"Holly-May! Wake up dear!" Someone wakes me.

Dear? Wait what?

I open my eyes to see my mother that I haven't seen in months right in my eyes.

"Mom?" I say waking up, then sit up to process what's happening. What is she doing here?

"Morning dear, merry Christmas!" She smiles. I open my eyes widely and then process. Omg my parents are here!!! What are they doing here?!

"Mom? Mom!" I say and jump on her screaming. She laughs giving me a big hug back. She attacks me with big kisses making me scrunch up my face and let go of her.

"Well you're excited to see me."

"Well yeah! I missed you guys, I've been so lonely." I pout hugging her

God I didn't know how I missed my mom that much? She's like my bestie.....but never around....sigh

"Well when did you go back from touring with Justin?"

"Uhh I don't know maybe a week ago?"

"And when last have you seen the boy?"

"Ehhh, 5 days ago. It's complicated."

"I saw you two in the magazines once. When you with him in Italy I think. You guys looked cozy." My mom says raising her eyebrows while folding her arms.

Let me tell you, my mom is not a huge fan of dating and stuff, she doesn't mind when I'm friends with the boy but when I end up dating them she has the boys head on a stick. But suck it up mom, Justin's a nice kid.

I roll my eyes, "Mom, I'm 18." I say going to my closet to look for a jersey because it was quite cold.

"Yes Holly but you need to make sure, he's not playing with your feelings my girl."

"Mom. He's not." I groan

"He's a different boy and much older than you, he's famous and could probably cheat on you with some other famous model."

She's probably right.

But she's also wrong.

I laugh, "Sure mom, Justin will never do that. Well I hope he doesn't."

"Okay honey," she says kisses my forehead, "but don't come crying to me when he breaks your heart."

I giggle, "we're not dating."

"Yet." She corrects ,"come downstairs, your cousins and charlottes family are here." My mother says changing the subject.

"Okay, I'll be there in a bit." I reply

My mom nods leaving my room and I carry on looking for a jersey. I take the hoodie Justin gave to me when he told me I could go on tour with him. Damn the memories. Sucks where we are now. It's just really complicated.

I go to my bathroom, brushing my hair since its was everywhere and brush my teeth because ew morning breath.

While I was brushing my teeth I hear my phone ringing from my room making me groan and walk back to my room.

I see the caller ID

Bipolar Bieber

Aw he's calling me!!!

Wait I mean

What does the boy want from me on a Christmas morning?

After a while of thinking I answer taking my phone with to bathroom putting it gon the side of the sink putting my phone on speaker.

"Yo!" I say and carry on brushing my teeth.

"Holly! Merry Christmas babes!"

"Thanks J, merry Christmas." I say spitting the tooth paste out and carry on brushing my teeth

"What are you doing?" He asks chuckling.

"Well, I got woken up by my mom, I know yeah my parents are back and idk how and now I'm brushing my teeth." I say with my tooth brush in my mouth.

"Haha, great. I just wanted to see you today, I have somethings for you. You busy?" He asked

"Muhuh." I mumble making me spit tooth paste on my phone. Ew really?!

"What?" Justin asks laughing

"Agh!" I say spitting the rest of the tooth paste out and rinse my mouth. "I just spat tooth paste on my phone." I say wiping my mouth with my hoodie.

"Ew." Justin says

"I know right." I say taking a towel and wipe my phone. When I was finished I go back to my room and sit on my bed. "You were saying?" I ask

"Oh yes, are you busy today?"

"Not really. Why though."

"Because I haven't seen in forever and I miss you."

"And?" I ask

"Fine, and I have something for you."

"Is it important?"

"Why are you asking?"

"Because I'm kind of busy today, but if it's important, I could make time for you." I say

"Well then yes it's important Holly."

"I know you're just saying so I could just say yes to see you."

"Fine, you got me." He laughs, "but to me, this is quite important."

"Okay, text me what time."

"Alright I will."

"See ya."

"I love you." He says

My heart is beating fast right now

"Okay, I love you too, bye." I say and hang up.

Well that was quite a conversation.

I stand up and exit my room to join the loud noise downstairs. When I enter the lounge where everyone was I was greeted by everyone. There was a huge Christmas tree, that I didn't know where it came from. A whole bunch of presents and people. There was literally everyone here, why didn't I know about this?

"Holly boo!" Kendall shouts

"Kenny boo!"

"Merry Christmas sista."

"Thanks beb. Merry Christmas to you too." I smile and she winks

I greet my cousins and aunts and damn grandparents AND my dad AND OH MA GAWD CHARLOTTES PARENTS. We gather around and sit altogether and talk while exchanging presents. Charlotte and I go to the kitchen since it was quite full in the lounge and talk while opening some presents.

"Ooh, look I got an Apple TV!" Charlotte says excited

"From who?" I ask swinging from the seat at the kitchen table.

"Your mom!" She laughs and I gasp.

"What the hell." I laugh, "Im going to see what she got me."

I look for my moms present. Finally I found it and see it was the smallest present, there.

Charlotte laughs while I open it and see it was a poster

Of Justin.

Really momma?

"Well this is just great." I laugh looking at the poster.

Oh Justin.

I look more in the present and I got another present which was an iPhone cover for my new phone.

"Apple TV verses a Justin Bieber poster and an iPhone 7 cover?" Charlotte says chuckling.

"I choose the poster." I say

"And I choose the Apple TV. Lol." She says putting her gift away, "where is Justin and why aren't you really talking about him like you used to."

"We're talking about him now." I shrug

"This is different."

"Well, I'm seeing him today."

"What about?"

"Dunno, I think he has a gift for me."

"Well you should give him a gift." She says

"I do! It's quite small, just a coupon at sushi dushi and bracelet that says 'J&H'" I tell her

"Oh yeah," she says raising an eyebrow," and how much did that cost? 30 dollars?" She asks clearly not pleased

I stop swinging on my chair and look at her "psht I wish! The bracelet was fricking 1500 dollars! And I got it 45% off. No joke, the bracelet is like gold I don't know but it looked cool." I say

She raises an eyebrow, "and what do you think he'll get you? a car?"

"He wouldn't do that."

"You never know."

"I do know. He wouldn't buy me a car, and I'm not asking a car from him, I'm fine with my car thanks."

She gives me a cheeky nod and I roll my eyes opening more presents.

We carry talking about shit until my cousin Reece disturbs us.

"Yo Holly, you have a delivery." He says giving me a bunch of flowers.

Who the hell?

"Who from?" I ask him when he puts them on the counter.

He shrugs giving me a face, "I don't know? Your boyfriend?"

I roll my eyes and mess up his hair, "whatever, thanks g."

"Sure thing b." He says and walks back to the lounge.

I look at the flowers. Wow. I see a big card on top of the flowers and take it to read it

Before I read Charlotte says, "lemme guess? Justin?" She chuckles.

I shrug and open the card seeing a huge paragraph

Oh glob

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Dear Holly

Merry Christmas xxx

I hope you like the flowers! They costed 30 dollars at Target. I know I shouldn't be telling you that but I'm just trying to start a conversation right now. Why I really wanted to give you these was because they reminded me of you- really beautiful and smells so good - (btw. I know you use my perfume 'the key' :))

I'm not saying you cost like 30 bucks but the appearance reminded of you xx

Can you believe it's been 5 months since we met? Has it been that long and that short! It feels like I've known you for 5 years. Sadly no I haven't known you for that long but I've known you enough to call you my best friend, my soul mate. These 5 months have been so different. In a good way. If I hadn't met you I would've been still asleep and Jaxon would be jumping on my bed waking my lonely ass up.

I think now and realize we weren't really supposed to meet lol! I hope you sorted out the rumor that the girl was spreading about you (laughing justmoji).

You've literally changed my life Holly-May and I thank you for that. What a wonderful gift you are that God gave me. I'm didn't even ask anything for Christmas from my family because I know I've got a big gift which is you.

I love you so fucking much it's not funny. It's insane when I think I fell hard for a girl that I've known for 5 months. We've had ups and downs. Tears of joy and tears of, well yeah tears of crying but I don't regret anything. It made me realize how much I want you. Yeah I know you don't want to be together right now which is understandable right, but I'll be waiting, my eyes are set on you. And I hope in future I could call you mine, yeah? Nah? Aw okay.

I'm running out of space now but just know I'm not finished expressing myself. I'm just telling where to meet me.

Do you know where that hill is by the Calabasas Surf Shop? And you can drive up there. There's a small place where you could chill and sit if you want to take a hike. It's my favorite place so meet me there, sorry couldn't think of anything else.

So you want to keep each other company?

Love,

Justin Bieber x

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I put the card on the counter and put my hands on my face. Why am I so stupid? I'm in fricking denial when I say I don't like him, I fricking love him. We're going so fast and we don't care because we've spent enough time together. I felt these 5 months flash back in my thoughts making me on the verge of crying. Reality completely changed when he came in my life.

"Woah Holly." Charlotte says forgetting she was still here.

"Huh?" I sniff looking up. I saw her finishing reading the card and she was in shock.

"This is some deep shit!" She says

"I know." I sigh wiping the tear that was about to come down.

"Guess you better buy him a better present." She says and I couldn't help but nod.

So many questions are in my mind now. But the most question I've been asking myself right now is 'How am I in love with a boy I've known for 5 months?'

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