It was aleardy 8 pm, i was walking in gangnam thinking about this amazing experience and then i remembered that i lost my friend , and i didn't even get to have her number, i start feeling hungry and the fact that i should give the boy of yesterday his sweater come to my mind , i took a cab, and after 10 minutes i found myself in front of my room looking for his number in my phone, to call him but no answer i thought maybe he was busy and sincerely i was very hungry, I put the shirt in my bag and went out.

I found a restaurant not very far from where i stay so , i walked in and ordred some burger and alot of frits and after fulfilling my stomach i went searching for some games to play, i was alone but i didn't feel lonely, i was really happy.

i was really happy and really really fascinated with view and then i took my phone finding a message from joon,"Who are you, sorry i can't answer the phone , work !!" the boy from yesterday, asking me why i called him

" hey, chingu, I just wanted to return your sweater"

"ah it's you hendy?" I forget to introduce myself to him stupid girl.

"yeah if you're free can we meet , so i can return it back "

"Of course, where are you now ? i will be free in an hour we can meet then"

i was about to type the address when suddenly i recieved another message from who? let me tell you someone i wished i can never hear from any time soon in my life, My ex-boyfriend,{ ah i forget i didn't explain my story so here it is, before coming to south korea, i was put in a difficult situation in which i should choose between the love of my life and the dream that kept my heart beating , we were in a relationship for almost 4 years and after i graduate from university my dad offered me the chance to go to south korea as a gift yet unfortuantly my boyfriend didn't like that idea, so i had to choose, at first i refused to choose i thought i can convience him, and i tried everything possible to make him understand , it was only a vacation for one month after all but nothing could ever change his mind, he didn't even gave me good reason to not go just acting like he do not want me to.. and i am not the type of girl who will accept someone is view without explanation and finally i choose to go after my dream , because i knew myself and if i stayed i would have blamed him for the rest of my life which will make me hate him though he was the most precious things i had and i wanted to at least keep our memories together intact but believe me it hurts alot and a lots even though i m trying my best to cover it, sometimes i wish i can call him to tell him about my journey i do miss him. that's my story for some a breakup may seem like nothing but form it drove me crazy if i wasn't far away and i don't think alot i would have depressed i don't know if i will regret my choice later on but for now let's live in the moment, it's my dream after all}

and here i am looking at his name pooping in my phone, i was really scared to open the message but something in me expected it could be good news, i thought he calmed down, but you know what they say don't expect too much because you may end up disppointed and that's exactly what happened i got a message that can not only hurt me more but just made me broke in a million pieces in a few seconds i couldn't move nor cry or speak, i just looked and looked at it like that i can feel my heart breaking down, my mind turned blank,{ How can a person write all the hurtful words in just one message, how can a person insult the one who loved him for 4 years like that without an apparent reason, ah let me rectify he send a picture of me playing with taetae, i don't even know how the hell he got it but maybe from the SNS.. jealousy? Hate? oh my god }, and fortuantly a street restaurant was just in front i walked in without thinking i need to drink and forget ," ahjumma soju jusseya" that's everything i wanted right now, to lose my memory if it was possible i will be glad to have amnesia why does such a message turn my most beautiful day to disastrous one.

i was drinking and crying, without any care about the world before everything turn black ..

Rapmonster POV

we finished practicing, i was playing with my phone still waiting for her to answer back, it's aleardy been 2 hours and no responce i thought maybe something come up or she changed her mind but suddenly My phone start ringing and her number showed, i answered it but an ahjumma was talking to me instead and telling me to come fetch my girlfriend who don't want to stop drinking, i don't know why but i was really worried about her, i knew this girl put herself in trouble again, i took my coat asking for suga to cover for me and grabbed the first cab i found , it wasn't far from to the dorm, when i reached the address the old woman gave me, i saw her in state that made me freeze from choke, i couldn't move toward her. she was just sitting in a corner and crying her eyes out, from the table in front of her she drank at least 4 to 5 bottle alone oh god , the joyful girl who didn't stop smiling and fooling around this morning was in a very pitiful state {Why ? what happened? In less than a day}, i went in and paid the women who was waiting for me to close down and walked toward her, she looked at me and smiled" hey joon," {what the hell how can she not recognize me, ah man your putting a hat but she just saw me this morning, crazy one}

" Joon my friend, I am happy to see you, here take this and thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuu" she was talking in english in arabic.. in alien language! i don't know how much language she used but i was astonished by her,although she was trying to smile, her tearful eyes made me feel bad. it was like seeing one of my member crying i really felt sad for her, i wanted to know why she was like that but she was in state that even remembring her name can be difficult. I tried to make her stand but i couldn't! "HENDY LET's go please"

"Noooo, one last shot pleaaaase" she made puppy eyes,

"Stop it we have to go" she whined and didn't want to move i just get her out from the restaurant and here she is again sitting in the floor.

"Joon why me why ? why does he have to make my most beautiful day collapase like that, I am not bitch you know ? and i didn't come her to sleep with bangtan, i just wanted to come to korea and seeing them was one of my wish list, that's all !! why why?? , i really loved him and i still do so why can't he trust me" she whinned tears coming from her eyes while i was under shock after hearing her statment, who the hell is he ? I wanted to ask but i could not push her far it may be a difficult subject

"Calm down hendy please stop crying i am here, everything will be ok" i said kneeling down to her.

"Why ? why are you still ? ah yeah you want your shirt, here goodbye, i know you too want to leave me. Go go don't worry i will not be mad, i understand you " she just looked at me and put her face down and mumbled".. humm because i wanted to realize my dream, yeah yeah judge me joon, yeah , i give up love for my dream" and she start crying again, i don't know what to do i am really troubled, {i can't leave her here and i don't even know where she is staying aiiish !! think naamjoon thiiinnkk, i am not rapmonster but the monster of problems!}

"Hendy stand up please and stop crying " she was still sitting in the middle of the street and looking at her phone and crying, the people was looking at us as if i was the one who hurt her.

"no, i really want to die now, you don't know how much it hurts, i feel like someone is stabing me inside.. yeah it was my choice and yeah i realised my dream but i paid a big price for it, losing the love of my life.. i try to convince myself that i made the wrong decision yet i still think i did not. I could not give up on my dream..... weiiingg !! Any way thank you for coming hereee, take your shirt and go nowww~~and if one day you see bts tell them Hindy said ~thank you and sorry, they are the best ..oh i don't think they will remember someone like me anyway.. goodbye joonniiee " she cry than smile she shout then whisper what a crazy girl and suddanly she just closed her eyes and speard her arms on the floor and then passed out.

Oh my god this girl, she is gonna make me lose my mind tonight more than the maknaes line, not only in the morning but now too,i have only one choice aiiish i will take her to the dorm for now, and for tomorrow i will bear the consequence after all i can't leave her here can i ?, fortuantly i share a room with jin at least i know he will understand.

Time skip

She was on my back sometimes saying some words in different language and some times i felt some droplet of water on my shoulder, i was really struggling to go in the dorm she didn't stop moving around.

i walked in and no one was in sight i thought i will make it without problem, Ouuuff , until suga come out from the kitchen drinking some water while looking at his phone, at first he didn't notice me until she talked ( wait until she come back i will kill her) i stopped praying he don't say anything or at least he was sleep walking {yeah sometimes i am stupid} but how can he not see her when i was right behind him.

"Yaa Naamjoon~~ah !! Oh oh who the hell is she?" he screamed, choking on his water

"Hyung, sssuuhhh , please don't wake the other i will explain everything later, just help me put her in my bed"

"No No No not before you tell me who the hell she is ?"

"The girl from yesterday, now can you move your ass and help me, i can't feel my back anymore"

"Euukk.. she is really drank, Fuckk .. and how did you end up with her ?and .. " i cut him down "Hyung just wait a little bit and i will explain everything" even though i was the leader but when yoongi is angry better do your best to avoid him.

i put her in my bed, jin was sleeping so i tried my best not to make a lot of noise and then yoongi made a sign for me to go out right now.

"Care to explain, RAPMON?"

"Hyung listen, " and i started explaining everything while he just nodded, when i finished talking i felt him relax a little bit even though we knew it's not allowed for us to bring girls to our dorm and not only that but she was a fan too but i bought problems to my home , let's hope she is not a saesang ... But something inside me ressured me saying that i did the best thing ever and i was happy even though now i have to sleep in the couch. I am okay with it and if i have to make a decision again i will just bring her again.

Hendy POV

A very bright sunshine was tickling my face and i was having such a big headache, i started opening my eyes and trying to accomodate them to the shinny sun when suddenly i felt something weird, {hell i was not in my room} i was sleeping in someone's bed's , oww my head really hurt and i can't remember anything, just me starting to drink and then black out,{ Hendy what the fuck? why did you drank this much, hell what happened to me ? } i looked at myself and i found i was still in my yesterday's clothes oh thank goddness but what have i done yesterday?!! I don't care for now anyway let's go out from here without making noise, i started getting up when i saw a man sleeping in the bed at the other corner of the room, i just sitted back and covered my face, seconds later, slowly i looked out again, making sure he was sleeping, i really didn't know who the hell he was, and i don't really care,for now i just want to go home and forget everything, {Good hendy good, not even a week and you aleardy fucked up, Great.}conscience you'd better shut up for now

I was slowly opening the door of the bedroom cheking if there is anyone out there but no one was in sight i started walking out when a voice startled me " Annyeong drunkard" I didn't want to look at him , i just started walking faster when an arm grabed my wrist and turned me to face him, i bumped in hard chest yet i was afraid to look up ,{ i hope he is not a pervert or a serial killer, i hope i didn't sell myself to no one yesterday , i really don't want to look at him awww } i was really achamed of myself, it's my first time drinking this much and i swear to god it will not happen again, i felt my hand trembling when two fingers grabbed my chin and lift my head up. and i was chocked at the one in front of my eyes "WHAT THE FUCK !!! BTS'S ..."