VIOLET

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It's midnight now. Alex brought me to his place.

He's actually really nice and a teddy bear once you get past the big bad scary guy part.

"I'm gonna head to bed, i have work tomorrow. You gonna be alright?"

"Yeah. Thanks Alex. It means a lot, and I'm sorry I'm in the way all the time."

"V, it's okay. You sure you're fine on the couch?"

"Yep!" I said patting it.

"Goodnight violet. Wake me up if you need something" he said and i nodded, and he went down the hall.

Gosh.

I don't know what to think.

What even happened tonight.

Was Liam embarrassed to be my boyfriend?

Why did he say i was his friend?

Who was that girl?

I heard a know come from the door.

I know Alex has to be up early for work, so i peeked through the peek hole.

Liam.

"Alex?" He groaned out rubbing his eyes.

Wow. He's not even looking for me.

"Alex i hear you, open the door man"

He looks really rough right now.

I opened the door.

"Alex hey man-" he paused as he looked me in my eyes.

His eyes were red and he had terrible eye bags.

And he smelt like alcohol.

"Are you drunk?"

"Tipsy. Wha-what are you doing here?"

"Remember, Alex brought me home?"

"Oh- yeah. Can we go to my place? It's 2 doors down. Please? Please violet i promsie it'll be worth it."

"Liam-"

"Please violet lilac." He said with glossy eyes.

"Fine. But I'm not staying. I'll stay at Alex's tonight."

"Fine. Cmon let's go" he said as we walked 2 doors down and opened room 218.

"Sit down wherever. You need anything?" He said sounding exhausted.

"No, I'm not staying long, just come sit." I said as he walked over and sat next to me, facing me.

"I don't even know where to begin-"

"Liam. Just listen to me. Once. Without interrupting. What you did tonight.... It wasn't okay. Like at all. It was hurtful. You seem... ashamed... to be with someone like me. And it hurt me. Really bad. I don't know how to be a good girlfriend, or heck even friend. But i try. Because i want it to work. I try for you. And it's hard when I'm the only one trying. And i can't keep doing this- i can't if you don't try. If you don't let me in."

"Trust me liam, i want to see all of you. The bad, and the good. Let me in Liam. I won't run. I won't be scared. I won't leave. I only want you Liam. I promise. What i feel around you.. i- i don't feel with anyone else. I want you and only you. All of you. So please, please give me a good explanation of what happened earlier. Or else i might be done trying for the sake of us both."

Silence.

He just looked at me without blinking.

And then swallowed hard.

"Violet. I'm sorry. I always do this. I don't want to keep hurting you. And tonight- i saw Skylar. And i fucking lost it. She did something really fucked up to me, and i haven't been the same Since. I want to tell you. And i will. But i shouldn't have done that."

"I'm so scared. I love you so much it hurts me. It makes my heart ache when i keep hurting you. And i don't deserve you. But i got you. And i should be doing better. I want to try with you. And i will. I want to let you see the bad and good parts of me. But I'm scared. I'm so fucking scared. But i love you. So I'll try. I promise."

"Liam, last time you promised me. And you broke it." I said with tears filling up my eyes.

"I know. I'm sorry. I cant say it'll never happen again. Because i don't want to lie. But i fucking swear I'll try with every broken bone in my body, to never hurt you again. Never again violet."

"Come here liam." I said as i opened my arms. He looked confused and then leaned in and hugged me back. He rested his head in the crook of my neck. I can tell he needs a hug, even if he doesn't deserve it.

We sat there in silence for a couple minutes. Then his shoulders started to shake.

He started to cry.

"Liam..?" I said quietly. He didn't respond. He just sniffled and cried. His body shook as his cries turned into sobs.

I know i shouldn't be comforting him right now. He hurt me. He told his ex that i was just a friend. And we'll have another talk about this. But not now. Now it's too good to mess it all up.

"Liam it's okay" i said as i stroked his hair.

"No- no its not. Nothing is okay" he said in between sobs, "i don't deserve you. I'm so sorry-" he said as he broke in a sob.

"Liam. It's okay. We're okay. I swear to you."

"No- stop forgiving- me" he said as he sobbed into my shirt.

"Liam, please don't cry. I- i love you."

He stopped crying.

He slowly brought hit head up.

His face was wet, and eyes puffy and red.

"What?"

"I love you liam." I said as i wiped his tears away.

"Y- you love me?" He said pointing to himself.

"I do. I love you. You love me. We love eachother- well i hope you still love me" i giggled.

"Oh god- of course i still love you." He smiled.

"Good, because of you didn't... i would've.. i don't know. Probably cried."

"Oh my fuck violet lilac. You love me." He said as he hugged me again, and i fell back into his couch.

"I love you liam james. With all of me." I smiled back as he layed on my chest.

I love you liam.

Please don't break my heart.

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