Day 15-

On the far far side I could only see dark trees, and their deathly stillness. I believe it is the last obstacle for me to cross. After that it would be the second layer of this personal dungeon.

[contribution point- 3]

Doing the same job increases the efficiency and naturally I could cope with my hunger and saving this points requires tremendous amount of willpower from my side, but there is no choice, even if I could guarantee 99% there is still 1% of accident happening,, and to cope with that I at least need a minor healing panacea.

The branches of the tree swaye side by side, their pattern becoming more and more complex, my hand moved own its own, I could swing my sword to block and attack at the same time, the branches are becoming weightless, their shape in form of string, if they are individuals they are easier to handle, but they are the most dangerous. Sometimes they intervene together to form sturdy shapes, I could only dodge those though, and my stamina leaks out. I couldn't find any more practical application other than to dodge,I wonder if there would be a better form of battle technique.

I still havent got my battle technique yet. Humanity have evolved themselves to be better than some races, and battle technique is wings to the foundation. Battle techniques are a higher form of martial arts. mortals use mortal martial techniques, since they cant hareness qi or mana, or other forms of energy, but those who could feel energy could practice battle technique.

I have mana and I would instinctively feel it, it could be one of the blessings I have got. Though it is highly important, it doesn't mean one who can't feel mana, can't practice other forms of art. There are many examples of mortals killing gods, and it is not necessarily a good thing to feel good about it and show it on the outside. But to feel good on the inside is naturally a good thing for my mind and also my heart ha-ha.

Royal Academy would give me the chance to acquire much higher tier battle techniques than a black market. It really is a good thing to have a backer in the initial stages of moving forward in the path of self development. A good mentor will already pave a path to his or her disciple. I have every resource at my disposal to be much above the crowd. It is up to me now that I utilize these resources to the best of my abilities and wisest decision.

There is always the feeling of laziness even if there are many resources at our disposal, we waste our time toiling away at something meaningless. Though every action does add meaning to life, but an individual who has the instinct that they know what their goal is, wasting their time is much more saddening than an individual who doesn't know what he wants in his or her life.

Right now I am using the resources, the question which comes into my mind is after utilizing this resource then what?, there is always a feeling that I couldn't see the end of my road. Skills are naturally developed so that one could use it to achieve what they want, but if the application of the skill is not known it is a very depressing matter. It feels like I have a diamond in hand and no one is buying it.

'you shouldn't think of end of the road from the very beginning'

'I know, it's just... there is no sure guarantee that the path I walk will lead to success'

'Why are you chasing after success?

'because it is my lifeline, if I don't hone my skills in the royal academy, I will sure dead, either by those assassins or newer enemies I am making along the way'

'How many do you think die each day due to accidents?'

'I don't know, but I get your point....you are trying to say to enjoy the present, but if present is not enjoyable, then what can I do, I don't find any satisfaction doing anything'

'Why is that so?'

'because there is no feeling of success'

'What is the meaning of success in your definition?

It's a stable, comfy home, and I don't have to worry about the future. I don't want hope, but absolutely that my future is bright, I don't have to worry about anything. I can focus on living the life as it si, not running around, but like an ocean I could feel the calmness and boundfullness not emptiness'

'....'

'you are simply whining, you do know that nothing would change just because you whine'

'i know, but I am not whining to somebody else am I, I am whining to myself'

'Why not try to encourage yourself?'

'cause motivation never last'

' focus on your objective and it is the only choice you have'

'I understand'

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Day 18-

2nd layer of the personal dungeon

[contribution point-20]

The branches of the trees were numerous. I couldn't see the end of it, but since the pattern became repetitive, my speed of crossing the obstacles became easier, it is the same as no matter if 1+1 comes, the answer will always be the same.

The first layer of the dungeon taught me cross, horizontal and vertical slash. I could do the same even with my eyes closed. Dodging and attacking after dodging needs more polishing, I am looking forward to my second training session. And most importantly Block needs to be much polished, there were many instances where my back was more injured rather than my front. It is right in some way that I could protect my vitals, but if the branches were smeared with poison I wonder if I could even come across this step.

I wonder if I have to focus on any other areas, , well let me see the new items I could get with my contribution points or should I try the second trial area?

There is nothing bad to check what items are there in the list

[ 1 lit water- 1 contribution point

3 pieces of protein bread-2 contribution point

minor healing panacea-5 contribution point

major healing panacea-10 contribution point

all healing panacea-20 contribution point

minor elixir-30 contribution point

...............

temporary all buffing potion-100 contribution point

]

it seems since the buff potion is in the last of the list I can predict about 5% certainty that I could need this potion. Well let's focus on the current situation for now.