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Recap

"Not telling you who it's with, BUT just know if it ends right then I might be on some cliche Wattpad story about dating your brothers best friend" I laugh

I didn't need Nick for Clay to find out about this one then, just perfect

Eat that Clay

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"You are wearing that to the date?" Angel says judging my outfit

"Why, what's wrong with it" I say looking down at my attire

"I think it's the jacket" she says intensely looking at what I have on "Hold on, I know what could work" Angel then adds

She pulls into my closet to look for another one, but takes out a white hoodie with a smiley face on it instead

"What's this?" She says with an accusing tone

"A hoodie...?" I drift off

"Who's hoodie Charlie" she grumbled "You know what, don't say it, we are burning this"

"No wait" I stop her

"I know it hasn't been long, but you need to let go of things, you'll never get over him if you don't" her expression softened

"I am going on a date today"

"Way to state the obvious... but are you going for the right reason?" she says "Are you going because you are interested in the guy? Or because you want to get back at Clay"

I stay silent

"I'm not judging you though, don't get me wrong, I've done that before, I just didn't have someone to point it out to me" Angel cautioned

"What should I do then?" I ask

"I say you still go, who knows, maybe something will come from it" she says, and then walks over to my closet again pulling out a leather jacket "Use this one"

"I always use it"

"I know, because it looks good on you" she smiles "Where were you guys going again?"

"A bar" I say changing my outfit

"Have fun then, and try not to drink much"

"Don't worry, I won't, I have an exam coming up and I need to wake up early tomorrow to study anyways"

I grab my handbag and put it across me

"Bye Angie" I chuckle

"Bye Char, be safe please"

"Alwayysss" I shout already outside of my room

Troy told me he needed to buy something before we actually got to the bar, said he had something planned for after the date and didn't have it at home.

Since I was bored out of my mind I said I'd go with him to target, I didn't mind.

So now I'm once again standing in front of the supermarket aisles looking at some blankets before a date. Troy wanted me to pick one while he looked for food. I quickly decided on a fuzzy light green one.

Suddenly, I hear footsteps coming towards me, so I assume it's Troy

"Hey Troy I think we should get th-" my words get cut short when I turn around and notice it's not Troy. It's him.

That one green eyed boy who left me, the one who shattered me.

After noticing me just standing there, Clay also stops in his tracks, not expecting me either

I unconsciously smile, I haven't seen him in a while so it caught me off guard. However as soon as I let out the smile, flashes from that night rush into my mind, quickly washing it away

"notice how broken you are?"

"I'm leaving either way Char"

We both stare at each other, as if we were strangers. I try to remember the moments him and I spent together, cling onto that happiness I felt, but nothing.

That night still ringed through my head

"never have I fucking ever been such a slut to the point I almost got assaulted by a random guy in a bathroom"

How could he be so cruel with me?

None of us dare to say anything, to speak. This is the first time I've seen him since he walked away from me and our almost relationship

I feel my eyes beginning to water, but I fight it as best as I can. Until someone clears their throat

That's when I notice Troy standing behind him

"I found the snacks" he smiles "Do you want that blanket?"

I nod, breaking eye contact with Clay

"Great, let's get going then" he puts his hand out waiting for me to go.

It takes me a moment, but I do so, I walk past Clay and grab his hand.

I walk past someone who I considered to be my everything at one point. Now? A stranger whom I share some vague memories with

"Are you ok?" Troy asks noticing my changed expression

"I will be" I tell him

Sadly, I felt really bad the entirety of our date. Maybe it was the emotional distress of coming face to face with him that made me physically ill, I'm not sure. Seeing Clay reopened a wound I was just beginning to close.

And even after the shitty date I made Troy go through, he still wanted me to go on what he had planned for afterwards.

Honestly I wasn't feeling it, but I agreed to anyways.

"An old friend brought me here once" he says stepping onto a field.

We drove off a couple of miles and ended up on a random road

"You won't kill me will you" I laugh

"Nah, Jake would make sure to kill me later, I have a lot to live for" he jokes

"Is it supposed to be comforting that that's the only reason you're not killing me?" I tease him

"Just shut up and follow me" he scolds me

We manage to get everything we bought out to the clearing

"Wait don't turn around" he says "Close your eyes"

I do as he says, Troy guides me somewhere and steps back

"Now, turn"

As I turn I'm greeted by the lights of the city I live in. The city where I presumably met the love of my life, and then lost him.

I can help feel a bit nostalgic about him, about that night we spent in the night club with Nick and Angel.

"Do you like it?" Troy cheerfully says

"I do" I weakly smile

He walks in front of me and looks into my eyes, putting a hair strand behind my ear

"It doesn't seem like it though"

And I break down

"Hey hey don't cry" he tries comforting me

"I'm so sorry I ruined the date"

"No you didn't"

"Yes, I always ruin everything" I sob

"Is it about the guy you saw at the supermarket?" he asks and I nod

"You could say that. It's hard to put it into words really, there's a big story behind it yet none at the same time" I try to explain

"How so?" he says confused

"We had our backs and forwards, spending most of our time for kind of two months together yet he never had the balls to officially ask me to be his girlfriend"

"You are crying for a dude who wasn't man enough to ask you out?" Troy laughs trying to lighten the mood

"Hey" I chuckle

"Ooooh wait it's the guy from the party right? I thought I recognized him" he says and I nod again

"Yeah... and about that night, I'm sorry for kissing you then, I shouldn't have done that" I apologize, I very clearly used him. God I fucked everything up that night

"No no, I liked it, I- I mean I didn't mind" he chuckles "You shouldn't be apologizing to me about that though"

"I do, I was upset at Clay and just wanted to forget about him" I say

"Did it work?" he asks

"For a moment? Yeah, it did" I lie, it didn't, it made everything worse

"Then let me help you again" he leans into me, and slowly pecks my lips

And we start kissing, but it doesn't feel right. It doesn't feel the same as when he did it

Troy then pulls back and smiles at me. I feel like I'm leading him on, maybe it's too soon, I can't do this.

The date doesn't last much longer, and Troy drops me off at my house. When I get into my room Angel is there waiting for me with Nick

"So, how did it go?" Angel excitedly says

"I don't think it's gonna work" I shrug

"Why" Nick dryly asks

"It's just" I put my hands over my eyes on q defeated way "It's too soon"

"Oh baby" Angel pouts hugging me

"Everything was perfect, the date, the little secluded place he took me afterwards and how he kissed me... Something just wasn't right" I try to explain

"But he must've done something wrong" Angel tries to find a reason behind my discomfort

But Nick? Nick knows it, so he says what we all knew but didn't want to admit just yet

"It's because it wasn't with Clay" he says

"Look, I wasn't going to do this because it goes against bro code, but I feel like it's necessary for the grater good" Nick adds

"Go on" I encourage him

"Clay's really bad, like emotionally" he begins "He tries to stream and film youtube videos to forget about you, but he's doing it so much it's consuming him"

So he's not ok after all... it was all a mask to hide how he was really feeling?

"Well Nick, he left me" I say "And I very explicitly told him I don't do breaks"

"Fine then, if you both are going to be too stubborn to talk to each other, be miserable by yourselves, be my guest" Nick yells at me

"You think I'm being stubborn? If I were being stubborn I would've done something wrong in the first place" I yell back at him

"Guys" Angel says trying to calm the situation down

"But you did something wrong, you shouldn't have kissed that guy"

"Clay and I weren't tog-" I begin but I get cut off

"Cut that 'we weren't together' crap, you know damn well it wasn't right" Nick sternly says

"Get out" I say "Both of you leave my room right now"

"Charlotte-"

"No Nick, leave"

"Fine, let's go Angie" he grabs her hand and walks towards the door "But just know I'm not trying to attack you, it's just so you realize things Char, I really appreciate you and Clay, it

sucks seeing you guys this way"

After they both leave, I'm left sitting in my bedroom alone

"I'm not staying sober fuck my study session tomorrow"

I get up from my bed and walk over to my closet. I go through some of my things until I find a bottle of alcohol and some weed Angel left here some time ago.

After I'm a few shots in I walk towards my phone, which I left charging on my nightstand earlier, also lighting the joint I found.

I don't get many notifications, maybe a few texts from Angel or even George at times. However lately there's been one from a purple

app which I dread.

He's the only person I follow there, so whenever he decides to stream his name pops up on my phone.

The vodka shots I took earlier are indeed kicking in, so my judgement is a bit foggy.

Also, mixing vodka with pot? Not my brightest decision of the entire day, but I'm too deep in now anyways.

I click on the notification, but this time, he isn't talking.

I read the title 'Mcc practice NO MIC"

I need to hear his voice. I can't- I can't breath, and my heart is going way too fast, I'm dying from this

I close the app and without second thought go to his contact and click on the call button. After just two rings, he picks up the phone

"Charlotte?" he says, clearly confused

"Clay" I sob, I didn't realize I was crying

"What happened? Are you ok?" Clay says with worry in his tone

"I'm just- I can't" I still cry

"Is Angel there? Where are you"

"In my bedroom" I slur

"Are you drunk?" he asks

"Maybe... I was- I was feeling sad and now I can't breath I'm dying" I panic

"How much did you smoke?" he tells me, quickly realizing alcohol wasn't the only thing in my system.

"The whole thing"

"I thought you were smarter than this Charlie come on" he sounds disappointed

"I don't know I just needed to hear your voice I feel so bad Clay, Nick yelled at me earlier so I-" I break down again "I feel like my heart is pounding so hard it will come out of my chest"

"I will die oh my god"

See I hate crying in front of people, but being drunk turns me into the biggest cry baby ever

"Shit Charlotte I'm streaming I can't-" he stops "Fuck it, please don't leave the house I'll be right there, try to breathe"

"No don't" I say

"What do you mean don't" Clay says getting annoyed, I also hear faint noises from keys dangling against each other

"I just wanted to listen to your voice, I told you this already"

I don't know what I'd do if I had him in front of me again

"Ok then let's talk then, we can do that right?" he cautioned

"Mhm"

"I ran into you today"

So we chatted, for a long time, my breathing went back to normal and I didn't seem to be as panicky as earlier

I hear a faint knock on the door

"Wait a second Clay, someone's knocking" I say

"I don't think that will be-" he begins but I hang up the call

When I open the door I see him standing there, in front of me, in all his glory

"Necessary"

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i didnt want them to see each other so soon but ee

i literally planned for them to fight for like 4 full months but

more drama soon tho so

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