I promised

I promised myself not to slip back into old habit'

Cause heartbreak is savvy and love is a bitch

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Trigger warnings: sex, unsafe sex, bath time, mentions of killing people, language

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Shouta Aizawa was woken up by light flooding his bedroom and something touching his face softly. He quickly opened his eyes and turned around to see what it was. It was mostly an automatic reflex. Being asleep and something being close enough to touch his face meant immediate danger. He pretty much startled awake, grabbing onto someone's wrist, before he even properly opened his eyes.

He heard a gasp from whoever it was whose wrist he had grabbed. He slowly opened his eyes and saw Y/N's face next to his. What was she doing here? It took Shouta a while to remember why she was at his house, but when he did, his face softened. He quickly let go of her wrist.

"Sorry... You gave me a fright." Shouta muttered and laid back down. He felt tired and exhausted still. Y/N seemed a little frightened, but she quickly snapped out of it and smiled at him, carefully reaching out again and playing with his hair. Shouta sighed contentedly. He could go right back to sleep like this.

"Didn't mean to scare you. You seem tired, Shou." she said and leaned on his chest. Shouta smiled at her groggily.

"I am tired." he mumbled. Y/N chuckled and kissed his forehead, before moving down to his lips. Shouta smiled into the kiss and wrapped his arms around her body, pulling her on top of him, one leg on either side of him, her chest flush against his. She had been sleeping in his pullover and nothing else and it was the sexiest thing that Shouta could imagine. He slipped his hand underneath it and felt her soft skin.

"Seems like you're not too tired for that..." Y/N said with a light chuckle. Shouta hummed, as he became engulfed in her scent. She smelled so good - of coffee and fresh sheets. His hands wandered along her spine, as he kept holding her close, until he reached her neck. She chuckled again and kissed him hungrily.

"Mmh... I'm too tired to move, though. And I like the view from down here." he muttered with a smirk. Y/N laughed and leaned in closer, her breath caressing his ear and the side of his neck, sending small shivers down his spine.

"So you want me to be on top, is that it?" she whispered, gently biting into his ear lobe and nibbling on it. Shouta moaned quietly, as his hands grabbed onto her waist, his thumbs running over her hips.

"Maybe I'd like that..." he replied, his voice sounding raspy with lust and want. He wanted her so badly. Seeing her ride him with that gorgeous body of hers... just thinking about it got him rock hard.

"You'd like that? I can feel that..." she said, grinding her hips against his crotch, making Shouta growl.

"Fuck, baby, don't tease me like that..."

Y/N chuckled, before lifting the pullover up a little, as she moved down to straddle his hips. She pulled down his boxers, making his cock spring free, biting her lip as she was looking at it. She stroked it a few times, before lifting up her hips and lining his cock up at her entrance. She moaned, as she rubbed the head of his cock over her wet folds, before slowly lowering herself onto him.

"Fuck, Y/N, you're so fucking tight..." Shouta groaned, gripping her hips. She had her eyes closed and he could feel her clenching around him. She moaned, as she rolled her hips, making Shouta growl. She was riding him so slowly, it was like torture... Slow and sweet torture... Shouta tugged on the hem of the pullover, making her look down at him, her eyes questioning.

"Take that off. I want to see you." Shouta grunted, tugging on the soft material again. Y/N smiled and pulled it over her head, tossing it to the side of the bed, before rolling her hips against Shouta again, causing him to moan. She kept moving at a slow rhythm, but Shouta wasn't going to have any of that anymore. He couldn't stand how agonizingly slow she moved.

"Fuck, baby girl, I told you to stop teasing..." he muttered, before he gripped her hips tightly and thrusting up into her at a faster pace. Y/N moaned and clenched around him, as she leaned forward, her hands resting on his chest. Her breath came out in short breaths, as Shouta continuously sped up his movements.

"Shouta... fuck, you... you feel so good... a-ah..." she moaned, closing her eyes and clenching hard around him.

"Are you getting close, baby girl?" he asked. Y/N didn't answer and just nodded quickly, while crying out. Shouta grunted and flipped her over, so she was lying on her back. He gently pushed her thighs back, so her legs were up in the air, as slid inside her again, doing a few slow and long strokes, before going faster again, pounding into her, feeling her clench around him and squeeze him tightly.

"Shouta... I'm going to..." she moaned.

"Me too, baby girl..." he grunted, before pressing a hungry kiss to her lips, as he felt his cock throbbing inside her, emptying himself inside her tight pussy, her legs shaking on his shoulders. If every morning was like this, he probably wouldn't even mind getting up every day.

Y/N was gasping for breath as he stilled inside her. He brushed a few strands of hair out of her face, before kissing her forehead. He pulled out of her slowly and carefully, only now realizing that they hadn't even thought of protection. Fuck. He gulped and looked up at her, guilt written all over his face.

"What's wrong?" she asked, her voice barely a whisper. She sat up and quickly realized what it was.

"Protection... Fuck. I'm so sorry..." he told her, but to his surprise she just smiled and shook her head.

"It's fine. I'm on birth control, too, so getting pregnant shouldn't be a concern. And we do regular checks for any diseases, so I'm almost certainly clean. Are... are you?" she wanted to know.

"Yeah, yeah, of course. Phew, that's a relief." he replied and laughed a little, before collapsing in bed next to her and pulling her close into his chest. He wasn't too worried about having to pay for a child, but... he wasn't sure what her boss would do to her, if he found out she had gotten pregnant.

"Still. I'm sorry. I'll make sure to think of it next time." he told her and kissed her forehead. She nuzzled into the nape of his neck. They were lying like that for a few minutes, not saying anything to each other, just basking in the afterglow, until Y/N moved a little and whimpered quietly. Shouta opened his eyes and gave her a worried look. Was she in pain? Had he hurt her?

"Are you okay?" he wanted to know. She smiled, but he could see that she was in some sort of pain.

"I'm fine. Don't worry about it." she replied. Shouta shook his head quickly. That was the biggest bullshit he ever heard.

"You're not fine. What's wrong?" he asked again. Y/N sighed and looked into the distance over his shoulder.

"I'm a little sore." she answered quietly, as if she was ashamed. Shouta pulled her closer and stroked her hair, kissing the top of her head.

"Oh no. I'm sorry, baby girl. Come on, I have an idea. Something that might make it better." he said and got up on his knees, before putting one arm underneath her knees and the other underneath her back, before lifting her up, holding her close to his chest and getting off the bed with her in his arms.

"What... what are you doing?" she wanted to know, wrapping her arm around his neck frantically.

"Ssh, it's all good. We're going to take a nice hot bath. You don't need to move at all, I got you. Just relax." Shouta said, as he carried her out of his bedroom and towards the bathroom. She whimpered quietly again and hid her face in his chest. Shouta smiled down at her, thinking about just how precious she was, before opening the door to the bathroom and gently putting her down on a stool.

"Just wait here, baby girl." he said and made his way over to the bathtub, putting the plug in it and running some hot water into it. There was steam coming up out of the bathtub soon enough and it filled up quickly. Shouta looked back at Y/N who was sitting on the stool, her arms wrapped around herself. Of course, she probably was cold. The house wasn't exactly warm this early in the morning.

"You wanna get in already, Y/N?" he asked her. She looked up at him and nodded quickly, trying to get up, but her legs were still too shaky for that. Shouta quickly caught her and picked her up again.

"No, no, no. You don't need to move at all. This morning was such a nice surprise, now it's my turn to spoil you. Okay?" he said.

"You... You don't need to spoil me, Shouta. You've spoiled me enough already, as it is..." she mumbled. Shouta just shook his head and carried her over to the bathtub that was half full now.

"You wanna dip your toe in first to see if it's not too hot? Don't wanna boil you alive." he said to her.

"Y-yeah, that would be nice. Thank you so much, Shouta." she replied, stretching out her foot as he slowly lowered her down to the bathtub. She dipped her toe in and quickly pulled it back, but then dipped it in again, this time staying in the water longer. Then she nodded at him.

"I think it's just right." she told him with a small smile. Shouta nodded and slowly lowered her into the hot water, until she was almost fully submerged. He turned off the tap and slowly got into the bathtub as well. The hot water made him relax immediately and he let out a satisfied sigh, leaning back for a few seconds to just enjoy the warmth surrounding him, before opening his eyes again and looking at Y/N. It was almost like she didn't know what to do with herself.

"Come here." he said with a smile, opening his legs. She looked at him questioningly, before moving closer to him. He grabbed her shoulders and turned her around, so her back was leaning against his chest and she was sitting between his legs. She still didn't seem to be relaxing much.

"Lean back, Y/N. Nothing bad's going to happen to you here. You're safe, okay? Just... just relax. Trust me." he told her. She nodded and leaned back against his chest, her body fully submerged in the water, except the top of her breasts and her neck and head. She was sweating from the steam coming up from the water and a few hairs were sticking to her forehead.

"Close your eyes, Y/N." he said. She obliged and he started to gently massage her shoulders, moving his thumbs up along her neck and massaging in circles along her spine. Y/N sighed and seemed to finally relax a little more. Shouta brushed the hair out of her face and gathered it behind her neck, so she wouldn't get too hot and faint. Her face started to relax as well.

"There you go. No need to be afraid." he told her. Y/N just sighed and moaned a little, as his thumb pushed against a specific spot on her shoulder blades.

"This feels so nice. Do you do this for all the whores you take to your house?" Y/N asked. Shouta chuckled and kissed the nape of her neck. How did she think that he had done this before? He had told her before that he didn't hang out in strip clubs much. She really didn't know that she was special to him, did she?

"You're the only one I've ever gone back to. And you're the only one I ever brought here." Shouta told her. Y/N sighed, but it wasn't like one of the sighs earlier. She sounded sad this time.

"Please, Shouta... please don't joke about that." she just said quietly. Shouta ran his fingers through her hair.

"I'm not joking about it. I'm absolutely serious. You... You're special to me. I care for you, okay?" he replied, as he felt his heartbeat speeding up. Y/N just scoffed bitterly, and turned over her shoulder to face him.

"Why would someone like you care for me?" she wanted to know. Shouta caressed her cheek, feeling almost a little scared by how empty her eyes looked. God, he loved her so fucking much.

"I like you. I enjoy your company, you're absolutely beautiful and... when we're not having sex you're almost like a friend I've known for years. Believe it or not, I care about you." he said to her. She gave him a pensive look.

"You mean it?" she asked quietly.

"Of course I do. I wouldn't say it, if I didn't mean it. Every single word, Y/N." he replied. Y/N nodded and then smiled softly.

"I... I care about you, too. I always look forward to you coming to visit me. I don't think... I don't think I could survive this for much longer without you." she admitted. Shouta smiled and pulled her back into him, embracing her tightly. He had no idea how to proceed from here, but he was glad that it was out there. That she knew that he actually liked her and that he knew she liked him, too. It was a weight off his chest.

"How about we stop being gloomy now?" he suggested. Y/N laughed and nodded quickly, leaning back into him and closing her eyes.

"Yeah, that sounds like a plan. I wanted to ask you something." she said. Shouta nodded quickly, as he was playing with her hair.

"What is it?"

"This house and the car and everything... that's all yours?" she wanted to know.

"Yes. All mine." he confirmed.

"So... what do you do for a living? You must be making a whole lot of money to be able to spend so much on me and to have a huge house like this and a fancy car." she said. Shouta sighed. He knew the topic would come up sooner or later. He just hoped she wouldn't think any less of him when she knew.

"Why don't you take a guess?" he suggested.

"Well, if we're going with anything that's legal... I'd say you're doing some sort of high profile job. You don't really seem like the type to be an actor or a musician or anything like that. So you're probably in some sort of business. A business owner... a lawyer, maybe... a banker? Possible." she mused, before pausing. Shouta smiled. Well, he could have probably been any of those under the right circumstances...

"But then again, if you were doing anything legal you probably would have never wound up at the strip club. Few people that aren't involved in the criminal underbelly of this city know about this place. So when it comes to crime... well, you don't strike me as a trafficker. You'd have been much more charming when we first met, had you been one. So I'll go with some sort of business in drugs." Y/N reasoned and opened her eyes again, leaning her head back until she was looking up at him. Shouta said nothing for a while and just let that settle down in his mind.

"Well? Am I right?" Y/N wanted to know. Shouta snapped back to reality and looked down at her with a smile.

"No. It's not exactly drugs I'm involved in. Well, I probably am in some roundabout way. But not directly." he replied.

"Then what is it?" Y/N wanted to know. Shouta sighed. Please don't be scared, please don't be scared, please don't be scared. Please don't think any less of me. Please, Y/N, please, please, please.

"I'm a hitman. Contract killer. People pay me when they wanna get rid of someone." he said coldly. There was no other way to talk about what he did. When he killed it was like he was not really doing it. It was impersonal. Even when he killed them up close, it was always somehow impersonal. And so was talking about his job. He looked down at Y/N, seeing how her eyes looked a little scared, but also curious.

She didn't say anything for a long time and it scared Shouta. It really, really scared him, because he didn't want her to think he was cruel or heartless. He wasn't. It was a job. It was a way to survive. He didn't enjoy killing. He just did it to make money. Nothing more, nothing less.

"Huh. Now that you say it, I can see it. It makes sense." she then said and turned around again, leaning into him, as if nothing had happened.

"You're... you're okay with this?" Shouta asked, a little surprised at that reaction. She just shrugged.

"I guess so. I mean... it's not like I'm much better. It's a job, I guess. I'm in no position to judge anyone." she replied. Shouta sighed with relief. She had taken it better than he had expected.

"It is. It's not like I want to do it. I just... I just kind of slipped into it and it seems like I can't get out now." he told her. Y/N chuckled.

"Well, that sounds familiar. You... you don't enjoy killing, do you?" she then wanted to know, her voice quivering a little. Shouta planted a kiss on the top of her head, before shaking his own head.

"No. No, I don't enjoy it. I just do it. It's not personal or anything at all." he answered. Y/N nodded and relaxed again.

"That's good." she just said.