My sleep was disturbed by the loud sound that was coming from downstairs.

"Uuhm, Jungkook is a deep sleeper I knew he won't hear that, right?"I didn't bother to check who it was since I knew it was V hyung.

"I swear Taehyung, if you make another noise, I'll make Kuma bite you later"I heard Jennie noona's voice and I can't help but to chuckle at their behavior.

"Guys stop fighting! Keep quiet, both of you know that Jungkook is sleeping"Yep, it was Namjoon hyung.

I'm pretty sure that the others are here too, well except Jin hyung.

I stood up from my bed and grabbed a new hoodie from my closet. I went downstairs and they sighed in disappointment.

"This is all your fault Taehyung, your too noisy!"Jennie sent him a glare but V hyung just rolled his eyes and came to hug me.

"Happy Birthday Bro!!!"He greeted me while hitting my head with the balloon.

"Eyooo! Our Kookie is finally 23, go find someone better that that snake!!"Hoseok hyung said that made me laugh a bit.

Now I know why he hates snakes so much.

"I'm glad that you finally cut ties with that animal Jungkook~ah, Happy Birthday"Yoongi hyung gave me a thumbs up.

"Ahh, I'm two years older than you yet your taller than me"Jimin hyung rolled his eyes playfully and patted my head.

"I'm so proud of you kook, Happy Birthday"Namjoon hyung gave me a hug and I smiled.

"Come on guys! Let's stop being so emotional!"I said when Taehyung hyung suddenly shouted.

"Let's go to the bar!!!"He said and I shakes my head.

"I'll stay here hyung"

"Aww come on Jungkook, you no fun"He pouted.

"It's better to go there a have fun than to stay here having a hard time getting that gold digger out of your mind"Jennie noona said. Well she's rigth.

"Okay I'll go"I forced a smile and they rejoiced.

Everything will be so much better if they're with me. I sighed and went upstairs to take a quick shower and changed my clothes.

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It's already 10 pm, and I'm still here at the bar with these four. Jimin hyung, Rosé noona, Taehyung hyung and Jennie noona.

I controlled myself from drinking because I know that I will have a headache again later, and drinking too much can kill.

I don't want to die.

yet.

I still have to bring back my old life, but it seems so impossible that made me lose hope slowly.

Maybe, it's much better if I let them go.

But I want to see and talk to her just today. I sighed as I felt my heart ached.

"Come on Park Chaeyoung, just say that you love me back"Jimin said as he tried his best not to fall asleep.

"Stop Jimin, you're drunk"She scolded him.

I glanced at V Hyung and saw him sleeping peacefully at Jennie noona's shoulder.

I'm sure that they won't notice that I'm gone.

I made my way out of the bar and many girls tried to flirt with me but I just pushed them away. Honestly, I feel so irritated right now.

I went to the beach where me and Lisa have our first date as a couple. I smiled as I recalled the memory.

Staring at the stars as I recalled all our memories before letting her go. Without noticing, a tear escaped my eye and I didn't bother to wipe it.

"This place seems very familiar"Her voice sent shivers down my spine.

Yeah, Bambam broke up with me earlier through the phone. He said that he's in Thailand with Mina right now.

All I need is to be alone. But this beach calms me every time. I don't know why, and this place looks so familiar, I didn't remember going here when I was a kid.

I glanced at the side and saw a boy sitting a little bit far from me. He looks so sad.

He took of his hood and realized it was Jungkook. I don't know what to do.

You can cringe but my heart screams to go near him but some part of it says no. I sighed as I went near him.

He didn't seem to notice me so I spoke.

"This place seems very familiar"His head turned to me as his eyes sparkled. I can't help myself but to smile.

He smiled back showing his bunny teeth that made me remember of something that happened here, but I just shrugged it off.

"Why are you here Lisa? It's too late"He said as I sat beside him while looking at the stars and changed the topic.

"Jungkook, I know this is weird but...I dreamt of you, we were here together while looking at the stars"I said.

He looks like he's gonna say something but just changed his mind.

"I'm sorry if I creep you out"I said and flushed in embarrassment.

"No you're not, I think it's kinda cute"He smiled as he scratched his nape. But I feel like he's hiding something.

Silence ingulfed us but I never felt uncomfortable, it's like I'm used to it.

"Lisa?"He called me and I hummed in response.

"C-can I...kiss you?"My eyes widened at what he said. That kiss was the reason why me and Bambam broke up.

"Are you serious Jungkook? You didn't even thought of me, that was the reason why me and Bambam broke up. And now you're asking me to repeat that same mistake?"I feel so disappointed towards him.

I noticed how his expression quickly changed and he forced a smile.

"I'm sorry Lisa, I promise to stay away from you from now on. I'm sorry for ruining your relationship with Bambam"I noticed a tear that escaped his eye but he quickly hide it.

And then it hit me that it was also my fault because I kissed him first. But why is he asking for a kiss when he know that it is wrong?

I followed him to apologize. He was about to cross a street and I ran fast so I can apologize before he would disappear in my sight.

He was crossing street with his head down. I noticed that a car was running towards him with full speed.

"Jungkook, watch out!!"I shouted but before he could turn around the car hit him and I felt my heart drop.

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Should I make Jungkook regret more??

And I hope you'll recover soon Yoongi, I love you so much!!💜😭