SEBIAN

These days my life only revolves around Alin. What she wants to do, what she wants to eat, her regular checkups, everything. Somehow she has convinced us all about not going through the surgery. That time it sounded ridiculous to hear that she would chose death over an uncertain memory loss or coma but when I started to think from her perspective I can tell how hard it is for her to just stay here without any memories about any of us. When she told that was the last wish that she wanted to be full filled, none of us could say no.

After that day all of us take care that she doesn’t get stressed at all and not get reminded about her condition but the condolences she gets every day from someone or the other makes it hard for her. I don’t understand how every news gets circulated so fast here.

Today is the same as other days. We are all having a happy breakfast now and then will get going to the college. My grandma is discharged and for the time being is with my dad. Alin was so happy when grandma finally got out of the hospital. We went there to meet her and despite her condition, Alin was very excited.

We reached at the college and because I have told everybody to not come to Alin with sympathetic words they made sure they give her a pitiful look instead. This was not helping at all but she has learnt to avoid all these now.

We were in our second class and everything was going on smoothly when Alin suddenly fell off her chair. I was by her side in an instant and carried her out to drive her to the hospital. On the way I called her parents. By the time I reached the hospital, I was in a stage of panic. She was taken to the emergency wars and I waited outside. After some time her parents reached there and we were all waiting when the doctor came out with a hard expression. “You might want to meet her now, she don’t have much time left.” My head started spinning. I had forgotten that the one month was almost over.

Her family went to meet her first. I couldn’t nervousness out of my body. I started tapping my feet and biting on my nails. I felt like I would go mad. When her family came out of the room their faces made me to almost cry but I controlled myself and went in to meet her. She looked so weak lying here, how didn’t I noticed all this time. She had a ventilator which she took out and sat up after seeing me. She opened her arms wide to embrace me I did just that.

She held me tightly. I can feel her heart beating fast against my chest. “I am so scared Sebian. I am so scared that I will not be able to see you again.” I know she was scared but I had no way of resolving that for her. She took my face in both her hands. “Let me see your face once.” She looked at me with tears in her eyes. “You take care of yourself oaky and don’t worry you’ll not be alone. I will always be there with you. I love you Sebian.” She said that and desperately hugged me and kept her head on my shoulder. Her fast beating heart started calming down while the monitor besides her showing up and down lines with a rhythmic beat showed a straight line with a continuous beep. Embracing her tight, I just knew that she was gone.