I dropped Khari off before heading to Ralph and Reagan's place. I had to check on my sister because I knew she would do the same for me no matter what. I parked and headed inside ready to deal with Ralph and his bullshit.

I knocked on the door and it wasn't long before he answered it. He looked confused and shocked to see me there but he let me in.

"What's up" he asked

"Just came to check on my sister"

"Umm" he looked back "She's not really feeling it right now. Plus Micah's here"

"I promise I just want to check on my baby sister man"

He nodded and we both walked to the back room Micah usually slept in when she stayed with them. When we walked in Micah looked at us before going back to consoling a crying Reagan. She whispered to Reagan and she looked at me.

"What---"

"You know I had to make sure you were okay"

"I'm fine" she wiped her face

"Come on Rae" I sighed "Talk to me"

"Reagan go" Micah spoke "It's help"

Reagan nodded before hugging her and heading toward me. We headed to the living room with Micah and Ralph behind us. They headed outside as we sat in the living room.

"Talk to me sis"

"There's nothing to talk about Travis" she sighed "I just don't need to be over there with yall family"

"It's your family too"

"That has never been my family" she looked at me with anger "I have never been welcome into that family. My only family is gone! My mom is gone Travis! I am alone in this world with nobody! You got a father! You got a mother! I don't got shit!"

"Sis that's not true!"

"Yes it is! My dad left me behind for his precious family! I was the mistake her never wanted! I got sent fucking money through the mail just so he didn't have to see me! He moved us away so he wouldn't feel bad about not driving to see me!"

"Rae---"

"I'm not done! The closest thing I got to having a family back is Ralph and Micah! They the only ones who understand! I'm not saying you don't love me Travis.... hell I'm not even saying your dad doesn't... but love aint being here!"

"We just need to talk as a family! We can't fix things we don't know!"

"What is there to fix? You think I haven't talk to your dad?"

"You hate him Rae"

"I hate him now! But I have always loved that man! I didn't hate him until I was sixteen!"

"Why then?"

"Ask you mother!" she shook her head getting up "Travis yall live in this bubble where you know nothing about the truth! When my mom died... I begged my father to come live with him! I sat in that same fucking dinning room balling my eyes out with a fucking social service worker!"

"What?" I was shocked

"And you know what your mother had the audacity to say?"

"Rae---"

"They didn't have the space or finances to accommodate a third child. Then she went on to say that just because her husband made a mistake doesn't mean it comes into her house when half of it is gone.... And what does YOUR father do?"

The fire in her eyes was real.

"He hung his fucking head! He said nothing! He had the nerve to ask where I was going... I WENT TO A FUCKING SHELTER!"

"I didn't----"

"You never know Travis! You and Liv literally walk around with your heads so far in the fucking clouds you miss everything around you! Your mother is the fucking devil! And yo bitch is just like her! Those people do anything to get what they want!" "It so sad that Liv is becoming one of them. Then there are niggas like you and you father... Yall just go with that shit trying to convince yourself that your not wrong" she was shaking mad "Fuck that family! I'm done!"

"Rae---"

"Just go Travis! I'm done with this... and I'm done with yall"

She wiped her face before walking to the back and slamming her door. I shook my head as I headed outside. When I got to the lobby Ralph and Micah were hugging goodbye. I instantly envied them because I wanted nothing but to protect my little sisters.

Ralph looked at me and shook his head before going back up. Micah looked at me too before turning to leave. I followed behind her and caught her by her arm. She looked at me with a blank expression.

"I'm sorry" I sighed

"For what?"

"For the way I came at you... it was disrespectful..."

"It is what it is" she shrugged "Bye Travis"

"Micah wait"

She stopped again and faced me.

"Did you know all of that stuff about Reagan?"

"Yes"

"I didn't"

"I know"

"Why didn't you ever tell me?"

"It wasn't for me to tell... That's why Reagan doesn't feel different from me. We've both been through shit and dealt with it alone. But like I had Ralph and Momma... she had yall's grandparents. Doesn't change the fact that for months she was alone most of the time... it doesn't take away the hurt that who she wanted there wasn't.... but you can't blame yourself"

"I should've known something"

"You'd have to pay attention to know" she shrugged again "It's kind of what you do"

"What does that mean?"

She sighed "I don't want to go back and forth with you. Listen, Reagan will calm down and talk to you again. You just gotta be there through the ignoring"

"Micah what does that mean?"

"Travis---"

"Just tell me"

"Fine! You are so wrapped up in your own happiness that you forget about every fucking body. You ignore people and avoid them. You don't work through your problems when it's hard, you do it when it's easy. You wouldn't know Reagan's life because you never asked! You assume shit and go with that to ease your own fucking mine! Happy now?"

I nodded feeling her anger. Micah wasn't like this with me usually. I was taken back but I couldn't say anything. She had dealt with my mean side for months so now it was my turn to get it in return.

"I didn't know you thought that"

"You weren't as selfish when we were together... or maybe I just didn't notice"

I sighed "I shouldn't have been the way I was once we ended. I just... I didn't want to deal with all that. I just wanted to have my space. I felt like you needed the same thing. We needed time to get over each other"

"I guess" she shrugged

"Reagan's my sister and your best friend so I know we gotta deal with each other"

"We don't though"

"Micah---"

"Look, you just feel bad because you were an asshole and I still talk to your dad and you about Reagan... but I didn't do that shit for you. I did it for Reagan! We don't ever have to speak. We don't have to talk. You wanted me gone... deal with it"

"I didn't mean---"

"Yes you did" she sighed "Look go back to your girl and deal with her bullshit... you don't have to deal with mine anymore"

She turned to walk away but stopped in her tracks. I could see her taking deep breaths before she finally walked away to her car. I saw her drive away and for some reason... I felt the hurt of her leaving again. It quickly moved to frustration because she had me back in my feelings. I shook my head before heading home.

I couldn't sleep for hours so eventually I got up and went to my closet. I took down the box with all her and our stuff that was at my place. I sat on the floor going through it just thinking about what could've been if everything worked out how it was suppose to.