Dear Jiyong,

The 5th session will be today and my mother suggested to me that I should write to you back.

Should I? or Should'nt I?

So I decided to write you a letter but I will not send it to you. The words I'm writing now are the words that I have in my mind that I can't tell. All the words written here in my journal are the words I wanted you to know but sadly I know you won't ever read it but if you were to read- I'm no longer here on earth.