*THIS IS NOT RELATED TO THE STORY THIS IS JUST ME RANTING AND WHINING ABOUT MY SAD LIFE AND SHARING IT WITH ALL OF YOU WHEN IM SUPER DRUNK WITH MY EMOTIONS AND DROWING IN THEM*

*ALSO AN APPRECIATION THINGIE*

The fact that I'm so doomed when it comes to a romantic life.. my expectations were already soaring because of fictional characters but at the back of my mind I still had a thought "well, at least I don't have to cry over the fact that people like them do exist and I'm missing out of them, they're fictional which means no one has seen such gems".

But then BTS happened to me.. and the standards I have.. I can't even begin to explain how high they are and I'm 100% sure all of you are suffering from the same disease called "Bangtan-raised-my-standards-and-now-I'm-never-falling-in-love-unless-it's-with-those-7-amazing-men".

They are real and they're better than any fictional character I've ever read about and that is one thing that scares me A LOT.

It is something that makes me poop in my pants because PEOPLE LIKE THAT DO EXIST AND IM GIVING THEM THAT MUCH POWER OVER ME AND MY LIFE.. Before BTS at least I knew that only fictional characters could make me feel THAT way and thus they CAN bind me to them because they're *not real* (hurts tbh) but I don't even know what to believe anymore.

I just realised I'm not making sense anymore. I don't even know WHY I'm writing this in the middle of the night. I'll probably put it up in the morning.

Also, I would really really really love to thank all of you who are reading the book and are working together with me so far, I love you guys so much, you are the most amazing people ever.

Thank you for reading, voting, commenting, anything.

I really want to continue reading your books but my studies are fucking me harder than any smut I've ever read.

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHY IM POSTING THESE??!!!! I DONT KNOW SHIT WHAT THE FUCK

The amount of BTS pictures in my phone is disturbing. And the RANGE.. from super fine asf pictures to super weird shit I've got everything.

My dad to me the other day; "does your phone have our pictures too?"

My sister; "if you ever have an accident, god forbid, people are gonna think BTS are your family and not us"

Me; "is there anything wrong in that?"

My sister; "no not really, but STILL"