One things for sure, I am never inviting Carter over to my house again. Ever

"Nah, they could do a whole lot better if they had another coach"

My dad chuckles, "That's what Daniel said too"

I frown as Carter and my dad converse with one another in the kitchen, my parents got back from work awhile ago and they were happy to see him. Now dad and Carter won't stop talking about fucking football, it's annoying. Mom watches them with me, "It's almost as if he's here for your father" She says amused

I huff in response as she walks away, "Matteo help me set up the table" She then says

I cross my arms as Carter walks towards me, "I'm confused, are you here for me or my family?"

"That's a good question..... your family" He pulls out a chair and I roll my eyes before sitting besides him

"And your sure you wanna stay for dinner?.... It never ends well"

"This is the first time I've been to your house C, we're staying" Carter says amused

"But I just want it to be us" I complain

He squeezes my thigh, "Later"

I sit back with defeat as everyone else sits down around the table. Mom sets down a plate in front of me and I frown at the large quantity, "Dr Gomez said you need to start reaching three thousand calories"

I can't finish all of that

I smile sarcastically, "Amazing"

"I'll finish it if you won't" Matty volunteers

"No, you won't" Dad replies

"I want more too actually" Enzo chimes in

"Don't be greedy"

I frown as I cut through my stake, it's so fricking greasy.....And Grease is never a good thing, Santiago pokes at me with his fork. "Stop"

"I can't eat it whole can I" I scoff

"I know your trying to figure out the calories"

"It's two hundred and seventy one ass hole-

"No calorie talk" Mom says seriously

"Hey C, how many are in my potatoes" My littlest brother asks

"If it's one hundred grams then I'm guessing somewhere in the seventies-

"Dude" Enzo scoffs

"Look just-....

Carter cuts my stake into four quarters and my brothers frown, he shrugs. "It's her pattern"

My dad smiles to himself, "Thanks" I reply

You know meal times always make me think about my time during recovery, in fact I spent a little time reminiscing over some of the memories. I spent my first few weeks rebelling, for some reason I thought that if I never followed the rules then everyone would give up with me..... actually I'm not sure what I was trying to achieve but I do know why Serenity said I was a bad influence. Anyway I was going over how Mia and I became friends

"I take it you refused to listen and had no dinner last night"

"I already told you I ate, get off my dick for one minute" I say annoyed

"Right and that would explain why you're four pounds lighter"

I smile sarcastically, "I guess being skinny is my lifestyle now"

"Keep it up Carmen" And with that Serenity walks away

"Keep it up" I repeat in a mocking tone

"You lost four pounds?" A voice questions from behind me

"Perhaps" I reply without turning back

Mia finally stands besides me as I close the jar of coffee, "That's for visitors"

"Well then maybe Serenity should start hiding the key for this cupboard better"

I slice my knife through a lemon and she frowns as I squeeze half of it into my mug, "Coffee and lemon?" She says with disgust

I stir before chucking my spoon into the sink and turning to face her, "How'd you think I lost four pounds"

"I thought it was because you didn't eat?" She says confused

I snort, "That's just what Serenity thinks"

Mia narrows her eyes as I drink from my mug, "Think smarter not harder"

"Even if I wanted to I can't" She gestures to her tube

I shrug, "So only put it back in when S is here"

"Yeah but what about Meghan, she'll tell for sure"

"I'll deal with Megs, don't worry about her"

Long story short, I did a lot of fucked up things..... things i'm not proud of

*

Throughout dinner we were all conversing about the most randomest shit ever, for once we were getting along and I really thought that it would last. But then Adriana had to go and open that mouth of hers, even though she didn't think it would cause a scene

"So C, shall we ask about that thing?"

I frown as I drink from my glass of coke, "What thing?" Me and Enzo ask

"The Lola thing"

Our sister looks up with narrowed eyes, "Ummm no, I thought we were kinda doing it later"

Santiago looks between the two of us confused, Carter and dad just frown. "What the fuck are you doing?" Lola scoffs at Adri

"Well since you wanna swear and get annoyed all of a sudden, why don't you share with us where you went"

I sit back before running a hand through my hair, "Here we go" I mutter

"I didn't go anywhere" Lola says with clenched teeth

Dad narrows his eyes suspiciously, "Really? Cause that's not what it looked like to Carmen and I-

"I'm not involved" I interrupt

"Well then maybe you need to start minding your business"

Adriana fake gasps, "Oh my god, does this mean your finally not a virgin?"

Mom widens her eyes, "Adri" I scoff

Enzo and Santi look back at our little sister, "Explain" Dad gestures

"There's nothing to explain, Adri's a shit stirrer" Lola mutters

"Well I mean.... You did leave the house at midnight"

"What?" Mom scoffs

"So what? I went to sleepover at a friends house-

"And you didn't feel the need to tell anybody why?" Adri interrogates

"You didn't do this with Carmen when you saw Carter today-

"See now that's kinda different" I butt in

"Maybe she just didn't want to wake you guys" Carter says

I look back at him and he shrugs, "Exactly, leave me alone now" Lola says annoyed

"So which friend were you seeing-

"Actually you know what? I'll just go" She puts her plate into the sink before heading upstairs

Adriana tuts at our parents, "That's your daughter"

"Why must you always start a war at the table?" I question

She flips her hair back, "All she had to do was fess up"

The rest of our siblings are just rolling their eyes with annoyance, then there's Carter who's watching the whole thing with amusement. "Well now you know who the problem starter is" Dad tells him

He smiles a little before drinking from his glass, "I figured it was always Adri"

"Well you guessed right" I reply

Mom gestures to my plate, "You didn't finish"

"I left three slices" I defend

"Snack later"

"Yeah yeah"

Matty grabs my plate immediately before sliding the food onto his, I get up. "Carter and I are going now"

He looks up at me confused, "We are?"

"Yeah we are, let's go-

"I wanna stay"

"Exactly he wants to stay" Santiago butts in

"Yeah I got that, Carter come on" I gesture

He sighs before getting up, "You should know, Carmen doesn't like to share" My dad says amused

"Roberto you've got your own friends" I say sarcastically

"When are you coming back?" Matteo asks

"I don't know-

"I was asking Carter" He interrupts

I gape and Carter smiles, "Wow Matty"

"Whenever you want" He answers my little brothers question

"Cool"

"I take it you didn't like that I was there"

I frown as I look back at him, "What? No, I just wish my family weren't so obsessed with you"

He smiles, "Well now you know how I feel with you and Grace-

"Hey that's different"

We reach the end of the road and I frown, "You drove here?"

He shrugs, "Carter stop drinking and driving" I scoff

"I'll drink and drive a plane if it means I get to see you"

"Stop with the cute shit or else I'll fold"

"I'm pretty sure you've folded already no?"

"No"

"Really? I recall you clenching your legs when I-

I cover his mouth with my hand, "Alright I get it"

As I remove my hand he wraps an arm around me, "I'll see you tomorrow right?" I ask

"Can we just skip?"

"I'll see you tomorrow.... Right?" I repeat

He sighs, "Yes"

I smile before giving him a quick kiss, "Good"

"Text me" I then say as Carter gets into his car, he nods before closing the door and I watch as he drives away with a little smile on my face

I'm glad to have him back....

The rest of the night was somewhat peaceful, when I got back Santi was lecturing Adri about how she doesn't always need to start drama 24/7, Matteo was outside playing soccer, Enzo left to go back to college, I was sat in my room waiting for a text from Carter, and then there was my little sister...... she was locked up in her room, leaving me to wonder what the heck is going on...

~*~

"Morning" June says amused

I shut my door, "Hey"

"So... Carter slept over two nights ago?"

I frown, "How did you even hear about that?"

My best friend smiles as she keeps her eyes on the road, "The source would like to remain hidden"

"No need, I know it was Adri" I mutter

She scoffs, "Who cares? Did you guys fuck? Did you invite him? What happened?-

"First of all, no we didn't fuck, secondly no I didn't invite him and lastly, he was and drunk he missed me so he drove over to my house" I shrug

June gapes, "So your telling me that he came all the way to you in the middle of the night?" She scoffs

"Mhm"

"And what exactly was his excuse for going awol on you?"

"That information would like to stay locked" I reply

She sighs, "Fine keep your secrets"

I smile as I sit back, "I will"

"I need to get laid" She mutters to herself

Indeed she does

After we got to school we had our first two classes together, then it was break and not once did I see Carter. I even texted him but he didn't respond, so in other words he's probably not here. Afterwards I was with Sienna for art and then it was time for physics, the day was going by extremely slowly. As I was making my way to the back of the classroom, Eliza looked back at me. "Your in this class?" She says surprised

No shit Sherlock

"No I just came here for fun"

She frowns before eventually turning back round to face the front and I take my seat as Miss Phillips sits down behind her desk. "Today we're working from the text book, page five everyone" She announces

Great

I start to feel even more miserable after seeing the title on the page

Newton's law

You know how every high school has those quarterbacks who are completely ignorant and don't ever know when to shut up? Well that's who I'm currently having to deal with, he also happens to be blonde.

Ryan turns back, "Heard you've got an Ed"

I look up from my textbook, "Um, yeah"

"You exercise a lot?"

"No not anymore"

"So do you like, force yourself to vomit and shit?"

What's with the questions

"Uh.... No, I'm not really a purger" I say awkwardly

Look if it had been any other time of the day I probably would've gotten rude back to him, but it's in a classroom which makes it awkward because you know other people are listening in to the conversation.

Ryan assesses me with a frown, "Aren't eating disorders supposed to make you look really skinny? You still have an ass.... And tits too-

I frown, "You-

"Was that supposed to be funny?" An unexpected voice scoffs from behind me, I look up with surprise

Since when was he in my class?

"Sit down Mr Miller" Miss Phillips says annoyed, Eliza turns back.

"Since when were you in this class?" Ryan says confused

"Do you think your fucking funny?" Carter repeats

"I was just having a conversation with her-

"No, to me it sounded like you were just being an ignorant dick-

"Carter it's ok" I promise

He finally looks at me, "It's not"

"I just ignore idiots like him-

"And stop staring, she doesn't like that shit" Carter says annoyed

Ryan raises his hands with surrender before turning back to face the front and he sits down before lying on the table, "That was really cute"

"I hate that word"

I smile a little, "I know-.... Hey where have you been, I texted you"

"I woke up late" He murmurs against the table

"But your still tired" I say confused

"And I would've slept for longer but I came for you"

"Well then in that case I'm proud of you. But actually sit up and work with me"

Carter sighs before doing so, I lie the textbook in the middle of the table between us. "What had you up all night" I ask as I unwrap a lollipop

"Aaron"

I scan my eyes over the first paragraph on page five, "One of these days I'm gonna have to make you a sleep schedule" I mutter as I scribble down a few notes

Seriously even last year Carters sleep pattern was an absolute mess, five hours isn't enough. When he doesn't reply I turn to look at him, he's dozing off once more. I roll my eyes before smiling a little

He came to school for me

I don't know why that makes me feel so happy

-

To be honest, I woke up in a not so bad mood today.... Everything was ok. But then when I got downstairs my mom had to ruin everything by telling me that Jacob called, he wanted Grace and I to come over for dinner.... Little does he know that his daughter doesn't talk anymore.

I told mom to tell him that I said fuck off, she told me that he seemed sorry but I could care fucking less. Anyway I'm really trying not to show how annoyed I am today, I want to be happy with Carmen.

She brings me out of my thoughts, "Hey I hope you didn't bring your car today"

"Melissa dropped me, why?"

The excitement is so evident on her face and to be honest, I find it amusing but also cute. "We're picking up my car today" Carmen claps

"I'm not sure if I should be happy or scared"

She scoffs as she hits me on the arm, "I'm a good driver" She defends

"But just incase your not, I'll always be ready to take over"

She rolls her eyes in return

Carmen really knows how to keep me wanting more. Now I don't know if she wore this outfit on purpose, just to irritate me, or if she generally just put it on without realising how horny I am. For starters, it's a dress.....

Then there's the fact that it's a v-neck which gives me the tiniest peak at her breasts. And also it's not very long which means her thighs are on display, once that dress hits the wind it's over for me.

Give me a break C

-

"Yeah we can hang tomorrow" She continues to converse with Zoe

"Can she even drive?" Aaron snorts at me

"So I hear"

"Maybe you shouldn't sit in the front seat"

I smile a little, "How's it going with Zo" I then ask

Aaron sighs, "A work in progress"

He's been trying to get her back for god knows how long, they've been split for awhile now and I'm honestly surprised that he hasn't found another girl to chase after. It's hilarious really, wherever Zoe is, Aaron is. And even though they aren't together, the guys in this grade are such pussies and are afraid to ask her out because they don't want Aaron to hate them.

"You guys going out?"

"Yeah I'm dropping her home" He replies

I pinch his cheek, "Awe she still has you wrapped around her finger" I tease

He slaps my hand away, "And my dick too"

I snort, "Don't give me that, Carmen has you wrapped around hers"

"Not in the slightest-

"You ready?" She asks, Aaron and I both face them

"Mhm" I answer

"Fuck yeah, let's go" She drags me by the hand and I look back at Aaron who's giving me a look that says I told you so.

I flip him off as Carmen leads me outside, "I don't think I've ever seen you skip before"

"Well todays a first Miller"

She shields her eyes from the sun before turning to walk backwards and the wind blows causing the bottom of her dress to start acting up. "Did you really have to wear that dress today?" I complain

"Yes, I love that I can turn you on so easily"

And of course she knows exactly how much power she has over me, "Fuck you" I mumble

She smiles as we cross the road