**this is another flashback. idk if i said this in the last chapter, but that was a flashback too. gettin the backstory of y/n & gojo. anyway that's all. hope u like it.**

I can't even remember the last time I was in Tokyo. I had been traveling nonstop for missions, and I missed being home.

I was grateful I was finally being trusted with more serious tasks, but I was also needing a break.

And I really missed Satoru.

If he was gone, I was home, and if I was home, he was gone. We had met up a couple weeks ago when our missions were near each other's, but it had been so long since we actually spent more than few hours together.

Probably a month at least.

It was really starting to weigh on me. Sometimes I just get so empty without him. Especially since we really got into last time we saw each other... It was probably our biggest fight.

We left that day still fuming and although we made up since then over the phone, it still just felt off. I needed to see him in person.

It was just hard to remember how much we really loved each other when we were so far away. Long distance combined with the stress of sorcery was overwhelming.

But now I had just over a day before my next mission, and I was going to surprise him tonight.

They were all going out so I decided I would show up there with Nanami's help. Satoru loves surprises and he loves to see me in a little dress.

My dress was short with white, satin fabric and small straps that left my arms and back exposed. It didn't have much shape, so it just rested nicely across my curves.

It showed off way more than my normal clothes did, and I couldn't wait for Satoru to see me. He'd want to rip it right off.

I took a cab over to the spot everyone would be at for the night. It was a rooftop bar that was somewhere between a restaurant and club.

It was perfect for a bunch of our friends to just get together and hang out. I'd get to see Satoru, while finally seeing Nanami and everyone else too.

I bit my lip nervously as I waited on the long elevator ride to the top of the skyscraper. My heart was pounding as I thought about seeing Satoru.

I fucking love that man so much.

I stepped out and walked towards the hostess, giving her my name before she let me in.

I walked slowly through the outdoor patio that was filled with loud music and laughing. The atmosphere was so different than the tense missions I had been finding myself on lately, and I almost felt a little out of place.

"Hey!" I called out and waved as my eyes met Nanami.

"Y/n," he answered as he stood to his feet, giving me a welcoming kiss on the cheek. "How are you?"

"A little tired, but good! Excited to be here," I smiled at him. "How have you been?"

"Well, thank you."

"Where's Satoru?" I looked at the small group all sitting on large, luxurious couches around a small fire pit.

"He went to go grab a drink a bit ago. He should be back soon. Do you want to wait with me?"

"No, I can't wait any longer," I laughed as I shook my head. "I'm going to go look for him!"

He nodded before taking his seat again and I walked back off into the crowd. The place was more packed than I expected, but with Satoru's height and bright-white hair, I knew I'd find him easily.

He was hard to miss. Even in a crowd this size. I made my way towards the bar, grateful when it finally came into view.

I stood there for a moment, scanning the area. "Alright, Gojo. Where are you?" I mumbled to myself.

I smiled a bit as I saw just the top of his head peeking through, and I quickly pushed to get to him.

I froze as I got past the crowd and saw him with a short little blonde girl. He was gently caressing her face as she was a blushing, giggling mess.

I closed my eyes and shook my head a bit, hoping that my brain just stopped working momentarily. But when I looked back up, the scene was the same.

I should be sad and crying, but I was thrown into a silent rage. I huffed out as I thought about my next move.

You know it's bad when part of me wasn't even surprised...

I walked over to a place at the bar, a little ways away from the atrocity I had just witnessed. I sat up on one of the stools, and called over the bartender, looking over a small menu.

"What can I get you?" he asked as he smiled at me, his eyes tracing down my body. I didn't usually like being objectified like that, but right now I was enjoying it. I was fucking hot. Satoru's a fucking dumbass.

"Yea, I'll take a sake. Double. Neat. Make sure the glass doesn't get empty," I smiled at him.

"Oh! And I'll have a basket of fries."

He smirked, "You got it. Wanna start a tab?"

I shook my head, "Just add it to my boyfriend's tab. He's over there. The tall one, white hair, with another girl who's not me."

He laughed as he looked over at Satoru and the blonde, "Fine with me."

He quickly poured me the drink, "He's missing out."

He winked at me before leaving.

I sat there for a bit, eating my snack, drinking casually, deciding how long I wanted to wait for and if I even wanted Satoru to know I was here.

I wasn't one to cause a scene, but part of me thought it might be worth it tonight. He definitely deserved it after pulling this shit.

I knew the kind of guy he was before we started dating, but that was before me... Right? Or was this something he'd been doing consistently the past year of us dating?

I couldn't help as I used my technique to listen in on their conversation. Her desperate laugh and his cheesy ass lines made me sick to my stomach.

He asked for the check, ready to get out of here with that girl, and I watched as he looked it over with confusion.

"Fries? And what's with all the double sakes? I didn't order any of this," he asked the bartender. Satoru had plenty of money to pay for it, he just hated when people made mistakes.

The bartender smiled, "Your girlfriend ordered it."

"My girlfriend? What the fuck are you talking about?" he asked annoyed.

I noticed Nanami pushing through the crowd, heading straight for Gojo.

Ooh, goodie. Maybe we'd get a scene after all, and I wouldn't even have to cause it.

I chuckled as Nanami pushed Satoru slightly. Not only were Nanami and I close friends, Nanami hated the way Satoru treated woman before we started dating.

And watching him doing the same thing to me was probably more than he was ready to deal with tonight.

"What the hell are you doing!?" I used my technique to listen to Nanami. "Y/n's right fucking there!"

Satoru whipped around and frantically searched the crowd, his mouth dropping a bit as his eyes finally met mine.

I took a bite of a fry before smirking and sending him a small wave. A look of panic and heartbreak crossed his face as he rushed over to me.

"Y-y/n, what are you doing here? H-How long have you been here?" he stuttered out nervously.

"Well I came to surprise you," I crossed my legs as I turned to look at him. "But you looked like you were having so much fun, I didn't want to interrupt."

"P-please Y/n, that wasn't what it looked like," he tried to touch my arm.

I quickly jerked away from him, "I know exactly what that was."

He sighed, "Your technique..."

I tried so hard to hold back the tears, but I had been here half an hour now, and the shock was finally wearing off. My heart felt completely shattered as we stood face to face.

Tears gently rolled down my cheeks, "You're not the only one who's been struggling with how hard this all is... but I would never do something like that Satoru."

"Let me just explain," he said in such a soft voice it was barely audible. I closed my eyes as he carefully brushed a piece of hair behind my ear before wiping away one of my tears.

The weakness in me, the love in me, wanted to let him talk and try to justify his actions, but then what?

I smacked his hand away, "There's nothing you could say to make this better, Satoru."

I fixed my dress a bit as I stood to my feet, getting ready to leave.

"Come on, Y/n, please. I've never done something like this before. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I'm so sorry."

I noticed his eyes trailing down my body as I stood there, it was the exact reaction I wanted, but not now.

I gently tilted his head up to look back at my eyes. "Eyes up here, Gojo," I demanded. It pissed me off even more that he had done that.

"You look beautiful. I've missed you so much."

"Yea I know I look fucking beautiful. I got home maybe a few hours ago and spent all that time looking for a shitty dress to buy and getting ready to come down here and surprise you."

"Only to find you with some other fucking girl. Are you serious? If Nanami hadn't showed up or if I wasn't here, what were you going to do huh Satoru? Go home with her!?"

"No! Of course I wasn't!" he got defensive.

I smirked as I grabbed my bag off the bar, "I heard what you said to her, Gojo. You were getting ready to leave. Is this something you do often? How many times have you cheated in the past year?!"

I fought against it, but my voice was getting louder.

"Y/n! Never!! And I never would've slept with her! You're everything to me! I don't know, I was feeling so alone and so sad, it was just numbing the pain. I'm so sorry. Please don't go."

"Too bad I don't believe you."

He frantically pulled me back as I tried to walk away, "Y/n come on! Use your technique! You can see all my intentions if you want to, right!? You'll know I would never! You'll know I've never cheated!"

I shook my head, "How do you not get it? I shouldn't ever have to use that in our relationship. I should be able to trust what you say. We should be able communicate our fucking feelings, Gojo. Like normal ass people. I was lonely too. I've been sad and depressed and struggling too. I would've been there for you. You should've come to me, not some random girl."

"Y/n, I'm so sorry."

"I'm leaving," I stared at him. "Don't you dare pull me back this time."

I stormed off without a second thought, hurrying to the exit as fast as I could before I lost my last ounce of composure. I just wanted to be alone when I broke down, and as far away from Satoru as I could possibly get.