I was in my office working when Reagan walked through the door. I hadn't talk to her since I broke up with Micah. She hit me up a few times but I had been avoiding her. I stopped working and looked at her sit across from me.

"Reagan----"

"Oh shit you can see me?"

"Rae!"

"I mean you have been ignoring me for a week and a half now"

"I don't fee like talking about it"

"We somebody's going to tell me something. You being distant. Micah's gone---"

"Gone?"

"She left after the opening and said she was working. Ralph figured out it was a lie but she said she wasn't coming back any time soon and was going to figure some shit out"

"Typical" I rolled my eyes at her dramatic

"What happen Travis? Why did you go missing and why did you ignore her? AND why don't you seem to care that she's gone?"

I sighed "Micah and I broke up"

"WHAT?"

"Keep it down!" I stood up "But yes... we broke up"

"Why?"

"Ask you friend"

"I'm asking my brother!"

I grabbed the envelop from my bottom drawer and tossed it to her. She looked through the pictures and looked shocked.

"This can't be right"

"Well it is. She was fucking dude all while she was gone"

"Travis no that's not what happen"

"How do you know? Where you there?"

"No but----"

"But what?"

"Chris did hit on her" she sighed "But she turned him down! Dave makes jokes about it all the time. She did not sleep with Chris or anyone for that matter"

"You really believe some nigga you don't know? For all I know she fucking both of them! I don't know him!"

"But you know her! You know she loves you!"

"Fuck that! I should've just listen to my mom!"

She looked shocked and stood up "Wow"

"I didn't----"

"No! I know exactly what you meant! You're mom is right, right? Micah just some round the way hoe from the ghetto... just like me? And my mom right?"

"Reagan it's not about you"

"But that's what you've been thinking about her! About where she comes from!"

"Look why you defending her! She cheated on me! I'm your fucking brother!"

"And you're wrong Travis!"

"Reagan I'm not doing this with you! It is over between Micah and I! I'm done with her and anything related to her! If you can't deal with that, bounce!"

She shook her head at me.

"All I ever wanted was for you to be happy Travis.... but you are truly your mother's son. Have fun being miserable"

I walked on set and showed the girls the steps. Once they got it, I headed back to my seat by Payton. I lied about working but eventually Payton called me to come work on a shoots in California. It was helping keep my mind off of Travis. I've been avoiding conversations with virtually everyone.

I still hadn't been getting sleep and was feeling sick again. I knew the day would come that I had to go home but I wasn't trying to deal with all the bullshit once I went back. I knew it wasn't long before Carmen, Reagan, and Ralph figured out that Travis and I broke up. And since today was my last day here, I just had to figure it out on my own.

Leaving the set and heading to the airport I wanted so badly to run away again. The whole process of getting on the plane, all I wanted to do was no go home. I hated the idea of being embarrassed and broken over a nigga once again, but I also already learned that running doesn't solve the problems.

When I landed, I left the airport in my Range Rover and headed home. I text everyone I was back and decided to take a nap. Just before I could get in the bed comfortably there was banging on my door.

"Fuck! I'm coming!" I yelled

I went to the door and opened it, only to be pushed out of the way by Reagan, Carmen, Ralph and Keith.

"We'll just come in everybody! I wasn't trying to sleep or anything" my voice was laced in attitude and sarcasm

"Where have you been?" Ralph started first "You can just run off when some shit happens B"

"I didn't run off" I rolled my eyes "I was working. I told y'all that. Payton needed me to come to Cali and plan some dates. Then I got offered to do a video. I'm back now no big deal"

"Why didn't you tell us?" Carmen asked

"Tell you what?"

"Come on Micah" Reagan sighed "About you and Travis breaking up"

"Doesn't look like I needed to tell anyone anything" I walked in the kitchen "I'm fine okay. Y'all can go now"

"No you're not" Carmen followed me "What happen?"

"Travis thinks I'm cheating on him with Chris Brown. I don't know why or how but someone made it seem like we were messing around when I did my first video"

"What?!" her and Ralph were shocked

"Yeah" I nodded looking for some food "Said his family was right blah blah blah didn't want to be with me blah blah blah then he left"

"Sis—"

"Raphael! I am fine" my voice finally began to crack and shake "Just give me my space yall"

"Just know we all here for you"

Everyone hugged me before they finally started to leave. Ralph stopped at the door and sighed.

"We didnt know if you still wanted to do the show this weekend but—"

"We doing it" I nodded "Everything been done. I'm not flaking on my life over a nigga"

He smirked at me nodding. I knew he was happy that I was "being strong", but he didn't realize I was lying through my teeth. I made it back to bed before I broke down crying. I've been hurt a lot in my life... but nothing hurt worst than Travis. It was like grieve the deal of our love. Everything in me was telling me to go fight for him... I couldn't just let go of him that easily. I drifted off to sleep crying in contemplation.

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~Denial~

I woke up the next day and went to the studio. I started putting the song list together for the show. I wasn't excited so I knew it was going to be a somber song show. I wasn't in the mood for some happy shit. Plus I was only singing a few songs at to start. Most of it was going to be Dave and whoever he decided to bring. The money was going to the studio to fund lessons for kids who couldn't afford them.

I was completely finish when my mind went back to Travis. I took off running to vomit in the bathroom. I was back sick and I knew it was all in my head. I missed Travis and I wanted to work things out. I decided to pack up and head to his office.

When I got there, I went inside and through the office like I was still his girlfriend. I knocked on his door and he didn't respond. I knocked again and he opened it with a smile until he saw me.

"What are you doing here?"

"I don't know" I sighed "But I gotta talk to you"

He paused for a moment before letting me in. He went back to his desk and sat down but I just kept standing by the chair. I looked around and every picture of us was gone. It was like in two weeks, I became a distant memory to him.

"Are you going to talk?" he broke me from my thoughts

I sighed shaking my head "Travis I know you don't want to talk about this. I know you don't believe me and want to be done with this... but I promise you I didn't cheat on you. I would never hurt you like that!"

He just scoffed and shook his head looking away from me

"Are you really going to throw away our happiness for a lie?"

"The only lies I hear are coming from you" he glared at me "Why we doing this Micah?"

"I fucking love you!"

"Now you love me?"

"I have done nothing but show you how much I love you! And you can't say I haven't"

"Fucking another man is showing me"

"I didn't---"

"Just stop!" he stood up "I'm done with this... and I'm done with you... You were right the first time. We just from two different worlds and are way to different to actually be together. I can't trust you Micah... and I can't be with you"

I sniffled as the tears rolled down my face. I shook my head and turn to leave. As soon as I opened the door, I was face to face with Khari, his mother, and Olivia. They all wore smirks of joy as they watched me cry. I shook my head again about to leave until I remembered my ring. I looked down at my hand and took it off. I tossed it on his desk before pushing pass them and headed out.

"Babe you should really do something about the security"

Hearing her speak to him made me sick and cringe. I ran out of the office and to the nearest bathroom and threw up. I shook my head at myself before fixing myself and leaving all together. I felt nothing but sickness and humiliation.

I decided to go home and try to rest my mind and body. I drank some tea and meditated until I felt myself getting sleep. Once I was in bed, I went to sleep for the rest of the day.