-drep drep-

They went to the upstairs and arrived at a small corridor. There are four rooms in this floor. Pan told them that the two rooms in the left side from the stairs were their room.

"so, our room it's here, and here"

"which one will you take, savior?"

"guess this one that is nearest the stairs"

"then, I'll take the one beside it"

Ragha opened the door for Yana. Then, he came into the room with Shanti. After that, Ragha closed the door and also got in to his room.

Shanti dropped their supply bag at the corner of the room. She saw one bed with quite comfy look.

"will....will i sleep with sir Yana from now on? or...on the floor? as long we're in the same room.."

Shanti couldn't help herself. The thought about her in one room with her alpha made her excited. A tail's movement could be seen behind her cloak.

"you can take off that cloak Shanti. We can relax here"

"yes sir Yana"

Yana also took off his jacket and long pants. After put it on some kind of little wardrobe near the bed, he lay on the bed.

"-fuuh- quite a good start. This place is also really good. hm?"

Yana realized that Shanti still stood there. Seemed it's still to awkward for her to be in the same room with him.

"come here Shanti, i think i need a warm hug here"

Shanti's ears were lifted up. She couldn't ask more than that.

"understood"

She climbed up on the bed and crawled to approach Yana. Then, she prepared her heart and mind before she finally lay down and hugged him.

"how... how's it...sir Yana?"

"mmm, it's really warm and comfortable"

Yana touched Shanti's ears and hair, also her tail. She felt ticklish but it also came with a pleasant sensation for her. She used this chance to cuddle and burry herself into Yana's hug too.

"miss Pan's foods are really good! we've never tasted something like that before"

"yes, even back at my world, that kind of quality is not really easy to find"

"really sir Yana? then miss Pan is really an awesome cook"

"indeed"

"tell me sir Yana...am i allowed to feel this happy?"

"what do you mean Shanti?"

"i....stop dedicated myself to our beast god...and I'm still getting this happiness.."

"i see, you are still bothered by that"

"forgive me...."

"no, no. It's a normal thing, really"

"then..."

"I'll use a simple comparison. Do you happy when you served the beast god ROGNIR?"

"yes! I'm happy and that's my life for"

"then, do you happy when you give yourself to me?"

"....o..of course sir Yana... are you being mean again?"

"ahaha, no no. Can you see now? either you serve your beast god, or you serve me, both of it make you happy right? so where's the wrong at it?"

"but.... didn't i just become selfish?"

"and why is that wrong?"

"because i neglect my duty as a shaman.."

"seems my explanation still not make sense for you. Then let me ask you this Shanti"

He looked at her eyes.

"why do you think there is a rule or condition for a shaman to quit from her duty?"

"i.. don't know"

"there are two reasons i think"

"and that are...."

"the first one is, as a sign. A sign that a shaman could be replaced, she doesn't need to pledge her entire life for it"

"ah! why i never see it from that point..."

"and the second, because your beast god knows...that his children have instincts, natural instincts. He know at some point, you and the others Half-beast will experience this instincts, and you can choose whether you want to follow it or neglect it"

"our beast god is too kind...he already gives us so many blessings, yet he still thinks about our feeling?"

"yes, i think so. He indeed a good God"

"i see...after hearing your explanation, somehow i know i don't do anything wrong" Shanti felt relieved

"you don't need to worry. I'll tell you when you're doing something wrong, you can trust me on that"

"of course sir Yana! I'm always believed in you"

"yes, i know Shanti" he patted her head again

He kept patting her head and after few minutes, he didn't feel any movement from her.

"she is fell asleep...i think carrying me while using beast mode really depleted her stamina.."

Yana decided to sleep too and closed his eyes. But then again, everytime he closed his eyes, his mind would become very focused and made all his sense became sharp. He could hear voices coming from the first floor.

"it's Pan's voice....and man? not Lorick or Rhoam...hmm, interesting.."

He finally fell asleep after few minutes and ended his first day at Bar'laghine.

-----( Chapter 52 "First night at Khal'ard" )-----