I was sleeping on my bed peacefully having beautiful dream's when all of a sudden someone grabbed my wrist and threw me across the bed. 

I fell on the floor with a loud thud .

My back!!!

I was groaning in pain when I heard his thundering voice .

" WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE?" I froze in fear .

Please don't be the him

Please don't be the him

Please don't be the him

I was praying silently still on the floor hoping it's a bad dream but his voice boomed again .

" I AM ASKING YOU SOMETHING YOU IDIOT " He yells making me flinch .

With lots of praying to my lord that I will be a good girl and never talk back to anyone , respect everyone no matter how disrespectful they are, just save me from this man .

I gulp as my eyes met a very furious one , if looks could kill I would be d-

My eyes went off track travelling through his chest .

I forgot to breathe when I saw that he was - Oh no!!! 

He is not wearing any shirt !

Again!

I don't know why I became so shameless but my eyes traveled a little lower .

MOVE YOUR EYES 

MOVE YOUR EYES 

MOVE YOUR EYES

I felt my breath get hitched and all blood came in my cheeks .

" EYES UP HERE " he ordered me in a stern voice and I immediately came back to sense .

 This man glaring hole in my head . If not from gunshot then he will definitely make a hole on my head with his continuously glaring.

I clear my throat crossing my arm confidently " what are you doing here in MY ROOM okay guest room but it's mine for today " I intentionally press at the word mine .

" And don't you have any shame " I pointed my finger at him but immediately retreated back when he took a step toward me I could see him clenching and unclenching his fist .

" You came in a girl room half NAKED " I covered my eyes dramatically .

" Did you ever hear of Mannerism in school ??" I raised my eyebrows sarcastically .

" Does this room look like a guest room to you ?" He seethed out taking threatening steps toward me .

I unconsciously step back .

I look at the room and chuckle " Actually you know what when I came here first -" I laugh " I thought it's a king room but then I thought you guys are rich so yeah...." I shrugged my shoulders speaking to him like he is my best buddy and I have known him for years .

He turns around rubbing his temples like trying to control his anger .

He turned to me pointing his index finger and my eyes zeroed at his finger " if it weren't for deal I swear you would have been dead by now " he gritted out making me gulp .

" But what I have done " I pout water filled my eyes " you came into my room "

" THIS IS MY ROOM NOT YOURS YOUR -". He covered his mouth with fist . His face is almost red .

" Look I am tired and I don't deal with this type of nonsense so before I lose my shit GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE " he shouted at the last sentence which almost made me cry .

" You are so rude " I turned angrily, slamming the door shut behind me .

I cover my mouth sobbing. He is so rude I hate him .

What if I came here by mistake , he could have asked me politely but No .

I started walking I don't know where this stupid house is huge .

" What if this wedding is a deal " I wipe my tears harshly .

" I am still his wife " I cried .

" First he blackmails me to marry him then shows off his girlfriend in front of my face " I stomp my feet angrily .

" I don't want him as my husband in paradise if I enter by the mercy of Allah s.w.t Ameen" I cried tears flowing from my cheeks .

I slipped through the wall sitting on the floor leaning on the wall as the hall was never ending .

I was tired and hungry but I was feeling sleepy .

I hiccup " I will get through " I cried .

" I am sure , Ammi would be happy by now" 

" Those two women would be so happy that I am gone " I hiccup more my tears are uncontrollable .

I covered my face feeling pathetic " why I have no one to love me " 

" Am I so bad ?" I asked Allah s.w.t softly . 

If it were some other time I wouldn't say such a thing but his rude behaviour hurt my heart so badly .

" Don't I deserve love ?? Am I a bad person , can't he at least respect me " my chest heaved up and down as I laid on the cold floor crying silently .

I don't know when my eyes started feeling heavy as I drifted back to sleep .

I got up breathing heavily...

Again the same nightmare...

I wipe the sweat from my forehead. I can literally hear my heartbeat .

I clench my fist in anger .

How can even after all these years I am still a pathetic loser .

Why can't I just forget everything.

I extended my hand to drink water from the bedside stand but instead the jug was empty .

Great!

Feeling irritated and angry that Marta didn't put water in my room at night .

" First thing in the morning I am going to do is fire her " I gritted out walking down the hallway .

The house lights were almost off except for dim lights .

I was walking toward the stairs when I saw that girl , my so-called wife, lying on the cold floor curling like a ball .

I look here and there " what the hell is she doing here " I mutter in annoyance .

Without giving her a single glance I walked ahead leading downstairs . I filled my jug with water but something flashed in front of me .

The way I talk to her ...

Shaking the thought of that idiot girl I came back to my room not before noticing that she was shivering on that cold floor .

I put the jug " why would I care " 

I laid on my bed frowning " it's her problem " 

" There is plenty of room yet she wants to sleep on the floor " I covered my half body with a blanket feeling restless .

" Her choice " with that I tried to drift back to sleep but her small body shivering on the cold floor flashed in front of my eyes .

I shot my eyes open ...

" DAMN IT " I sat up frustrated .

Removing the blankets from my body furiously . 

I went toward her only to see her blabbing something in her sleep .

Slowly I kneel down in front of her . 

Tears streamed on her cheeks while she mumbled something softly .

I tried to hear it leaning closer to her .

" (a - b)2 = a2 - 2ab + Mr. Rude " she muttered , I looked at her weirdly .

Is she seriously mumbling algebra formulas ??

Mr. Rude??

I shook my head , slowly I took her in my arms standing up .

She is so small compared to me yet fits in my arm perfectly .

She didn't open her eyes, instead snuggling in my chest .

I couldn't help but stare at her innocent face .

I started taking her back to my room since I don't want anyone to see us like this and I don't want anyone to think that I was concerned for her which I am not at all .

I laid her on my bed covering her with my blanket .

I felt so tired , I took my pillow and went to the couch to sleep .

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