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Well yea! Here it is. The MOMENT.. ♥

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I had been in my room for a couple of hours now, thinking profusely of ways to deal with Humza. He muddled with my mind. It's like he pushed me away so much meanwhile his eyes beseeched me to stay.

I couldn't resolve but for all I knew he wasn't cheating on me and that was enough for me to know that he loved me.

I had prayed Isha, the night obligatory prayer and was irascible and impatiently waiting for Humza. I had to do something to make him profess his love for me or atleast show me that he was tempted and attracted to me. The only plan I could come up with currently was to seduce and lure him.

Okay fine! That's not funny. A wife can seduce her husband.

Yes, I can do it. I inhaled deeply while staring at my own reflection in the mirror.

I didn't even know how to look sexy. Would he even be attracted to me?

I had absolutely zero IQ in this field and so I had to take help from Maliha. She got me this vulgar nightwear that looked sultry and sensual to atleast the men in the movies and so I hoped that just like the men in the movies my husband too would feel attracted to me after he saw me wearing it.

I was as nervous as a wreck. I felt skittish, jumpy and anxious all at once. My dress was a two piece nightwear, out of which one was a backless stripped slip length till the knees or even shorter. The other piece was a kind of robe that was ankle length and not at all transparent. I was grateful for that. The laced silky fabric looked seductive and attractive, that's what Maliha had told me. I on the other hand felt extremely bashful and sheepish. I looked like one of his mistresses.

But everything is fair in love and war. I chanted like a chorus again and again. I am doing it for my husband.

Time passed by expeditiously as I peeked out everytime I heard footsteps near my door. It was way past 1am with no sign of Humza in the house. I am such a foolish and vacuous person because I didn't even take it into consideration that Humza might not come back home today since after every fight, he never came back.

I heard footsteps again and this time I was too exhausted and worn out to open the door and stare at Humza's mistresses, so I began to search for some decent clothes in my closet to change. No point wearing this stupid dress when there is no Humza.

Suddenly I heard a sound of glass crashing on the floor and I panicked. Leaving the door to my walk in closet half open, I ambled towards the room door hurriedly.

As soon as I opened it, the sight had managed to suck the air out of my body. For a second I thought I had stopped breathing. My whole world came crumbling down. It was as if someone was constantly stabbing my heart with a knife. I couldn't help but walk further, caring a damn about my outfit right now. I was in a state of hysteria.

Tears were instantly tainting my cheeks. I was breathing heavily as anger and fury seeped in through my veins. There was this blonde girl who was hovering over Humza while his back was pressed up against the wall in the corridor. They were kissing and making out, outside one of the rooms. The flower vase that was earlier placed on a stand was now broken to pieces and it's broken glass was scattered on the floor.

His one hand was caressing her back while his other was not visible to me and he was moaning callously as the girl now licked and sucked the soft skin on his neck, near his collar bone. I was utterly disgusted and wounded. The girl was an epitome of beauty. She was sexy and I felt like a potato next to her. Her small dress was tightly clinging onto her curves and her hair was left open as it cascaded down her back elegantly. Tears were falling and well nobody cared. I felt exhausted all of a sudden, like I had been running a marathon.

That was it. I felt betrayed and I was sure he didn't love me anymore. Nobody would do that to a person they loved.

I was about to spun around when Humza opened his eyes and he looked my way. His jaws were literally on the floor as he shamelessly raked his eyes over my body. His adam's apple bobbled up and down sensuously. His hands were now at his sides while his eyes were scrutinizing me from head to do, finally stopping at my eyes.

My eyes were filled with hatred and tears of betrayal. I looked him right in the eye searching for something, anything but his eyes were a devoid of any emotion.

"C'mmon baby it's been so long. Let's go in and continue." The girl purred in his ears while nibbling it seductively. She then walked in motioning him to follow. She didn't even glance my way, as if I wasn't even visible.

Even Humza's eyes were no more on me as he followed her inside like a lost puppy. They didn't even shut the door and for a second I thought they did on purpose. I heard her whimpering and moaning. It made me want to puke.

I felt the bile rising in my throat as I ran towards my room, covering my mouth with my hand. I went to the washroom and puked out all the contents of my dinner. I felt extremely dizzy after that. I slumped on the marble floor and began to shred tears on my now miserable marriage. There was nothing left. I gave this marriage my everything. I wiped away my tears with the back of my hand.

He didn't deserve me. I wanted to hit him hard for what he did to me. I was not from the one who would sulk in one corner and let people do injustice to me. I got up from the floor brushing away my tears. I bitterly laughed at my own self for the preparations I had done to seduce him. He didn't deserve to see me like this. Hence I changed into my normal clothes and covered my head with a headscarf hiding everything properly. My hands curled up into a ball as I was now adamant on punishing and penalizing him for playing with my heart.

I sauntered towards their room hoping that the door was still left ajar and yes, much to my dismay, it was.

I had stopped crying but my nose was still red and my eyes were still puffy. I strode in without any warning and my heart broke even more. This time the girl's half naked body was pressed up against the wall as Humza towered her, his back visible to me. Her eyes widened in shock as she saw me coming. "No.. This is fuck..." Humza was in the middle of something when I turned him around by his shoulder harshly. He was taken a back and before he could recover from the shock, I punched him on his face with all the energy that I could muster. "You are worse than a male prostitute." I spat on his face as he stumbled back, almost falling on the floor not because it was a hard punch but because he wasn't ready. The girl covered her mouth with her own hand as terror contorted her face. I Expected to see blood or a slight bruise on his cheeks but nothing, there was absolutely nothing, instead a sharp pain serrated through my knuckles as it felt like I had broken a bone but that was nothing in comparison to my heart which was bleeding.

I turned around to leave but Humza caught my arms and I haulted in my tracks as he tugged me towards him. I looked at him to find him glaring at me. His eyes were red and rufous while his jaw was clenched and set in a straight line. He was breathing heavily as his eyes pierced through mine.

"What the fuck?" His voice roared in my ears almost deafening me. He was dangerously close to me right now and I could hear my heart beat in my throat at the moment.

"Do you want me to repeat? Well you. are. worse. than. a. male. prostitute." I snapped again. His mouth twitched up into an evil smirk as I glared at him with burning intensity. His hold around my arms tightened all the more.

"Do you know who you are talking to? I could kill you within the snap of my fingers." He spoke with arrogance laced in his voice. I immediately shuddered inwardly.

Even though I was now slightly on the back foot yet I mustered up my courage and finally asked him the questions that I wanted to.

"Why don't you leave me? " I shouted trying to mask away the fear that filled inside of me this time.

"Oh Darling I wish I could." He smirked almost leaning onto me. I could still feel the authority in his husky arrogant voice. I could easily feel his warm breath fanning my face. The only sound audible right now was that of my rapidly beating heart. He was hovering over me.

"Don't you fear Allah?" I questioned him and I soon began to realise that my hijab was falling lose. This can't be happening atleast not in front of him. I cried within the walls of my heart. He didn't deserve my love.

"Don't teach me about Islam. Mind your own fucking business." He spat back. He surely had anger issues but unlike everybody else I always stood up to him. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction that he derived from dominating everyone but today I felt weak, weaker than ever before.

"My business? Well guess what mister you are my business. Remember you are the one who married me forcefully." I tried pushing him back but all my efforts were in vain. His strong arms didn't even move an inch. He still held me tightly and I knew I was again going to have the blue and purple bruises, but the pain was nothing compared to what I felt inside.

"You know that I can do a lot of things forcefully but I don't. So be thankful bitch." He snapped and he hit my heart exactly where it was weak. Tears soon filled my vision but I held them back.

"Why? Aren't those girls enough to satisfy you?" I pointed back to his girlfriend who stood behind him half naked.

"Enough!!" He shouted, his grip tightened around my arms and I knew that I had pushed him off limits by now but guess what? he deserved it.

"Get the fuck out of here." He snarled turning his gaze to the woman behind him. She at once picked her stuffs and scurried away hurriedly.

"Leave my hand and let me go." I shouted trying to twist my hand out of his hold.

"Stop being a bitch now and for God's sake stop being so clingy. Don't you get it that I fucking hate you? Why are you so desperate huh?" His questions had cut my heart into halves. He called me names. I couldn't believe that one person could change so much within a few days. I found my walls finally breaking to the point where I couldn't take it anymore. Ya Rab, you didn't do anything. I prayed to you ALLAH. I was choking on my own breath.

"Clingy? You call it clingy? I loved you Humza and I seriously did. How could you do it to me?" I grabbed his collar as tears fell from my eyes and this time I didn't stop them. I let them fall incessantly. Within seconds he loosened his hold around me and his eyes softened.

"It's enough now. I can't take it anymore. I have had enough. I am leaving. I am leaving right now. You can have fun with them." I cried and for the first time in my life I saw fear conjuring in his eyes. His eyes were as wide as soccer balls and dread was quite evident in them. I was shocked to see his facial expression change all of a sudden.

I turned around to leave when he tightened his hold around my arms. "You can't go. You can't leave the house." There was a tinge of nervousness in his voice and my brows furrowed in bewilderment.

"I am leaving Humza. You can't torture me anymore. I'll go far away from your life." To say that he looked like a complete wreck would be an understatement. For a moment there I thought he would start crying.

"I. Said. You. can't. Leave. Me." He growled but it wasn't anger, it was plainly fear and I was too gobsmacked to witness it.

He looked so broken and vulnerable. He looked like somebody had tamed the beast inside of him. I twisted my hand out of his hold and managed to set myself free. Without wasting a second I spun around to leave but he was fast. He hugged me from behind. His hands wrapped around my stomach tightly. I was amused to see the turn of events. All my tears had vanished and all I saw was hope right now.

He snuggled his head into the crook of my neck sending shivers down my spine. "Don't.." I felt his breath on my earlobe over my headscarf and goosebumps all over my body. "Please.." He said again. It was as if he was begging.

"Why?" I questioned as I stopped struggling under his touch and slowly turned around to face him.

I was shell-shocked to see tears in his eyes. My mouth was left open as I stared at him, anticipating his answer.

"I don't know." He said and I laughed bitterly. "Great." I turned around but he stopped me again. "Please don't leave."

"Why would I stay when you hate me so much? Are you even listening to yourself? You say you hate me? What kind of a hatred is this?" I snapped as he simply stared at me with teary eyes. He looked as if he was deep in thoughts and he wasn't even listening to me. I was getting highly frustrated.

"You know what Humza? By the time you'll realize the thing, I'll be gone. I would never return then..You confuse me so much. You betrayed me and you cheated on me. Do you want me to show you how it feels when your spouse cheats on you? I will gladly show it to you and then you will..." I was continuously ranting when he interrupted me.

"I love you."

"You what?" I asked not believing my own ears.

"I said I love you."

Do you love me guys?

on 5.2.2018