Sun light slipped through the sheer fabric of the white curtains, coaxing me out of my dreamless sleep. A soft yawn left my lips before my eyes opened. Lush green leaves and vines welcomed me with warmth and love. I reach up and touch the vine of one, my finger rubbing the little leaves.

The soft clicking of thin heels echoed down the hall, snapping me out of my peaceful moment. "Jocelyn!" Alicia calls as the sound becomes louder and louder until a knock sounds at my door. I gasp softly and quickly tuck myself back in and close my eyes.

The door creaks quietly as Alicia chuckles softly, "I know your up.. I'm off to work so be good." Her heels clicked softly as she approached my bed. I do my best to stay still as she leans in close to look at my face. My lips fight a smile as she giggles, "I see you trying not to smile, dummy." I laugh as I hide under my blankets. "Go eat some breakfast and I'll be back at 9. Don't do anything dumb." I peek out and nod my head as she walks out, "And leave the dishes for me." The door closes with a click and I sigh softly.

I'm not a baby.

I swing my legs over my bed and hop down. I make my way to the front door and check if it's locked before making my way to the kitchen with some pep in my step. I open the fridge and eye the eggs before shaking my head and looking towards the milk. I grab it and place it on the table before opening the cabinets and eyeing the cereal. My eyes land on the chocolate puffs and I grab it with a smile.

To say breakfast was satisfying would be the least. It's something about cereal that just lifts the spirits.

I look out the window and watch the busy street below. Cars whizzed by as people quickly walked along on the side walk, their scarves blowing from the crisp cold winter air.

I sigh softly as I finish my bowl and place it into the sink. I break orders and wash my dish, this time with no mistakes.

The apartment hummed quietly as I made my way back to my room. I grab my watering can and begin to water my plants before knocking breaks my peace. I frown deeply and make my way towards the door.

I stand in the tips of my toes and look out the peep hole only to gasp and take a step back. My hand smacks my mouth as I try to silence my panicked whisper scream.

The knock sounds again, this time louder.

I nervously wipe my hands on my shirt before undoing the locks and peeking the door open. I peek over and shyly look to the ground as Dion eyes me curiously, "What you hiding? Bodies?" He chuckles at his joke as I shake my head no, a blush already forming on my skin. His eyes watched me as I nervously played with the end of my shirt, "You want to get some breakfast?.. I was on my way and thought chu might be hungry." I look up at him and nod my head, "Y-Yes please." He smiles and nods towards the door, "You want me out here or in there?" My eyes widen at my rudeness before I step back and open the door for him, "Y-You can come in.. Sorry." I stupidly look to the ground again and watch his feet as he enters.

"You goin like that?" I shake my head quickly and listen to him him. "You going to go change?" I nod my head and he hums again, this time a small chuckle leaving his lips. "You gonna change now?" I nod my head again and he laughs this time. "You wanna go or keep nodding?" My cheeks burn as I look up at him, "I'm gonna go.." I mumble shyly and don't wait for a response as I rush towards my room.

I close the door quickly and listen to him laugh, embarrassment making me cringe hard.

My hands tighten to fists as I shut my eyes tight, "Stupid Stupid Stupid!" I whisper yell as my fist collides with my head, banging harder and harder until my head turns light and the room begins to fuzz. I drop my hand to lean against the door, my breathing deep as I try to focus my eyes again.

Hurry.

My eyes snap open as the red sirens begin flashing in my mind once again. My feet are a blur as I rush to my closet, sifting through the sweaters until I land on a thick white knitted one. I throw off my shirt and put on the sweater before grabbing a pair of leggings and throwing them on.

I step in the mirror and fix myself before freezing as I see the drool like running down the side of my lips. I gasp softly before running into the bathroom, scrubbing my face and brushing my teeth before spraying my wild curls with water.

It had to be only a few minutes but it felt like an hour as I finally slip on my shoes and put on some lip gloss. I look in the mirror one more time.

My eyes linger on my tummy, hidden by the thick sweater. I pull it down hard before grabbing my white purse and heading out my room.

Dion sat on the couch quietly. His eyes watching his phone as he leaned against his hand. I nervously play with my hands as I silently stand in the doorway, trying to find a way to introduce myself.

I open my mouth and nothing comes out.

I try again.

Nothing.

I look down at my shoes and take a deep breath, "You good?" I snap my head up to Dion. His eyes raked my body slowly. His hand brushing against his beard before he grabbed his hat and pulled it down further as a smile lifted at his lips, "Who told you to come out here all cute?" My eyes widen before I quickly look away, "C-Cute?" I repeat stupidly as he stands up, making his way to me.

He nods his head slowly as his tongue darts out to lick his lips slowly, "C'mon.. You hungry right?" I nod my head and he smiles before leading me out the door. I grab my key and lock the door before holding it for a three seconds and twisting the knob twice.

He gives me a curious look but I pretend to not notice as I follow him to the elevator. "Hold up." He stops in front of his door and unlocks it, "C'mere. I got something for you." I couldn't help my curiosity as I followed him inside.

His apartment was mainly white except for his black furniture. Sparse paintings were scattered around the blank walls, mainly consisting of athletes and movies. "Fast and Furious." I read slowly before looking towards his balcony. Giant black out curtains cut off all the sunlight except for a little sliver that slipped past the tiny partition between the curtains.

"I'll be quick." He snaps me out of my thoughts and I can't help my blush as he smiles at me. I nod my head and stand in the doorway as he disappeared down the hall.

The room fell silent as I stood on the door mat, my eyes curiously looking around as I rocked slowly back and forth on my feet. I look down at my sneakers and start counting the white butterflies on them.

1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8

I perk up as I hear him walking back towards the room. I pull my sweater down as he walks towards me, another sweat shirt in his hands. "You wore my last one so have this until it's washed." I shake my head quickly, "No! I-I don't wanna take all your clothes!" He rolls his eyes before stuffing it in my arms, "It's clean and you always look cold." My eyes widen at his observation. I was truly always cold.

Always.

I nod my head slowly as I hug it into me, "O-Okay.." A smile lifts at his lips, "You ready?" I nod my head.

"Use your words."

"Y-Yes."