Yahoo Messenger: 11 May 2001 01:46 PM

Subject: I want to fight for it but I can't do it now!

romeobanglore: you know marrying you and not marrying, should be the same for them

julietscity: YOU WANT ME TO BE YOUR AFFAIR and ALWAYS BE YOUR SECOND WIFE...that's what you told me, right?

romeobanglore: NO

julietscity: maybe the same for them...BUT... it's different for me

julietscity: If you decide to marry someone, it's betraying our deal ... then why are we making a deal now?

romeobanglore: that's why I told you...if you ever find someone whom you really like and who can offer you a good future...

romeobanglore: It is different to me also...

romeobanglore: but for them...it's the same

julietscity: from now on, I will never try to find someone to get married...I will wait until I die...

romeobanglore: I told you this...the unhappy side of the deal

julietscity: you just like to push me away from you to anyone, there will be no responsibility to you ... if it is a burden for you now, then you should tell and try to suffer alone now

romeobanglore: you are not a heavy-duty for me! I want you to be happy...that's why I tell all this even if my heart is burning

julietscity: say goodbye to me and bless me to find a man who treats me well and marry him to meet my bright future...

romeobanglore: now I am becoming the bad guy, right?

julietscity: so... whether or not I get this man... this will always be my problem!!!

julietscity: NOT YOURS!!!

romeobanglore: your problems are my problems too...

romeobanglore: whatever happens and wherever you go

romeobanglore: it will be the same

julietscity: Because ... you want something to stay with you, but you haven't tried your best to fight for it ... and you don't want to let go ... that's why ... that's your character? Is that your style?

romeobanglore: I want to fight for it...but I can't do it now!

julietscity: I know!!!

romeobanglore: because if I do it now...there is no chance to win

romeobanglore: maybe later I have a chance to win...that's why I told you if I overcome the problems and you are still there, I will marry you

julietscity: I just hope that before you marry someone ... you should think of me and reject her

julietscity: I don't see your confidence and determination

romeobanglore: I wish you to wait till then...but I can't ask you to do so...because I can't make 100% sure

romeobanglore: any other marriage, I will try my best to decline it

julietscity: I'm not saying you have to leave your parents ... but you still have many ways to try ... you just give me a reason because your parents will be hurt or they will be sad...

julietscity: If they know that the son they love has a lot of pain, then ... they won't force you to do anything

romeobanglore: see...if my parents agree for this, the next second I will marry you...

julietscity: but you don't believe what I said ... because you never dare to hurt your parents' feelings. You also owe them the responsibility debt of raising you and educating you...

julietscity: what do you want me to do?

romeobanglore: they may not force me to do anything...but that means they will suffer

julietscity: If you want me to find someone else ... you should say now ... I can't love you and still make friends with others

romeobanglore: if you love anyone else, be 100% sure that you will get a good future from him...

romeobanglore: you know my heartburn to say this

julietscity: I love you, but you cannot be 100% sure that you will bring me a better future ... what should I do? it's the same, right? Will you tell me to leave you?

julietscity: the answer is the same to anyone now...

romeobanglore: if you are not getting a 100% good future from another person, why should you leave me?

julietscity: why is it so difficult to make a choice? Did I ask you more, or did I pressure you too much?

julietscity: because if you marry any other woman, I can't stand it, because you are forced to marry her by your parents

romeobanglore: you don't ask anything...you ask me what I want...but for me, to get them is not easy

romeobanglore: I know that...

julietscity: It's not fair to me... if in the end, you have to listen to your parents... or follow their decision... you should tell me now

romeobanglore: and it's the same feeling for me...

romeobanglore: it's difficult to love you and marry someone else

romeobanglore: but I don't know what is their decision

julietscity: I can tell you, I won't marry anyone ... if I will, the reason will only be that I want a child ... and I will try to get the first child from you, even if I am not married...

romeobanglore: you once told me that you won't agree to do anything that will hurt my parents

julietscity: when you marry a girl but don't give her your love, you still continue to date with me ... You live this way just to hurt your parents and your family

romeobanglore: they will NEVER know

romeobanglore: why you won't marry anyone?

julietscity: why should I? I can live with my children alone.

romeobanglore: you don't want a family?

julietscity: I will try my best to let them know ... I will buy a house and get close to your house to let everyone know that we are together

romeobanglore: when we first met, you didn't have the ideas of marriage or a family...all you wanted was a baby

romeobanglore: but I have seen that changing

romeobanglore: so you hurt them!

julietscity: because once I wanted to have a family with you, I knew you would protect me and keep me by your side forever ... but now, it is impossible for me...

romeobanglore: no...you never believed in it...

julietscity: Yeah...when you betray our deal... How could I stand there stupidly and see you and your lovely wife hugging and having sex?

romeobanglore: you were the one who had always said that we can't be together

romeobanglore: and I tried to tell you that we can try

julietscity: haaha...Now you tell me that we can try?

romeobanglore: don't say, lovely wife!

julietscity: Now I tell you to work harder... but you still tell me... it's difficult for you, isn't it?

romeobanglore: I have always told that we can try

romeobanglore: never told 100% that we will win...

julietscity: you may be forced to marry the lovely wife provided by your parents because we once said that we would not hurt your parents

romeobanglore: it has always been difficult

julietscity: You know... sometimes I really want to call your mother directly, tell her who I am, and try to let her know... but... you told me I can't do that now !!

julietscity: So...please...please...tell me what can we do now?

julietscity: Waiting?

romeobanglore: she won't even understand your English!

julietscity: I will try

julietscity: I will try to make her understand my English!!!!!

julietscity: or even write her a mail

romeobanglore: I told you about waiting...

julietscity: forget it

romeobanglore: but I won't ask you to do so, even if I wish it

julietscity: Yes...I will wait for

romeobanglore: it will be very, very, very difficult to make her understand

julietscity: NO...I am telling now...I will WAIT and I take this as...YOU TOLD ME TO WAIT!!!

julietscity: Ok...I am leaving

romeobanglore: ok...I will write an mail...

julietscity: If anything changes ... just tell me

romeobanglore: you make my eyes wet

julietscity: NONONO

romeobanglore: you have to go now

julietscity: but

romeobanglore: it already late for you

romeobanglore: you have some more things to say?

julietscity: I don't know what you will write to me

julietscity: but don't send me a sad mail...

julietscity: If that decision would excite us and provide us with a bright future or hope, it should be a happy thing

romeobanglore: hmm...okkk

julietscity: You know and we all know it very well ... meeting the right people in the world is not easy

romeobanglore: yes... we were right to each other...

julietscity: Now we meet... of course we don't know if we are right... but at least now we think so... if I deserve it for you... why don't you do it

julietscity: and convince your parents to accept me... not just think of it...

Yahoo! Messenger: romeobanglore has logged back in. (2001/5/11 at PM 01:42)

romeobanglore: I told you, I will fight...but you know who are my enemies...I can't defeat them without a lot of bloodsheds!

julietscity: I know you love me very much ... that's why I can't leave you ... besides you ... I know no one will treat me like a treasure or cherish me seriously

romeobanglore: I will try that...

julietscity: then I will live alone till my age 50

romeobanglore: you too...you gave me the sweet memories of love...you taught me the real love...that's why I try to fight against all difficulties

romeobanglore: any pressures

romeobanglore: honey...I have to leave now...for a meeting...they are calling me

julietscity: when I think so ... I will rely on your love ... but I know it is wrong ... because I know my temper and I know I will ask for more and hurt you again and again...

romeobanglore: my manager is here

julietscity: Ok...see you on Monday

julietscity: bye...

romeobanglore: hmm...bye