Day Twenty.

Verses: "'Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."' Matthew 28:18-20

Honestly, today has been a really rough today. As you all know I have been struggling with unbearable physical pain from fibromyalgia and arthritis. Today I went to the shooting range with my dad and sister. My hands and arms are so weak (due to chronic illnesses) that it hurt me so much to hold the gun. I shot the gun four times. But after that my pain was killing so I came back to the car and cried. It made me feel so bad that I couldn't even do something simple like that. Throughout my journey with fibromyalgia and arthritis, I have had to give up doing a lot things I used to love. It breaks my heart every time I can't do something I want to. I am not okay. I am feeling very sad and in so much physical pain. But one thing I do know is: God is with me.

Maybe you are like me and you are really struggling right now. Maybe you are battling a chronic illness, mental illness, cancer, or maybe you lost a loved one. I don't know what you are going through but I do know that God is with you. He has an amazing plan for you.

I know I am young and in pain. But I also very close to God. I am soon to be a published author with my book: "Jesus Saves Daily Devotions." I am still a college student and even though I am not graduating on time. I am still going to college and not giving up. Even though my life has not gone the way I have planned, I believe God has a greater plan. If I weren't chronic ill, I would have never written this book, or "Jesus Saves Daily Devotion." I would have never started "Jesus Saves Ministry" or "Jesus Saves Ministry Podcast." Even though I have suffered, God has made me stronger.

I don't know what you have been through or going through, but I do know God has an amazing plan for your life. (Jeremiah 29:11) This plan He has for you, will not be easy. It will be hard and it will test your faith. (John 16:30-33) But if you stay close to God and grab His hand, He will lead you the way. (Matthew 28:18-20) God will always be there for you and help you through life. (Psalm 121:1-2) God will comfort you and hold you in His arms. (Isaiah 49:13)

One amazing thing from all the pain I have been through is God turned my pain into a passion of writing and helping others. I honestly don't think I would have been a writer if I didn't get chronically ill. Writing has helped me so much and I hope it helps others as well. I hope I show you guys that even with all my scars, brokenness, sadness, pain, and illnesses that God still loves me and uses me to build His kingdom.

God can and will use you as well to build His kingdom. No matter who you are or what you have done: God loves you, God is always there for you, God can use your mess, and turn it into a message for His kingdom. God can take your pain and turn it into your purpose and passion. God can take whatever you are struggling with and turn it into something beautiful and amazing. All you have to do, is let Him. He is just waiting for you. He can't wait to see you.

Prayer:

Dear God,

I am struggling. I need your help God. I can't do life on my own. I pray you grab my hand and help me through life. I need you to guide me Lord because your will is greater than mine. I want you to lead me wherever I need to go Lord and I will follow you. Please take my mess, pain, and struggles and help me use them to bring glory to Your Kingdom. Show me my purpose for your kingdom Lord. I will go and do whatever you need me to do Lord. Because I have complete trust and hope in you Lord.

I thank you for all my many blessings and for Your Son.

In Jesus's name, I pray, Amen!

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