I sat there staring at the final ten questions of this test like it was written in some foreign language. I looked up at the clock and there was 15 minutes left. I looked back down at the questions and kept reading them over hoping something would finally click in my head. I watched as people got up and turned in their test tests.

"10 minutes remaining" The professor said aloud.

"Man fuck this shit" I said under my breath and just bubbled in C for the remainder of the questions. One of these answers would be right.

I turned in my test and headed out the room. I didn't even have time to dwell on the fact that I just failed the fuck out of this test. I was just glad it was over.

My phone vibrated in my back pocket and I looked at the screen and it was Michelle facetiming me.

"Welp I just failed my midterm" I said as I pushed open the door to walk outside. "I need a drink...or six"

"I thought you studied"

"Shit I thought I did too" I laughed putting my airpods in my ear so I could hear her better.

"Ooh you know what we should do later"

"What?"

"Let's go to the beach"

"Damn I haven't been to the beach inna minute" I replied as I kept walking to my next class, "Let's go tomorrow. I got a headache, I need a nap."

"I gotta work tomorrow"

"Ion feel like shaving my damn legs" I laughed.

"Okay fucking wolverine" Michelle replied back "Be ready at 5, k bye" She hung up the phone before I could even respond.

I decided to stop at Starbucks and get a quick study session in before this next test. I wasn't about to fail two tests back to back. I'd damn near have a mental breakdown.

I ordered myself a vanilla bean frappuccino before taking a seat at an open booth. I pulled out my iPad to look over my notes. My phone then began to ring again but it was Quincy this time.

"Hey can I call you later? I'm about to take this test and I'm tryna study right quick. I just failed my last one I'm not tryna fail this one too"

"Yeah that's cool"

"K bye" I replied and ended the call before returning to my study session.

I read over my notes for a little bit before heading to my last class for the day. The test took me about an hour to complete and I felt a little more confident about this one than the last one. I still had one more test to take in the morning though so I was still kind of stressed about that.

This college shit has really been kicking my ass this semester. I don't even know why I'm in school. I have no idea what I'm going to do after graduation. Working a 9-5 for the rest of my life sounds like hell. Is all this stress from school even worth it?

The money I was making per month doing Onlyfans was more money than people with degrees was touching in a year. If I could've kept the secret until after graduation I could've been set for awhile. Shit went left so quick though, it wasn't even worth all the shit I endured.

For a while I blamed myself for getting raped. I knew the risk I was taking by doing that form of work and putting myself out there like that. Then I had to realize at the end of the day the only person at fault was that dirty ass nigga. I don't care if I was walking down the street butt ass naked, that still didn't give him the right to do what he did to me.

He's a vile ass human being who's just out here living life normally like nothing ever happened meanwhile my life will never be the same.

I walked into my apartment and tossed my keys onto the counter. It was already going on 4:30 and I knew Michelle would be rushing me. I knew I had to call Q back and I also wanted to take a nap.

I sent him a quick text letting him know I was going out with Michelle and would call him tonight. I plugged my phone into the charger and then went to hop in the shower.

"I just know good and well you not just getting in the shower" I could hear Michelle say.

"Aht aht don't rush me! I told you to reschedule"

"Don't be in there forever. I'm starving" She replied before leaving out the bathroom.

Once I was done showering, I put on a two piece swimming suit along with some shorts and a crop top. I pulled my hair up into a ponytail before slipping on my fenty surf slides.

"Okay I'm ready" I called out grabbing my bag. I stuffed a towel into my bag along with some lotion and sun screen. I grabbed my phone and saw that Quincy had responded to my text.

"We should get ChickFilA" I said as I walked out my bedroom.

"I made sandwiches" She told me.

Once we got into her car and headed to the beach I started to read over my notes on my phone.

"How many years do you have left?"

"2 if I stop failing these test" I replied stuffing my phone into my bag.

"You got this" She replied as she pulled into a parking spot, "Damn aint nobody here. That mean I can be as ghetto as I please" She laughed as we got out the car.

I took my slides off as we walked in the sand.

"Oh shit I forgot my phone" Michelle said and started to run off.

"Yo ass always forgetting some shit" I scoffed. I continued walking into the beach. The view was amazing, the sun was just beginning to set so the lighting was amazing. I already knew I was about to make Michelle take all my pictures.

I noticed this guy sitting down and the closer I got the more recognizable he became.

"I just know good and well" I said to myself as I squinted trying to make sure I was right. The butterflies in my stomach was fluttering and my heart was racing. I don't know what made him finally look over in my direction but when he did a big smile appeared on his face.

I began to haul ass over to him. I missed this man so damn much. As I got closer I dropped my bag and pounced into his arm, wrapping my legs around him.

"I missed you" I said hugging him tightly.

"I missed you too" He chuckled holding me up. I pecked his lips before he let me down.

"The hell you doing here?" I questioned punching his arm.

"I just wanted to see you" He replied with a shrug "I know them midterms beating your ass. I just wanted you to take a lil break"

He had this cute little picnic set up with a bunch of my favorite snacks. There was rose petals and string led lights everywhere making everything look even more romantic. There was also two canvases and a few different paints sitting out.

"Awww baby" I said poking out my bottom lip trying not to cry.

"You better not" He laughed kissing my cheek.

"I'm not" I laughed fanning my eyes trying to dry them, "Thank you baby" I hugged him tightly.

"You're welcome"

"So Michelle isn't coming back?" I laughed raising an eyebrow.

"Nah she gone" Quincy chuckled taking a seat on the blanket. Musiq Soulchild was playing through the speaker. Everything about this was just so romantic.

"Ugh this is so cute" I said admiring the set up before sitting down next to him, "I really can't stand you" I scoffed rolling my eyes.

"You gon teach me how to paint?" I asked reaching for a canvas.

"There's a stencil on there, all you gotta do is color it in"

"You saying that like I still won't find a way to fuck that up" I laughed

"C'mon now even Lyric know's how to color in the lines"

"She's a talented queen" I replied and we both laughed.

He opened up all the paints and puts some on both of our palettes. I grabbed a brush and started to paint. "So how long are you here?"

"My flight leaves at 4am"

"Oh damn this trip is quick as fuck"

"Yeah I just wanted to do this for you. I got work to do tomorrow"

I nodded my head and kept my eyes on the canvas trying not to fuck it up. This was really the sweetest shit somebody has ever done for me. He really flew all the way out here just to spend a couple hours with me and take my mind off of school. That's love for real.

"Oooh can I have a slice of pizza? I'm starving" I asked looking at the box sitting beside Quincy.

"Go for it" He shrugged his shoulders at me.

"My shit look raw as hell. You could never," I laughed and he just wide eyed my painting "Don't be a hater all your life"

"That look meant 'wow that shit is amazing'" Quincy laughed. "How'd you do on the tests?"

"Yikes"

"Couldn't have been that bad"

I just gave him a look and returned to painting, "Imma just drop out and become a stripper"

"Don't nobody wanna see them lil ass cheeks"

"Woooow" I laughed shaking my head.

"But you've made it this far and put so much money into it you might as well ride it out."

I nodded my head, "Yeah you're right" I shrugged my shoulders.

"You got this, I believe in you" He smiled nudging my side.

Once we got done painting we just laid out and watched the sun set. He was smoking and I was just laying with the back of my head on his lap looking up at sky, vibing to the Elliot Trent song that was playing.

"If we ever fell in love girl I'll do it right the first time" I sang along with the song as I stuffed some grapes into my mouth.

"Quincy"

"Wassup?" He replied ashing out his blunt.

"I love you"

"Huh?"

I sat up and looked at him directly in the eyes, "I said I love you"

I watched as the smile carved into his cheeks, "I heard you. I just wanted you to say it again" He leaned in and pecked my lips.

"Say it again" He smiled kissing my neck.

"I love you"

"One more time"

"You're so annoying" I laughed and rolled my eyes pushing him away.

"I love you too" He said before kissing my lips softly. He leans forwards causing me to ease back onto the blanket.

"Wait" I said stopping him, "What if we get caught?"

"I guess you better cum fast" He laughed and started to unbutton my shorts.