It was already three-o'clock when I sat down in one of the empty benches inside a small Mart on Binakayan point. I thought that I can now remove my ankle from my toe for it feels really fucking sore, and the skin under my feet- good God, It almost feels like I stepped over a hundred sharp nails. I felt the literal exhaustion that I've never felt before, believe me. Luckily, this mart have an air-conditioner so I felt at ease somehow. There were few people inside the mart; two young girls are sitting in one of the chairs, eating some huge Ice cream in a cone, there were also three people who are in line in the counter to pay whatever the fuck they bought. Beside my bench was a guy, at my age, I guess. We're both wearing a cap, a short, a plain-colored shirt and a small bag. He may be waiting for someone or he just sat there to take a rest like me. I don't know.

Then the glass door swung open and a girl- a cute one, entered the place. She's also wearing a cap but she removed it when she was inside. Her hair was short and she has fair skin and all that stuff that I like from a girl. Honestly, she's kind of my type and that sort of thing. Not so gorgeous, not so intimidating- she's just, cute and average. She went into the Beverage Section and disappeared from my sight. Anyway, I checked my wristwatch because, I told myself that I will rest for ten-minutes, and ten-minutes only. Also, the rules say that 'No cheating.' I also stopped the music playing because I don't want to waste songs while I'm just sitting here and warming my ass.

'Seven minutes' has passed since I sat here and my legs won't stop bouncing like it was boring or something. Then finally, the cute girl from before sat beside me but, on another bench. She now has this hotdog sandwich. Before she actually sat on the bench, we had an eye-contact. Oh boy, you don't know how startled I was when our glances met for a second or two. She also said something about her sandwich being hot and all that. I grabbed one of my legs that won't stop bouncing- I don't want her to felt weird eating that sandwich while a nervous stranger sits near her. I really want to take a clear look on her face from our small distance from each other but, I can't. I'm shy as hell whenever this kind of thing happens, especially when I'm all by myself, out in public. If Old Jonathan was here, boy, his sight will linger on this girl until she finishes eating her 'hotdog sandwich'. He can do that, Old Jon, believe me, he can.

I wanted to stay a little bit longer, sitting there, so close to that cute girl. I could ask her name, have a chat with her, tell some of my corny jokes but, I can't. I must proceed on my walk-trip. So, I went out of the mart, not giving her a single glance even though I really want to take a look at her just one last time. It sucks you know. Maybe next time, or in my next life, I will have the confidence I desire and go talk to her. Maybe next time.

Not so further from the mart, I now saw this girl, a gorgeous one or... how would Old Jon say it? Oh yeah, she's hot as fuck, with all the curves from her body, long wavy hair, fair skin that actually looks soft, I almost thought that she was a model or something. She's with someone, a woman, older than she is, I suppose. But, I guess, I was staring at her for too long that I forgot that I was now walking in a crowded road, almost near the highway so, it's quite dangerous now- I almost got hit by a motor-bike, and my soul was startled when a honk from the speeding bike came from behind. I almost jumped- I almost die, actually. Luckily, I'm not that dumb yet to be killed in the road. Shit, that woman's beauty wasn't to be blamed (because I'm about to), I was spacing out because I saw a chick. That shit is so fucking dumb as hell of me.

Before anything else, let me tell you a story though. A story of a man who was enticed by another woman's beauty. I remembered this story because I felt so embarrassed about what just happened. Anyways, this man I was talking about was in a relationship, he's happy and all that. But one night, when he was not with his partner, he got drunk and high, and all that party bullshit. His friends introduced him to a girl who he thought was much more beautiful and better than his girlfriend. They were both drunk that night. They became intimate with each other, they kissed, they touched, and later that midnight, they 'did' it. Yes, that guy cheated. That jerk chose a one night stand instead of staying in his relationship. He apologized to his girlfriend afterward but, he also said to her that he will stay with this another girl because this chick gave him what he wanted that night. But, a week later, the chick told the guy that it was just a one-night thing, there's nothing special about it. The guy felt confused, why? He asked. He was making love with her that night, it was supposed to be special and all that bullshit but, for that chick, that was just sex. The guy was so upset that he tried to reach out from her past-girlfriend because, he needed her comfort but, she ignored him. That is when the guy realized something, 'always prefer the thing that gives you something that you need, that makes you feel the longing for something real, and neglect those stupid things in life that will only give you a temporary feeling because you might not know that this thing could destroy and could be the end of you.

Why am I embarrassed? Because I chose to stare into a hot chick beside the road and almost get myself killed rather than admiring the cute girl inside the mart where no vehicle can hit me or kill me. Well, that's what they say, 'being a fool is the nature of men.'