"You seriously don't know how much I want to kiss you," Kaden murmurs in my ear as I slept. He didn't know I was awake, so I thought. I mean, I was pretty sure he did know. After the ceremony, we both had stumbled back up here ready to go to sleep. I was absolutely knackered an wanted nothing more than to sleep. Kaden, well he was tired too. I mean, after all he is an Alpha. I felt his fingertips tracing down my neck, making goosebumps appear on my skin. "I want to kiss you, mark you, stick my-" My eyes widen and I cut him off.

"Shh," I quickly say before he finishes the sentence. I had an innocent mind, but I knew where he was leading to.

"I knew you were awake. It was only a matter of time before-"

"I'm trying to sleep," I growl back, unhappy that he's disturbing me from my sleep. I yawn and close my eyes again. I was slowly drifting off to sleep when I felt tingles being spread throughout my body. I realised his hands were roaming my body and kisses were being placed on my neck. "Kaden," I breathe out, making him groan in pleasure. What is with this boy? He continue to kiss down my neck, then pulling my top away from my shoulder. He kissed my exposed shoulder. I wanted him to stop, but then again I couldn't bring myself to tell him to stop.

"Yes my love?" he finally replies, his hands turning my body so I was facing him.

"I'm trying to sleep," I repeat, trying to calm myself. It was only a few kisses here and there, but I'd never experienced anything as intimate as that.

"I'm sorry.." I could tell he wasn't, not because I was a mind reader but because of the small smirk he had. His forehead touched mine and he gave me an Eskimo kiss. My heart started beating wildly and my breathing became irregular as his lips neared mine. Ariella was loving it, but me? I didn't know what to feel. I was nervous and scared, but also excited. But I don't want to get attached and be hurt again. I quickly sit up, careful not to hit his head with mine, and get out of the bed. "Where are you going?" he asks, getting panicked.

"I need a drink," I reply with, before heading out the room and rushing down into the kitchen. I stood at the sink just staring down at it. I needed some breathing space in all honesty. I couldn't think with him being in the same bed as I. I mean, sure it was his bed but still. With him doing that, definitely couldn't think straight. I can't get attached, though. It'll only end in me being hurt.

"Did I overstep the boundaries?" Kaden asks, making me jump in fright. I turn around to find him shirtless, still, and staring at me with a look of regret on his face. He did, but the again I didn't entirely stop him.. I mean...I did enjoy it.

Of course you did, he's our mate, Ariella growls out frustratedly.

"Um- I- Kind of?" He walks slowly up to me and stopped in front of me, making sure he kept himself a safe distance away from me.

"I'm sorry," he murmured, looking down at the floor. I frowned.

"It's not your fault," I tell him, "I've just never done anything like that, and I don't want to get attached to you," I whisper the last bit, but obviously he heard with him being not so far in front of me and the super werewolf hearing we have. His head shot up, eyes showing a bit of anger and hurt.

"Why the hell not? We're mates." I choose not to answer, not finding the words. The look on his face and his tone of voice terrified me. His face looked as if he was about to murder someone. I've really done it this time. I tried to move back, but obviously o couldn't with the sink being behind me. His fists had balled up.

"I'm sorry, don't hurt me," I whisper, starting to shake a bit as I stared at his balled fists. "I'm sorry," I repeat again. His angry expression was wiped off and his hands became normal again as he stretched them out. He walked up to me, terrifying me more. He was so close to me, but I slipped through a gap and walked away from him.

"Nova, love," he called out, hurt in his eyes. He frowned and sighed, "go up to the room and sleep, I'll sleep in my office." I was about to protest but he told me to go, so I did. When I was up in the room, snuggled in the bed, I felt bad. Kaden should be sleeping here, not me. It's his bed, not mine. He shouldn't have to sleep in the office. If anything, I should be lying in a ditch dead. After all, I am a rogue. I got out of bed and walked to his office, opening the door as quietly as I could.

But he wasn't in here. I waited in there for him to show up, sitting myself on his chair. I waited for ages, but he never turned up. I found myself falling asleep on the chair.

When I woke up, I was still in his office. I rubbed my eyes slightly, yawned, and got up whilst stretching. I made my way to the room, but there was no sign of him. "Kaden," I called out, thinking he would pop out of nowhere. But he didn't.

I made my way downstairs, knocking on Edna's door. I hoped I didn't wake her, and I was thankful to find her already dressed in some casual clothing. "Luna, what a wonderful surprise. How are you, dear?"

"Um, I'm okay. I think? How are you?"

"I'm wonderful, thank you. What can I do for you? You look worried," she states, a small frown forming.

"Have you seen Kaden?" I ask, looking around.

"I have not, I'm afraid. I'm sorry. Why don't you mind link him?" Oh yeah. I forgot about that. I try to mind link him, but I couldn't reach him. I shook my head and her frown deepened. "I can't get through to him either," she mutters. "Is everything alright between the both of you?" I quickly nod my head, too quickly. I'm sure she knows something is up, but I don't care. I wanted to know where Kaden was, and apologise. It wasn't his fault, none of it was. It was mine.

"It's fine don't worry, I'll go find him." Before she could reply, I head upstairs and have a five minute shower so I didn't smell awful. I threw on some clothes and raced downstairs. As I hit the last step I turned the corner and bumped into someone, making me fall to the ground. I look up to find a rough looking Kaden. "Kaden," I breathe out, a smile gracing my lips. He didn't acknowledge me, though. Well, he did. He looked at me and then walked away and up the stairs. I quickly scramble to my feet, following him. He had gone into his office and before I could follow him in, he shut the door in my face. I go to open it, but it was locked. I knock on the door. "Kaden?" He doesn't answer back, though. I get the message. I've royally screwed it up, haven't I? It really is my fault. "I'm sorry."

With that, I walk down the stairs and head for outside.

I might as well leave, let's hope I can actually get somewhere before anyone finds me.