Double update cuz I won't be updating tomorrow- (When I publish this it will probs be New Year's Eve but I wrote this chapter on New Year's Eve Eve) its NEW YEARS EVE TOMORROWWWWWW oh and my baby sister and baby brothers birthday (their twins) turning 7 like jaxon 😭😭 they grow up so fast. Anywho, enjoy :)

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I suck at this job yeezus, but oh well I'm not even getting paid. Well I dunno but still, I don't want his money, I've spent it enough like I've never paid for a plane ticket and hotel room. I think that's more than enough.

Once I ran to Justin dressing room. The door was closed and I thought for a second, should I knock? What is he gonna say when he sees me? I hope he's okay.

I shake my head from the thoughts and open the door widely seeing he's on a call. His back faced me and as soon as he heard the door open he looked, and he saw it was me, and his facial expression changed.

"Okay, I'll call you back. Yeah okay bye." He says and then hangs up. He looks at his phone for a second, then looks at me, then he starts walking to me.

"Um, the show is a-"

He cuts me off and snatches the water out of my hands, "yeah, I know the show is about to start." He says then walks past me going back stage.

Agh no, he's never this mad at me

"Justin wait-" I say before he's about to walk past

"Don't," he stops looking at me in my eyes ,"not when I'm about to preform." He says staring at me. He had no expression on his face, or should I say I couldn't tell what his expression was on his face. I fucked up big time.

He looks at me in my eyes then he eyes go down to my lips, he shakes his head then walks away to backstage. I look at him and he was running going where he was needed backstage and as soon as people saw him, everyone was rushing him giving him microphones and fixing his hair and shouting at him.

I sigh in defeat. I feel like I'm going to cry, I'm basically not wanted here anymore.

I slid my back down on the wall sitting down by the door and put my covered my face with my knees.

Fuucckkk. I'm so stupid. I sit there thinking ways for him to forgive me until someone taps me. I look up and see Maejor giving me a wtf look.

"The show is just starting come on." He says pulling me up.

I sigh and nod.

"What's up?" He asks while we were walking.

"nothing."

He raises his eyebrow

"I just want to go home."

"What why?"

"I said something to Justin, and now he fucking hates me."

"He doesn't hate you."

"Well, he's really really mad at me."

"That's a big reason for you to stay. If he's mad you, don't leave. He'll be mad even more."

I sigh not knowing what to say.

"Where's Martin?" I say changing the subject. We leave the changing room area to the backstage door

"With Alexis."

"Don't they hate each other?"

"Exactly, that why we need to hurry." He says and speeds his pace and I laugh and I run with him to where we are gonna be for the show.

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"It could've been you! Been you!" Justin sings the rest of the song and fans start cheering more. He was doing great actually. He's laughing, dancing, talking to fans and it warms my heart. But it makes me miss him even more.

Alexis is being very rude which made me move to sit with Martin and Maejor. She was sitting by Scooter, Alfredo, Mikey and other people. It's pretty sad that this is the second to last show I'm going to be watching until I get back home. They are incredible and I fangirl every minute, why did I say it was shit?

I guess I didn't describe it right. I described it toi wrong. I'm stupid. But I didn't know I was this stupid? I regret everything I said agh.

Let me just stop thinking and enjoy the show.

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It's so crowded and loud and the show has just finished so everyone is finding their way out. Right now we're rushing back to our hotel rooms to take our stuff and then straight to the airport and then off to the last place which is Italy. Damn I haven't been in italy in like forever, but I love Italy, its great.

Right I've been backstage and everyone is getting the cars back to the hotels.

"Let's get going Holly." Mikey tells me, I stand up

"Where's Justin?"

"In the car, come on." He says walking and I follow him

He was in the car that fast? Damn

But I hope he talks to me, I mean you can see how much this thing is haunting me.

I step outside and everyone was crowding the car which I guess Justin was in it.

I walk fast towards so no one notices me but I guess that wasn't possible. People start screaming my name and walking towards me which made Mikey block people out of my way and he tells to quickly enter the car.

I run and someone who was in the car quickly opens the car door for me. I enter finally and sit back taking a deep breath looking out the window seeing if Mikey he was okay but he was already getting in the car at the side.

I look at who's sitting next to me and surprisingly it was Justin. Yasss.

He opened the door for me?

"Thanks," I say to him and he looks up "for opening the door, for me."

"Sure." He whispered looking down at his phone again and I see he was texting someone.

"Listen Justin," I say to him as soon I feel the moving

He locks his phone looking me, surprisingly

"I'm stupid." I start

He nods,"go on."

"And what I said was stupid and shitty like me, and I just wanted to apologize."

He doesn't say anything but he has a bright look on his face. Well that is good news

"Is it too late now to say sorry?" I sing and chuckle and he starts to laugh.

"It's fine holly-may. I'm not mad" He laughs

"Really?"

"Yeah, I was legitimately waiting for your apology."

"Seriously."

"Yeah may."

"...Not even when I said your tour was shit?"

"That was a bit overs, but I saw the regret in your eyes so I hope you don't think that." He smiles

"I was 100% talking shit. This tour has been marked the best days of my life." I smile and he does too.

"Good, now come here." He says pulling me into him and he starts leaning in to kiss me.

I stop him, "Justin, people are in the car."

"Come on, it's just Mikey and the driver." He says kissing my neck

"Well, if I was them I wouldn't want to watch this,"

"Good thing you're aren't them." He says and he finally kisses my lips. I kiss him for like 5 seconds until I pull away looking at him.

"Where's everyone?"

"In the another car."

"Couldn't they come into this car?"

"Do you want them here?"

"Psh no," I laugh

"Then shut up and kiss me."

"Alright, bipolar Bieber." I joke and I connect my lips onto his.

"I missed you so much." He mumbled

"And I missed you a whole lot more." I reply

Guess it was easier than I thought.

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Yas b! I'm going to da beach for New Years. I'm sorry guys it's just that I LOVE New Years. I mean like NEW YEAR NEW YOU. Lol i just love the feeling of New Years like the count down and the fireworks and a change of everything. So happy that it's summer here for New Years, it'd be a bummer if it was winter :p

Question: what you're doing for New Years? lol I know I'm obsessed with New Years but tell me what you're up too!