LIAM

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I've been losing sleep.

It's been 3 days since i snapped at her, and haven't heard from her since.

I really didn't mean to say that, it's just whenever anyone brings her up, i can't help it. My Violet is not annoying. I don't know why i said that. I yelled at her. And i didn't mean to. Especially after she opened up about her past. Things were jousting getting good again.

Braydon also hasn't been answering my calls. I'm going over there today.

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"Braydon?" I yelled as i stepped in his apartment.

"Shit! You scared me!" He shrieked and jumped.

"Braydon, why are you ignoring me too" i said as i got a beer out of his fridge.

"I haven't"

"Braydon."

"I haven't liam."

I sat down on his couch and saw a hair clip. One that a woman would use. And i know right now Braydon is seeing some guy named Holden or whatever, so it's not his girl. I recognize it. Its violets.

"Braydon what the hell is this?" I said holding it up.

"Huh?- oh uhhhh-"

"Braydon- what the fuck- this is violets. I know it is. What is it doing here? Was she here? Where is she-"

"Calm down bitch," he said as rolled his eyes and sighed, "fine. She called me after that night. She's stayed here for a few days, but she left."

"Left?"

"Left as in went home Liam."

"Oh. Was she okay?"

"Liam talk to her."

"I tried- don't you think i tried?!"

"Try harder then."

"What am i supposed to do?"

"Liam. This time you screwed up. It's up to you to figure it out. I cant always help you in these types of situations, figure your shit out. Get her back. But let me just say this- don't ever talk to her like that again, you hear me?"

"I know i know, i didn't mean to, she just brought up-"

"I don't care if she brought up your ex, she doesn't know why she shouldn't, so how is she supposed to know? She told you about her past, how about you tell her about yours?"

"I cant Braydon. I've only ever told you and Alex-"

"Stop making excuses. Violet is amazing and if you don't fix this, someone else will, and she'll be gone. She'll find someone else. You'll be too late."

"I know" i said as i sighed, "it scares the shit out of me"

"Just go talk to her. Please?"

"She probably hates me, she doesn't want to see me."

"Liam- srop being a little bitch, and man up. And she could never hate you."

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I've never been this nervous.

I'm at my place trying to pick out a outfit and think of a long speech to give her.

What do i wear? Fuck why do i even care about what i wear? I know she likes when i wear blue, she said it makes me look "fabulous".

I put on a blue long sleeved shirt, and black Nike shorts. I actually brushed my hair today, and got my flowers i got her, a box of chocolate (her favorite cookies and cream) and Chinese food for us to share.

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I knocked on her door, my palms sweaty and nervously moving my feet around on her welcome Matt that says "hey bitch!".

"Braydonnnnn? I'm coming-"

Oh. She was expecting him. Seeing her again is like a breath of fresh air. I can finally breath again. She was wearing a light pink bralette and black plaid pajama shorts, and neon orange socks. Her hair was also in a messy bun. She looked good.

"Oh-" she said as she took a step back.

"Hi Violet. Can we talk?"

"Uh- sure, come in" she said as she moved to the side to let me enter.

"How are you? Do you want someone to eat or drink?"

"I uh brought food. And chocolate. And flowers. I know you have a lot and work at a flower shop but i got these and they're white tullips."

"Oh- yeah thanks" she smiled and took the flowers to put them in a vase of water, among with her other 7 flowers. I've already counted.

"So uh how have you been?"

"Fine." She said as she sat down and took her bowl of Chinese food.

"Uh yeah me too. Kind of"

"What's wrong? You're nervous, and you don't get nervous."

"I wanted to uh- apologize...?"

She nodded as a signal for me to go on.

"I'm sorry for what happened. For what i said. I'm really so so sorry reina-"

"Violet. It's Violet now."

I think my heart just broke a little.

"Oh right- Violet. I'm sorry. I just snapped. I didn't mean to. I haven't got much sleep, or eaten. Or showered. But i showered before i came."

"I know."

"Yeah- so I'm sorry. I really am."

"You should be" she said. She's such a smart ass.

"Okay smartass, but i really am. I'll never do it again. "

"Promise?"

"Uh i don't know. I don't want to make a promise i can't keep. I know how much they mean to to. But i promise to try. Really hard."

"Okay"

I've never seen her so quiet. It makes me so sad. I want to hear her ramble about stories, and ask me random weird questions, and make me laugh, and smile, even though i try and hold it back.

"I got your favorite chocolate too." I said i passed it to her.

"You remembered."

"Yeah. I did."

"Braydon invited me to go to dinner with you guys on Friday? Your friend is coming from out of town?"

"Oh yeah i completely forgot, uh, are you gonna go?"

"Yeah. You?"

I really don't want her to go. My friend is a dick. I know he'll try to hit on her.

"Yeah."

"Where is it?"

"15th street bar."

"Oh yeah."

She's so quiet. She keeps giving short quick replies. I miss her laugh. I miss her smiles. I miss her..

I miss mí reina.

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