I point my item creation wand at the ground. Filled with anticipation, to the point that my arms are shaking. Magic starts swirling around me, musical notes start ringing their familiar tones.

*Congratulations*

Successfully created Item "4£(h¶¢"

"AAAAAAHH" I screech from mental anguish. This was my second wand and also my second lowest value drop this year.

"Admin to me" Raising my index finger to my nose as I recite a system command.

My surroundings start turning gray as a figure starts to slowly manifest Infront of me. It's a man with a white beard and robes. Admins usually don't show signs of aging, looking like 20 year olds for as long as they want. Him choosing to stay or become old, seems weird to me.

"What's the problem" he talks in a calm manner, as opposed to my clearly galvanized state.

"my reward was Awful grade"

"That was because you're unlucky, is there anything I can help you with”

"NO that's obviously not what I meant. I spent good money on these Fair grade wands and got an Awful grade item each time. Twice getting the worst is inconceivable. I didnt even know that you can get an Item of a lower grade form a wand of this quality. Not to mention that each wand had a less than (10^-13)% dangerous reward guarantee. Above Fair grade and you would have to change the laws of physics to even get a bad item.

"You used two fair wands. Receiving an item of a lower grade is improbable, but still possible. The likelihood of that happening is 1 in 1,000,000,000,000,000 (10^14). I can assure you, that everything that happened was what was supposed to happen. You can not do anything about your bad luck. Is there anything else you need help with"

"I guess not." When an admin says something, It should always be correct and unarguable. The process of turning a person into an admin is a rigorous process with many tool and mental augmentation to ensure absolute unbiased and thorough work. Many have theorized about the reason admins exist. But there is no real answer.

600 Coins subtracted from status Session ended by admin, Asderadus has set topic as resolved.

I spend around 1500-3200 Coins on each of those wands. It was painful to add 600 on top of that. I just assumed that I was unlucky, turns out I was correct. it is very difficult to farm those coins, while there are many free system provided jobs, they are only the lowest paying ways to spend your time.

I have inherited a shitty coin farm from my parents, which is just barely better than system jobs. Most of all the money i have earned was from the farm. For most of the my life, my chores were working at the family coin farm. I would complain about child labor laws, but then. They would have grounded me. So thats that. The farm is just larva spawn spot, that you Wait for the creature to spawn and place it under a crusher that my parents set up way back.

Killing them doesnt grant much experience. As new spawns have an infant period. The larva will overpower me in seconds if their infant period ends. Their maturity rate and level change to high level. What happens after they mature, is that i would need to fuck off somewhere else and wait for them to go away.

Even after my parents passed away, i still have bitter feelings about not being given a proper growth assistance. Like a learning capsule, power leveling services, Talent Syrum and other dumb stuff that would give me an edge. Everything i have is build fully on my hard work. The farm funded all my expenses.

The problem with being fully responsible to provide for yourself, is that you cant complain about being poor. Its fully on yourself to improve your situation. Losing money like this hurts even more. Because i just ran out of money and no one will bail me out. I dont really gamble, but i hoped to make back some money by selling the item or keeping it, if it was great for me.

The item was a something really stupid. Sword grease, That you apply on a sword to avoid corroding them. Its Awful grade, so it corrodes any sword you put it on. You could find a use for it if you are fighting acid monsters, But after a week. Both the grease and acid monster would ruin your blade. I have actual sword grease that works. I am going to mix it with the local acadamy's slob, that they call food. Probably going to make it taste better.

What will i do. Money is tight and gambling it away on frivolous stuff like item wands is not a good idea. Could have just bought the items directly. Why did i even think that i would get a super ultra rare item drop that will change my life. Why even bother hoping, You try and life beats you down.

"FUCK IT" Fuck all this shit. I spent my whole life in mediocrity. NO MORE, i am not going to tread the safe path anymore. NO MORE, grinding away repetitively on the farm. AS IF its an exercise in futility. I WANT TO WIN. I WANT TO LIVE.

There are many ways to make coins and only one way to get levels. No one care about level, All that matter is how wealthy you are. There are Kings with Sub 5 level ranges. But for levels, you can only get it from killing creature of any kind and experience orbs. Xp orbs can only level up to level 9. Some focuses dont accept any enhancements. So some cruel rulers decide to kill their citizens to level up. There is a down side, you get the kin-slayer.

A title granted to people that received more than 50% EXP from killing people of the same species. Killing other species is fair game. I am human from syla blood. If i kill an elf, then there no consequence and if I kill a human from a different blood, then the blood differences would need to exceed 35000 separations. Think of it like, when you have a cousin twice removed. Now increase that thirty thousand times and you are considered a different species by the system.

Having kin-slayer as a title ruins your reputation. There are just to many creatures to level up from. No one wants to keep a kin-slayer alive. If you're rich enough you can buy a focus that is leveled all the way up to level 50.

If i want to avoid risking my life on genuinely scary monsters, then i would need to find a way to murder a few people. Of course i am not the only person to think of a leveling plan that is similar. So there were many ways that were created to protect you from being randomly murdered on your way to buy groceries. so some random psycho wont be able to go on a rampage.

If i actually want to level up and not die instantly by monsters, then i will need to join the army and kill Forest Elves on their routine patrols. Forest elves have shot an aristocrat passing through the forest for intruding into their territory. The Syla Empire's response is total extermination of The whole species and any culture or related History of the local forest elves.

Half-breeds are exempted, but the empire was whipped into such a frenzy that it didnt matter to the angry populace. The elves claimed land owned by said aristocrat and killed him on his land. It didnt matter to them that the elves lived on the land before any human was there. The general sentiment, is that they are a savage people that no matter the amount of effort spent on trying to civilize them. They still stubbornly refuse to change their ways and integrate into society. I assume the kill order come about from the fact, that they behaved like a foreign force right on the empire's center.

The fact that they deface the values of the empire, lowers the apprehension of killing them. Forest elves are a small minority, but they militarised every member of their tribes and attack settlements in the name of "Protecting nature from the humans." Some of my extended relatives died by the hands of elves. So i have a personal stake on killing them.

Before going to the military, i first need to sell my farm and other useless objects. I would get a salary, but having more money for making sure i dont die is important. I am going to make something of my life. I AM GOING TO FINALLY WIN.