I can't believe him! It's just that he said he's in love with me and I can't really respond to that. He's really sweet and all, and we have gone out many times for food, watched a movie together, went to a theme park, but he's a bit eccentric and gets cold when I ask him to buy me something. Isn't that crazy? It's like all he thinks about is money. I ask him to buy me a drink, he gets cold. I ask him to buy me that new Burberry bag for my birthday, he gets cold. I ask him to pay for the gas, he gets cold. I just don't understand. I can never find good men. And I'm almost 30! It's like all the good men are taken or something. I talked about this to my other guy friends if they can understand him but it seems like they don't understand him either! I guess some men are just like that. I do wish I could meet somebody nice. Gary said he liked me but I don't know. He's okay I guess but I should find someone better. If Huey asked me out I would absolutely accept in a heartbeat. Oh, Huey. You make me skip a heartbeat. But I think he has a girlfriend. I hope somebody like Huey will appear in my life soon.

I've been spending some time with this girl I really like. She's funny, she's charming, she's smart! I think it's going really great! I feel like we have a future together! But there is something that's bothering me. She keeps asking me to buy her things and stuff, like food and drinks and something a little expensive for her birthday. Like, I mean that's fine if we really were together in a relationship but we're not. I didn't think too much in the beginning, to be honest. I thought it was the same as donating to my favorite Twitch streamers. She asks me if she could have a drink from the convenience store, sure. She asks me if I would pay for the meal, didn't see a problem. She tells me to split the gas bill but I end up paying for all of it, uh... She must be into me if she wants me to do stuff like that for her, right? I think so. Sure, I do pause and look at her funny because she's sending mixed signals but girls are just like that. I try to get closer to her and she leans away. I flirt with her and she looks at me blankly. Playing hard to get, I see. They like playing that game and I know it. Why else would she keep wanting to go out with me? I mean, if she's not into me and she's asking me for all this then that's a little messed up.

Oh, great. She rejected me! What the fuck am I going to do now? I literally used my rent money to buy her that new Burberry bag AND the buffet at the theme park restaurant. This is ridiculous! I thought it was going great! Are you fucking kidding me!? She was into Huey this whole time, wasn't she??? Doesn't she know I only spend money on girls I really like!?!?!? She was one of them!!! I was in love with her!!! Fuck this. I'll have to ask my parents for money again. This fucking sucks. What a goddamn bitch.