I gasped, waking up from what happened to me. "Oh my gosh. How could I be so dumb?!" I couldn't recall anything after the psychopath drugged the shit out of me, but I did see Sukuna in my soul. "Shoot..." I hit the ground in frustration. "I'm so—" Words stopped flowing out when I realized I wasn't at home. It looked like I was back at my family house, and an unsettling feeling loomed over my heart.

"Lady Nozomi, you're awake!" A servant barged into my room in a hurry. "You need to get ready! Who said you can sleep in? Come on, you don't want your parents or elders to scold you for your insolent behavior."

A bucket of ice water splashed over me. "N-Nozomi?! I'm Ena! You must be mistaken. Me and Nozomi look alike." What in the world was going on? Did I really die? This can't be happening... My beloved son and my annoying Gojo were left in the real world, whereas I went back in time?! Or am I in the afterlife? If this was the afterlife, I think I went to hell. I read too many reincarnation stories... I can't tell what's real or what's fake. What is this?

There was a big concern on the servant's face. She looked very, very scared like I said something in a different language. "My lady... You were bedridden with a high fever for 5 days. Did you forget who you are?!" The servant frantically paced around in the room.

Oh my gosh. This was just like those reincarnation stories. I can't believe I died. I swear to god that I survived because I saw Sukuna in my soul chamber, and I told him to talk to me when I'm alive. However, I didn't want to act out of turn because I knew how deadly this household was. If I show any type of looney conducts, I'm going to be severely punished.

"Ah, yes." I truthfully said to save myself from getting beaten to death. "I don't really remember much. Can you inform me?" I was in for one hell of a ride.

After being informed about what situation I was in, I sighed in defeat. It seemed like I went back in time to the Heian Period of Japan. So I'm in Nozomi's past when she was alive, and I'm going to meet Human Sukuna. Ah, this was scary. Probably I'm in Nozomi's memories since Sukuna said that our soul was the same. I'm curious as to why I'm tapping into her past life now? If I'm not dead, then I'm just dreaming.

The head maid, who was the servant who barged into my room, dressed me up in a not-so-flashy kimono and threw a veil over my head. I felt so anxious about everything. From what I recall of how the two met, I'm going to meet Sukuna at the shrine to pray for my family... but I'll pray for their downfall instead.

Getting inside a carriage, the horseman whipped the horses as we moved on the uneven ground. I breathed in and out to calm myself from Nozomi's future. I doubt I can change anything since it's only her memory that she's showing me, or that's what I'm guessing. I also have a feeling that I'll be getting tortured for whatever I do whether I made the right choice or not. Nozomi and I lived a stricted life. It hurts my heart to live in Nozomi's shoes. Ughhh, I feel like I'm betraying Gojo and Naozumi in this dream. I don't mean to cheat on Gojo with Human Sukuna, but it's going to happen because Human Sukuna was going to be obsessed with Nozomi.

At the shrine, it was very tall with many story levels. The exterior design was painted red with gold accents. A lot of humans and sorcerers were interacting. I'm not too sure if these humans knew about sorcerers or not because time was different.

"My lady, don't take off your veil. No one must not see your face. Come, let me show you where you usually prayed."

I followed the head maid as I looked around the area. The interior was very spacious and big as well. The ceiling was tall, the hallways were really wide, and it was decorated at a minimum.

We walked up 5 flights of stairs and that was tiring. I lost my elegant posture while at it. There was no way I couldn't look graceful walking up those tiring stairs. How did the real Nozomi do this? It killed me after the first flight.

"My lady, please refrain yourself from huffing with your mouth open! It disturbs people around you. Be mindful of your behavior! You're showing a bad representation of a Kita member. You should know better than that." The head maid harshly scolded me in my ear.

"Yes, of course." I apologized to her, but in reality I wanted to say something else like: 'no screw you and this messed up family'.... However, it cannot be that way for me. I'd prefer not to receive any type of discipline. I just don't want to know if it's the same from the one I've been through. I hate this life already.

The head maid opened the grand double doors and pushed as a big gust of wind blew in our direction. I didn't hold onto my veil when I came into contact with the wind. "Ah!" The sheer veil flew off my head and danced behind me. I turned my body around to catch it at arm's length, but my fingers couldn't grasp it in time. "Oh!" The veil was caught by someone else who was walking by this area.

"Is this yours, my lady?" The hairs on my skin stood up. I knew that gruffy voice anywhere. It has haunted me ever since I visited Sendai City.

Slowly I looked up at this person before me, and my face immediately flushed red when I laid eyes on his face. Human Sukuna was hot: his rounded brown eyes were gentle, his face was sculpted by the hands of god as his jaw was chiseled and his nose was defined, and his short raven black hair was pushed back. My heart was skipping a beat the more I stared at him. I can't believe this handsome man turned into a demon. Wait I shouldn't be thinking like this!

I'm so sorry, Gojo... For I have sinned in this dream.

"My lady?" Sukuna repeated himself, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Ah, I apologize! How rude of me to stare..." My face got hotter as my neck started to sweat. "Thank you for catching this." My brain was turning into mush. I couldn't think straight at all. "I bid you farewell!" I needed to leave before I got yelled at by the head maid and to cool my mind too.

Throwing on my veil, I ran off to catch up with the head maid. My face still warmed as my heart thumped loudly after encountering Human Sukuna. I needed to control myself... I shouldn't be having this school girl feeling. I'm a loyal woman to Gojo, however, I'm not Ena right now... I'm Nozomi, so it's okay to feel like this because I am her for now. Ena will come back once I'm out of this weird reality-dream-like state. I shouldn't feel bad anymore, yet there was a small hint of guilt at the back of my head. Damn this was so conflicting...!

We were in front of this altar. There was a small replica of a shrine where it was heavily decorated with ornaments. "My lady, this is where you pray."

The head maid instructed me what to do as I did them. I prayed whatever came to my head, and then we were off to go back home.

Walking out of the shrine, I didn't spot Human Sukuna anywhere. It's like he disappeared or this place was just big that he could be anywhere. Unconsciously, a smile crept up on my lips when I thought about him. His handsome face, creamy skin, and slick back hair... I am sinning too hard. I wanted to kill myself so bad for thinking Human Sukuna was hot. It's okay but not okay because I'm both Nozomi and Ena. How conflicting this feels to be torn by Human Sukuna and my Gojo. They were both handsome men. Cursed these handsome men in my life!

Back at the Kita house, dread drenched my body once again. These floorboards brought back memories of trauma and brute force they did to me as Ena. This house never changed after centuries... It's scary how similar it is. The strict household tradition never lifted for future generations.

Walking past the audience room, I heard the head maid's voice speaking to the elders. "Elders, consider disciplining Nozomi. She's been acting out of turn ever since she awakened from her long fever. She forgot who she was." My heart stopped beating as I felt cold and scared. How could this head maid do this to me? Telling the elders about my odd behavior and asking them to punish me for not knowing any better? I tried acting my best while we were out, but I guess the head maid was unsatisfied with everything. I needed to get out of here.

Just when I was about to run away from the scene, the guards inside the audience rooms sensed my presence and ceased me. Their vice grip tightened around my wrist as they restrained me from moving any further.

"What's the meaning of this, Nozomi?" One of the elders angrily shouted across the room like I offended them somehow.

When I took a good look at the elders' faces in the audience room, their angry voices and similar faces to their future elders triggered me. It disgusted my soul. It was like the past and future copy and pasted itself. I couldn't contain myself; I didn't want to be docile Nozomi. She doesn't deserve this cruel treatment of her so-called family. So I lashed out my emotions because at the end of the day, I was going to get punished.

"You're asking me that? I bet you're the one who put me into a high fever! It's not my fault that I don't recall anything. You shitheads have no idea what you're dealing against!" I screamed at them, feeling my blood boiled. Since I didn't have the guts to yell at them in the future, I'll do it now. I don't care what happens to me. I'll end up being beaten to death anyways. This was the stupid price I paid for being alive, as both Nozomi and Ena.

"Take her away to you know where."

"You're going to be the reason for this clan's downfall! You know nothing that's going to happen in the future!" The guards took me away as I had the last say in this conversation.

They threw me in the torture chamber, and my eyes widened in horror. It's the same place where I've been tortured before too. Nothing hasn't changed, nothing at all. I don't know why I'm surprised but I am. This felt like a nightmare come true.

After 10 years of being free from the household, everything came flooding back into my head. The memories I once locked away were broken. Their ruthless faces and actions burned my body and mind without the real punishment happening. Me and Nozomi endured this for our entire life... How did we even survive? My body began to tremble badly as my throat tightened. It was getting hard to breathe in this room. I could hear my heart rapidly pounding in my ears, and I was getting lightheaded and sick. All I could think about was Gojo saving me. He rescued me from my misery. I needed him now. "Satoru... Where are you? I can't go through this again...! Please save me..." I gripped my skirt tightly.

"Head maid, Lady Nozomi is—"

"It doesn't matter. Under the order of the elders, we must proceed with this process. She's only acting like this to avoid her punishment. She's acting sorry now. Whip her until she can't walk."

After my torment, my bloody yet limping body had to be carried into my room and patched up. I held in my cries as they healed me with the reversed technique. I hated this, I hated this so much. I want to kill all of these people for making us suffer this terrible fate. In this body, I have not yet learned how to use the divine cursed energy, so I'm useless at this current state. I can't murder anyone how unlucky.

Once the healers left, I painfully cried myself to sleep. "Nozomi... Why are you letting me into your past life now?" I didn't want to endure it anymore. The future was going to be worse. "I just want to go back home to Satoru and Naozumi...!"