MICAH

I watched my last class leave for the night before heading to my office. The cleaning crew was upfront so I had time before I had to head out with them. Just as I sat down and started clicking through my schedule there was a knock at my door. I was surprised that it was followed by Travis walking into my office. 

"Wow" I spoke above a whisper the only word I could get out

"I probably should be the one saying that" he looked down at my stomach "How are you?"

"Pretty tired but I'm okay"

We were both silently staring at each other. I thought when this day came I wouldn't feel broken anymore but I was wrong. My heart hurt just looking at him, but I refused to show it. 

"What are you doing here Travis?" I stood up 

"I-Is... is it mine?"

I scoffed "Doesn't matter what my answer is"

"Yes it does"

"Oh now you believe me?"

"I wanted to believe you!" his voice was raised and shaking "But the facts were there... what was I suppose to do!"

"Stick by me! Figure out what the fuck was going on WITH me! Not turn against me!"

"Micah---"

"Just tell me why?" I felt the tears rolling through my stone face "Why didn't you believe me"

"Micah---"

"It's the only thing I want to know"

He sighed "i didn't believe the picture when I first saw them... The video was a lot but I still wasn't sure. i thought about it for a couple days. Then I went to Paradise and asked Tiana. She said she didn't want to be in the middle of my bullshit with you... You said yall had got back cool and whatever so I damn near begged her for the truth. She said it was all true" he finally looked at me "I left again trying to figure out what the hell I was going to do. I wanted to believe you but facts are facts. Don't be mad at Tiana for telling me though... Everything kept going bad between us. Shit just kept happening. Maybe this was just our sign that we not meant to be together"

I scoffed as the tears rolled faster. I couldn't believe the shit he had said. I hadn't spoken to anyone from the club since I broke up with Travis. The only girls I even let come to my classes were super new and didn't know me as a dancer. I figure it was one of the ole head girls but I never thought Tiana would be so low down to me. 

Travis just stared at me waiting for some kind of response. I didn't have one for him though. I was in shock and filled with rage. A piece of me could understand why he put some much stock in what Tiana said, but he still didn't listen to me. He chose to believe it because things were hard for us. 

I shook my head "I never cheated on you Travis. You broke up with me... disrespected and belittled me... all for a fucking lie. So I hope that answers you question. As much as I want to hate you with every fiber of my being... I can't and I won't. I don't need that bad energy"

"I get that... but I need you to say it"

"My words don't mean anything to you. Nothing I say or do means anything to you. So believe what you want... but clearly someone already told you what it is. Believe it or not. I don't care anymore. I'm not doing this with you. I'm not begging you like I need you. I don't" 

"I just---"

"Go be a family with your fiance" my voice was laced with venom as I said it "Goodbye Travis"

"Micah this is serious! I need to know!"

"I gave you my answer! You seem to figure everything else out right? You trust everyone's word but mine right? Go figure it the fuck out!"

"This isn't the time to be fucking childish!"

"I'm not! And I'm not dealing with you! I've made it four fucking months without being stress out and hurting my babies! I'm not about to let you come in here and start! I swear to God Travis! Leave me alone"

"Fine! Fuck this!"

Travis stormed out of my office slamming the door. I wasn't sure why but I broke down. I didn't want to cry and be hurt over him anymore but I couldn't deny the fact that I was definitely still in love. 

After a couple minutes of crying, the tears dried up and my blood was boiling throughout my soul. I took a couple deep breathes before I packed up my stuff. I called Carmen and Reagan before picking them up. Reagan made us switch to her car since she didn't want me driving much. 

They were unsure of why I wanted to go Paradise but they pulled up with me anyway. I wasn't surprised when Ralph pulled up behind us like he was ready to shoot people. I still didn't answer any of their questions as we entered the club. 

Everyone greeted me with excitement and rubbed my belly. Boss showered my belly with kisses before handing me a stack and hugging me. I was cool with being loved on but I wasn't here for that. I headed to the back and went to my old office. 

I walked in without knocking to find Tiana in some nigga lap. She looked at me surprised then shocked when her eyes fell to my stomach. The guy looked between us before getting up and leaving out. Everyone was behind me as we stared at each other.

"Mi---"

"Why?"

"Huh?"

"Hoe if you can huh, you can hear!"

"Mi---"

"WHY?" I screamed holding my stomach

"Micah calm down" Carmen stood beside me "What's going on"

"Micah I didn't know you were pregnant" Tiana looked sad

"Oh that's suppose to make up for what you did?"

"I just wanted my friend back!"

"BITCH I HAVEN'T FUCK WITH YOU IN A YEAR PLUS! WHAT FUCKING FRIENDSHIP?!"

I had run up on her and we were mere inches away from each other.

"Mi---"

"I trusted you! Friends or not! I had your fucking back Tee! I made sure you was eating good! You were the first fucking name I called!"

"I didn't know---"

"Fuck you knowing! You didn't care! YOU WAS FUCKING WITH MY FUCKING LIFE TIANA! And you didn't fucking care! Not once have you said shit to me! You didn't miss our friendship! You just a hating ass bitch wanting to see me fall!"

"Micah please!" she was crying

"WHY TIANA!"

"I'm sorry! It wasn't my idea! I was mad and just went along with the plan!"

"Who did it then Tee? If it wasn't just yo snake ass who else in on this shit!"

"M---"

"WHO"

"DAVID!"

Before I knew it, I decked her ass and she was laying on the floor. Ralph grabbed me before I could stop her dumb ass. 

"What did you do Tee?" Carmen shook her head

"David said he just wanted to break them up. Him and this girl...Kyra or something! I took the pictures and David showed Tim. Tim and Travis came to me and I said it was all true!"

"You dead to be yo!" I was crying in rage that I couldn't get to her "Dead! Fuck you Tee!"

Carmen and Reagan ran up and started beating Tiana ass! Security had to come and get them. Boss was pissed but he let it go. We left, everyone filled with rage. I rode with Ralph while the girls drove. 

"Sis?" he grabbed my hand "I know you heated but relax"

"They ruined my life" I looked at him in tears "I should be happy and waiting for labor but instead I'm fighting bitches in the strip club after arguing with my ex baby daddy about him being the dad!"

"Sis---"

"WHEN DO I GET TO BE HAPPY?! WHEN IS IT MICAH'S TURN FOR HAPPINESS RAPHAEL! WHEN DOES THE BULLSHIT STOP! MY WHOLE LIFE HAS BEEN NOTHING BUT BULLSHIT AFTER BULLSHIT SINCE I WAS FIVE DAYS OLD!"

"Calm down Mic"

"I can't take it no more Ralph! I can't do it!"

Ralph kept trying to talk to me but I couldn't breath. I felt the panic sweeping my body. I hadn't had a panic attack since I met Travis. I couldn't stop it though. Ralph drove faster rolling down the window trying to get me to breath. 

I grabbed my stomach feeling pain but I couldn't say anything. I struggled to breath and started to black out. My vision was blurry and all I could hear was Ralph's cries. The last glimpse I got was the hospital before everything went black.