I slowly open my eyes to notice myself laying down on the hospital bed. I look around and find all the little machines that I am hooked up with.

Suddenly my eyes travel down to my sides and I can't feel my right hand. I try to move it but something has kept it captive in its cage, something as hard as a rock yet as soft as a feather.

I smile as I notice Cayson holding onto my hand tightly, as is he's keeping me captured, keeping me from running away again. I slowly slide my thumb against his palm with a smile on my lips.

This is the best thing to wake up to.

Cayson laying next to me with our fingers intertwined with each other. His head rests on the side of the bed where there is a little place. I slowly pull a small pillow from behind me, put it near his head and slowly move his head onto it.

"Mm," he groans against my hand and grabs it even tighter than before.

Knowing that he is by my side is so satisfying and pleasing. Now, at least I know that he isn't with the quacking duck! Seeing them together just made my blood boil in anger and my heart breaking into pieces.

Using Liam to hurt Cayson wasn't such a bright idea either but I had to do it so Cayson wouldn't suspect or ask me anything.

I had to break his heart to save him from all of this. All of these hospital visits he has been having and will be having.

A small smile appears on Cayson's lips and I smile to myself. He looks so cute when he's sleeping! It's so peaceful and calm.

Suddenly a pain shoots down my chest, into my stomach down to my legs. I groan against the bed and take deep breaths. Oh god! The throbbing pain continues getting worse and I have no other option than to press the red button to call for assistance.

I look to the door, waiting for my family, friends or a doctor to walk inside but nobody came.

"Ah," A soft whimper escapes my lips as the pain worsens against my chest. I feel a deep and hot burn inside my chest, and it doesn't get any better by seconds.

"Venus," suddenly Cayson's head shoots up in my direction and he sits straight, pulling his chair closer to me. "Venus, are you okay?"

I groan, trying to bite back all the pain the chest burn was causing me. "No," I whisper.

Not a moment later, Cayson runs out of the room and seconds later walks in with the doctors, and my family.

Everyone gathers around me, leaving the left side for the doctors go check me. She takes out her stethoscope and examines me as the other one looks at all the machines which I am hooked to.

"Venus, what do you feel?" The doctor asks me and I shake my head, groaning in pain.

"Burn," I mumble softly but nobody seemed to catch what I said.

"What?"

"It burns," I reply back, almost as a whisper. "Everything burns."

Suddenly I start feeling the burn traveling up my throat and dark clouds covering my eyes. There is a lot of movement in front of my eyes but I couldn't pay too much attention to that.

My eyelids start to feel heavy and it gets harder and harder to keep my eyes open by each second.

"Venus, please keep your eyes open for us. We can't let you slip away okay?" A soft voice asks, different from all the beeping of the machines.

"What's happening?" Mommy asks, tears rolling down her beautiful eyes. "Why are her stats so low?"

I try hard to fight the urge to just close my eyes shut. My eyes find everyone standing in the hospital room.

Worry and panic takes over them as they hear the constant beeping and my groaning in pain. "Ah," I whimper and Cayson holds onto my hand tightly.

"I won't let go Venus. So, you have to try hard to not let go of us. Do not close your eyes Venus, do you understand me?" He asks sternly and I slowly nod in return.

I gasp and try to slowly breath but it keeps getting harder and harder. It feels like someone is trying hard to cut the oxygen connection from me. I start to cough and grunt as the oxygen slowly leaves.

Not soon after I start wheezing and gasping for air. The doctors move around, grabbing couple of things and I keep gasping for air.

"This might hurt a little," she says slowly and puts a tube down my throat.

Mommy tries to help but one can't operate on family. So, mommy just stands on the side, looking over other doctor's work.

After a while, suddenly I start feeling a whole lot better. The ventilator next to me keeps breathing for me and also keeps my breathing regulated.

My whole body aches as sore doctors rush inside and start moving around. Apparently, they couldn't have my family members, and Cayson inside so they went outside the door.

I fight with myself to keep my eyes open as I feel some pinches on my thigh and arms but it doesn't hurt.

Slowly the pain starts to ease up and the machines beeps slowly and after a moment, there is no sound. It's almost inaudible and the doctors take a deep breath of relief.

"It looks like you're doing better Venus, keep that up."

"You are alright Venus."

"Everything will be fine."

Will it?

All the pain that I felt, I have never felt anything worse than that. It's as if my body was burning itself from the inside and it was affection my chest mostly.

I hate this.

I should have never came back to New York.

Coming to New York has broken so many boundaries that I tried creating while in hospital. I swore to never let any of my friends know about my condition but now everyone knows.

My eyes find the movement outside of the room.

I see tears forming in their eyes. The pain I have caused them. The pain which is currently tugging at their hearts and hurting them.

They deserve better.

So much better.

I just wish I had enough time to be happy with them. Not three years ago, I felt all the love and now its being taken away from me. It's being snatched away from me.

Life is just so cruel.

Suddenly the burn comes back and I groan. The doctors realize it before the machines start to make noises once again.

Oh.

What is happening to me?

I thought I got better.

"Try keeping your eyes open Venus."

I try.

I try hard.

Keeping my eyes open starts becoming the hardest things I have ever done in my life. It's as if you haven't slept in a week, and your eyes are just tired and burning because they want to close.

Involuntarily, my eyes start to close shut. I fight it but I can't stop it closing slowly. The last thing I remember hearing is the continuous tone of the device and, "She's coding," before passing out on the bed.

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