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I keep waking up at 2:00pm.

Sleeping my days away.

I don't want to and I've tried,

to stop it countless times.

But my mind likes to bring out the worst of me.

I keep getting called lazy, as if that's supposed to change me.

But everything stays the same.

I'm trapped in a loop.

Of wanting it all but not being able to move.

I get no sleep at all,

or too much at once.

And I can't tell you which one's worse.

I'm falling apart but I hold myself together

because that is what is expected of me.

God so much is expected of me.

When most nights I can't even sleep until the crack of dawn.

Possibly I have misplaced the glue that was supposed to hold together my broken pieces and sooth me to sleep at a proper time as it dries.

Possibly I never had it in the first place.

And possibly I'd just like to not need any glue at all.

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