: not a family life

romeobanglore: he has a wife and he has a girlfriend

julietscity: hmmmm...I know I don't appreciate his extramarital affairs

julietscity: you also... you may have a new wife and child...

romeobanglore: he cannot leave his wife, they have children

romeobanglore: he is not a man of integrity, judging by what I know of you

julietscity: hmmm... he is only a hard worker and has the same goal as me to make more money.

romeobanglore: he sleeps with his wife...he can't go away from her

julietscity: there are a lot of handsome guys in K city ... this is not the point!!!

julietscity: forget them, only you and me

romeobanglore: between you and me...

julietscity: If you fall in love with another person from now on, and I also love someone ... that's because our love is not strong enough ... not because someone is playing around you or me, right?

romeobanglore: you can't wait too long...and I can't do anything now...that's our problem

julietscity: You don't want me to wait! you said so

romeobanglore: I told so because you told me that

romeobanglore: if you really love someone and want to go away with him...maybe...ok...

julietscity: I ask you... when you overcome all the problems if I am still here... do you still want me? No matter how old I am?

romeobanglore: but in that case...you have to be very much sure

julietscity: ANSWER ME!!!

romeobanglore: I want you to wait...but I can't ask you to do that...it will be selfish, you know...

romeobanglore: I will

romeobanglore: even if you are 60

julietscity: I won't live that long ... I will die at 50.

romeobanglore: YES

romeobanglore: I will...

julietscity: ok...that's enough

romeobanglore: hahaha...so even if you are 49

julietscity: forget everything we discussed ... and just remember what we are talking about now

romeobanglore: yes...

julietscity: time's up!!

julietscity: I have to pack and leave

romeobanglore: okkkk

romeobanglore: take care...

romeobanglore: and do you know what this means?

romeobanglore: there is an unhappy side to this also

julietscity: I will wait until I die, you will never marry anyone else, otherwise, I will kill you

julietscity: you got it?

romeobanglore: no...I didn't

romeobanglore: I didn't understand " you will never marry anyone else, otherwise, I will kill you"

romeobanglore: means that if I marry someone else, you will kill me?

julietscity: it means... I have to wait until the age of 49. under these years... you can't marry anyone ... because you still not overcome all the problems. and if you marry someone, I will try my best to kill you...

romeobanglore: it's clear...but you know what is the problem I am trying to overcome?

romeobanglore: in any case...you can kill me...I will be only too happy

romeobanglore: the problem is that I will be forced to marry someone...that is the only problem...

julietscity: do you understand why you want me to wait?

romeobanglore: yes, I do...I want you, that's why

julietscity: How can you be forced to marry someone if I am not married? Why don't you communicate or fight for it?

julietscity: forcing you to marry means that you have given up our love ... do your best to achieve the perfect communication, those troubles or problems you already know

romeobanglore: I will fight and communicate...but that will be against my parents...