TW: Mentions of self-harm, bullying, $3X videos, and depression and anxiety.

"Do you want to be my girlfriend?" He smiled at me.

"What?"

"I really like you, please be my girlfriend." He knelt down.

"B-But, I don't see you that way.."

"...It's fine, let's just try it. Who knows, you might actually fall for me."

"No, seriously I don't want-" I didn't get to finish my statement when he cut me off.

"How about this, just think that you are getting revenge on your soulmates? They should know that you are an actress. Maybe if they saw you happy with me then they could start regretting what they did to you."

"I- I don't know.."

"Come on, it'll be fun. I promise."

"...I don't think I could do anything a girlfriend could do."

"It's fine, I don't even need it."

"Really?" I asked.

"Really, I promise."

"...Alright then."

I flinched at his voice, did I really say that?? but I don't like him..I already told him that a month ago when I proposed to end it.

I leaned in and kissed him lightly on the cheek. Ever since then he kept on asking for it, when we were in public, or whether it was just the two of us.

I was leading him on? But I never said I wanted to do it. I told him no many times..I'm leading him on?? Am I that horrible??

It took for him to try to remove my underwear to make me realize that I was being tricked. He said that there was no difference if I were to have sex with him from kissing. That I told him that I loved him. I knew I never said that, and that's when I split up with him.

Of course, the media was all up my business once more. The rumors about me having a horrible attitude and the fact my soulmates rejected me resurfaced again. My career was affected and the job offers were rapidly decreasing.

He threatened me that he'd post something along the lines that I had sex with him and had someone who looked somewhat like me in a sex video if I didn't get back together with him.

I was scared, I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to disappoint my parents by disgracing them with a daughter caught in a sex scandal that never happened. Just thinking of how they would look at me with disgust, turning me away. If people would avoid them if they knew I was their daughter. The possibilities of their careers were ruined all because of me.

How my sister who was already being bullied for having me as a sister would get even more tormented, hearing her cries at night already made me feel so guilty but what more if the video came out? The media would have twisted it and would do everything to make it look like I really did do it and that was what I was afraid of. I had a lot of haters..

I hung myself in my room.

My brother, Hyun-oppa caught me just in time and rushed me to the hospital secretly. No paparazzi were able to catch me inside the hospital.

They cried to me and asked me why I did it, after all the therapy I went through I still did it. They begged me..so I told them the truth.

They did everything they could to sue Lykos but we just couldn't find any evidence. It all disappeared. My father was fuming, he was soo frustrated that he couldn't do anything about it but was convinced by my mother that we should focus on helping me instead.

It took a full two years for me to get my mind straight, I placed my foot down and demanded that my manager would be Sir Seth. I decided to ignore all the unnecessary opinions in my life and focused on what was more important.

I never told anyone that the reason why I and Lykos broke up was that he attempted to sexually assault me. The brainwashing, gaslighting, and belittlement I received in my relationship with him made me want to never be in a relationship. It changed through the course of the years but it still left a scar that made me quite paranoid about it.

I accepted that I might just not get over the fact my soulmates rejected me without proper reason. That I will always think of them even after everything. I prayed that they are living a good life and that they are happy with whoever they rejected me for.

I thought of whatever happened to me in the past was a life lesson for me. A learning experience to help me grow to become a better person, after all, life isn't perfect...just like us.

. . .

I blocked off whatever Lykos was blabbering and observed the two idiots at the corner. The fact that Soren even ordered a vanilla shake and it got to his mustache lifted up my mood.

"Ha? What was it again? Could you start from the very top? Like the very very top??" I smiled at Lykos.

"Ah- F-Fine..so again, what happened was."

I took out my phone and pretended that I was taking a selfie with it. I don't care if you stupid media think I'm rude, y'all can kiss my ass.

Instead of taking a selfie, I took a photo f the distraught Alicai who didn't know what to buy from the cutesy menu, and the milk mustache Soren who looked down on his lip.

'Blackmail material, hehehe' I thought mischievously in my head.

To be Continued . . .