Ryn's pov

I stare at the scale. 130 pounds. I felt so fat, actually I am fat. I walk toward the toilet and stare at the water. I stick my fingers in my mouth and vomit. I rub my throat and feel a sting. Maybe that's normal, I haven't really thrown up before. The only thing I've ever done to be skinny was run the extra mile. I flush the vomit down at the toilet and brush my teeth.

"Why are you brushing your teeth? It's 12 and you haven't eaten nothing today." Sam states. I nod.

"I know, I just forgot to brush them this morning." I say. I suddenly think of my mom and Ava just out of the blue. I wish mom had never have found me with that razor in my hand. Like always, I screwed it up. 

"Sam, since I can't go see my mother and Ava right now, can you possibly ya know check on them?" I ask. Sam grins at me. Every time he smiles it's like everything's okay, I don't feel depressed when he smiles at me.

"Of course I will." He accepts. I smile at him then put put my tooth brush in the drawer. Sam throws on a shirt and I hug him around his waist.

"Thank you Sammy." He kisses my forehead.

"Your welcome."

Sam's pov

I pull into the driveway and see Ava looking out the window nervously. I get out of the car and knock on the door. Ava quickly opens it.

"What are you doing here?" Ava asked. 

"What a guy can't come and see his girlfriends family?" Ava rolls her eyes causing me to laugh.

"Whatever, but Ryn isn't here. She left." 

"Yeah, I know. She's with me." Ava's eyes widen like a kid on Christmas day. Didn't they know Ryn was with me?

"Is she here with you?" I shake my head.

"No." Ava gets this worried look on her face. I become worried. I felt like I did something wrong. 

"So she's alone." Ava states. I nod. She's now making me really nervous and frustrated.

"Yes. Why?" Ava's face turns bright red.

"You fucking idiot! She can't be alone! She could commit motherfucking suicide!" Ava shouts angrily while hitting me on the side of the head.

"Ava! Stop!" Her mom shouts. "Sam. come on in. We need to talk to you." Ms. Karen said calmly, but worried at the same time. I came in and sat on the couch with Ava staring at me angrily.

"Listen Sam, as you probably know by know, Ryn has cut herself. Ava and I have been worried about Ryn, we're just afraid one day she'll commit suicide. If would have known that she's been depressed for a while, I would have done something. I the last time we saw her, we took it too far, nd made her think that we don't trust her-"

"Which we don't. Sam, I care about Ryn a lot and I'm just afraid to lose her. What my mom and I are asking you, is if you can watch out for her. Ryn probably won't talk to us anymore. So, the only person she has left is you. Can please please please watch out for her?" Ava asked. I could see how much they loved Ryn, I loved her just as much.

"You guys really care about her, don't you?" 

"Well of course we do we're her family!" Ava shouts, but not really in an angry way. They both waited impatiently for an answer.

"I will, but on one condition." They both smile, even if the condition was good or bad.

"You both have to apologize to Ryn. I saw her pain you both caused her. It caused me pain." Ava comes toward me and sits beside me. She rubs my back as if she's trying to comfort me.

"I'm sorry." I smile.

"Thanks, but you're apologizing to the wrong person." Ava gives a small laugh and looks at the ground. 

"Okay. Deal. I'll call her tomorrow. I'd call her today, but I have to find the words to say." She says as she lifts her head back up. I nod.

"I understand." Ava and Ms. Karen both smile. I never realized how pretty Ava's smile was, or how her eyes shined. She was actually very beautiful. Wait? What am I saying? I have Ryn, and I love her.

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I walked into the motel were Ryn and I were staying. I see one of the workers, Chase, come up to me. He was worried.

"Dude, what happened?" I asked with a concern voice.

"Y-your girlfriend." My eyes widened as far as they could go.

"Okay, just whatever you do, don't call the ambulance!" I said as I ran pat the rooms. As fast as my feet could go I ran to Ryn. I got to the room and swung the door open. I ran to the bathroom were Ryn was sitting curled up in a ball.

"Go away!" She shouted. She was crying the hardest I've ever seen. Her arms were across her chest and her knees reached her chest as she was rocking back and forth. I began to cry as well. I ran to her and wrap my arms around her.

"Go away! Sammy, please go. I don't want you to see me like this!" She cried. I didn't move. I just rocked back and forth with her. 

"Ryn, I'm not going anywhere. I'm staying right here!" Ryn gasp for air in between sobs. She lies her head on my chest.

"Sammy, I didn't mean to do it." She utters. 

"Do what?" Ryn moves her arms from her chest. My heart shatters. I cover my mouth and my cries get louder. 

"I'm sorry Sam." She sniffs. I take her arm and kiss it. She cut again. But it wasn't just a cut. It wasn't 2 cuts or 3 cuts or 4 cuts. They weren't even in rows. They spelled a word. The cuts spelled out the word...

Die.