i don,t know when i passed out in the office but when i woke up it was mid night , i went to my room but before that i wanted to see her .

i held the door knob and opened it after thinking alot but she was not in the bed where was she? i look at washroom but the door was opened she was not there.

"where is she ?" i quickly went in side .

i saw the balcony door , it was still opened i went towards it and saw her on the floor.

LARIB !

i sat down and grab her head and put it in my lap "larib wake up larib , oh my god you are so cold shit " i took her in my arms and brought her to the bed .

i covered her with blanket and call uncle .

"uncle larib... she fainted and is not waking up please come quickly"

after few mintues uncle arrived and checked her. she was sleeping now and given some injection

"is she will be ok ?"

"depends ?" uncle said sternly.

"uncle!" i said with hard tone.

"don,t use that tone with me i am not your father got it . why are you giving her stress ? you married her beacuse you love her right ?"

"ofcourse " i said and sat with her moving my hand in her hair .

"then why don,t you take care of her. why after these many weeks still she is stressful . and on top of that xavier why in the hell till now no one know you are married.?"

"it's complicated " i said not moving my eyes from her face .

"everything is complicated about you . you know why . because you always just think of sacrifing yourself and not.understanding it effect everyone else with you .! xavier noone can be strong for long let people make their own decision you cannot be the one to make decision everytime .you hurted your family and sisters by deciding to let them be away from you beacuse of your work but they are still missing their brother you not only hurted yourself but them too."

i was still thinking about the thinks he said

"its for them i am doing it, ican be in danger but i don,t want them in danger "i said to him .

"xavier... this time don,t make decision or safe someone just let her deicide what she wants some time when people you love are near with you they are safe instead of away from you . "

"but i messed up big time uncle if i leave it on her she will definitely leave me "

he came near me and put his hand on my shoulder " then clear your mess by showing her how much she means to you and then let her decide what she wants . i know once she sees your love she will never leave you ."

he went away saying good bye to me and leaving me in thoughts . i was beside her the whole night thinking what would i do to make her forgive me ? will she forgive me ?

"i have to try hard don,t i ? i said looking at her face and then went and slept beside her when sleep consumes me

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i woke up early i opened my eyes and i was in bed . suddenly everthing from last day came flashing back .

"how i ended up in the bed ?" i looked around my self and other side pilow and cover was in a way like someone slept on it .

wait xavier . no what he did last night i don,t think so . i got up and went to washroom . i took shower and got dressed.

my hairs was still wet i don,t like using hair dryer nor i had the energy . i went out but as i step out i was stuck on my place .

xavier was sitting on the couch with whole table dacorated with breakfast .

it was really beautiful . i looked towards him he stood up quickly . something was in his eyes some emotions but i could not point out beacuse he is very good in hidding his emotions no one can understand what is going with him.

we were starring at each other no one was making a move he stepped towards me but i went directly to the bed and picked up my duppata and wrap it around my head . i passed by him and grab the prayer mat from the side table and placed it and started reciting my prayer that i missed from last night.

i totally forgot about him and focus on my prayer . when my prayer finished i raise my hand for prayer .

i heared a click when i opened my eyes xavier was sitting right infront of me on the floor having his phone in his hand .

he took my picture . i didn,t said anything i was getting up from prayer mat when he held my hand .

"why you pray to him after what happened to you ?"

i was shocked wih his question .

"because allah is my creater and i need allah everytime no matter what happens "

"but why don,t you become angry on him what he did to you taking your whole life away from you .?"

"Allah is the one who gave me life in the first place and allah love us more than anything so why would be i angry"

"if he does love us why he doesn,t give you happiness that you deserve ?"

"Allah knows his plan best and whatever he does it is for our own good and who said he would not give me happiness he gave me before , he would again give me ."

i released my hand and stood up amd folded my prayer mat . he got up too i put the mat on the table again when i turned he was standing and looking towards me .

"lets. have. our. breakfast " he said and waited but when i didn,t moved he grabbed my hand and made me sit on the couch .

he gave me tea and brought some spoons full of food to my mouth and made me eat it but after a while my tears started running and i could not control it .

"why are you doing...this ?" i asked him he put the spoon down .

"look larib i am ...... sorry for last day it was mistake but you should have not slapped me "

i laughed sarcastically "i should have not slapped ha , what ABOUT YOU WHAT ABOUT YOU CALLING ME WHORE ?

he so quickly looked towards me i thought his neck will break .

" when you infront of everyobe disrespected me so why can,t i ha "

"i .. am sorry about it ,it was ..due to alchol "

i looked stunt .

"then you should have not drank something that disgusting . if you drink disgusting you would talk disgusting shit ."

i got up from the couch .

"but they say in alchol one talk truth and i guess you were right i am nothing to you beacuse you threatned my family and forced me in to marriage and brought me far away from my family. ....you never cared about me . i guess .... you were right .. i am your whore ."

he got up so quickly from the couch

and marched towrds me and held me in strong grip " don,t ever say that agian do you get it ever "

"why its truth you said it and .... you aimed your gun at me didn,t you ? you made me lock up , and stop me from talking to my family so what does it look like ..... i am just a disgusting whore."

"LARIB " he yelled and my tears staring running . he brought me closer to him by my waist .

"you are my wife , my other half , you are my soul I AM SORRY FOR fucking disgusting act "

"no.... don,t ... nothing can become same after what ..you did last day ." i said while sobbing .

"leave me " i said jerked my self away from him .

but he did not let go .

"XAVIER LET ..ME GO I DON,T WANT to be WITH YOU LEAVE ME JUST LET ME GO ."i yelled and jerked and was crying but he jerked me again towrds him .

and he kissed me i was astonished , i try to move but he brought me more closer and kissed more on the lips . i closed my eyes

after a while he pulled away and i felt his lips on my cheeks where it was covered with tears .

"i cannot leave you . ask me for anything i would give you but not this i can never do this. i am sorry for last day ,i will never do anything like this ."

"i .... i can,t play this game more with you, you want me one time and other time you don,t " i said looking down .

he put his hand under my chin and brought it up so i could meet his eyes .

"i want you every single second their is not a mintue that i don,t want you ."

"give me second chance please i will make everything right ."

"i can,t once someone break my heart i can,t give them place again in my heart i can,t ."

"i will try my best and this time i would not only have place in your heart but your whole heart will be mine".