I couldn't believe myself how much I cried in the past few months and even in front of a boy. To be honest, I never thought I would end up with Jungkook - or with anyone. I actually prepared myself to continue living my miserable life.

It was already dark outside and Jungkook and I watched the clear sky on the balcony of my hotel room. My roommate slept over her friends' rooms so I was practically always alone. We were trying to do as much as we could together until the trip ended. We both didn't know what'll happen if we go back to seoul, everything could be back to normal.

"Hey." Jungkook suddenly spoke.

"Hm." I replied.

"Isn't it funny how we once hated each other, are now a couple? We love each other now." He laughed a little.

"How can you talk about love if we just started dating?" I scoffed raising a brow.

"I don't know. I just feel like this." He embraced me from behind. I was surprised by his sudden move but I didn't shove him away. It was comfortable.

"Let's keep it a secret at first." Jungkook suddenly said, which turned more into a whisper. I didn't answer immediately but nodded slightly afterwards. Although I could comprehend it, because it would mean more trouble and suffering, but it still was kind of disappointing.

The trip was already ending and I couldn't believe how fast time flew by. Spending the last few days with Jungkook was enjoyable. It was difficult indeed however, I was happy to see his face even if it was only for a short time. Trying our best to hide our relationship, it was obvious that there were some speculations here and there. But at that moment, I didn't care.

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Luckily it was weekend before school started again. I didn't feel like doing anything and threw my lazy body onto the bed, sighing. I was scared the moment reality hit me and confusion was the only thing I had at that time. Whether I would be able to meet Jungkook or not, I didn't know. My thoughts faded away as soon as dad knocked the door.

"Yes?"

"I made some chicken wings for you." My eyes shone as I saw the plate dad was holding, still crispy and hot. A good method to distract me.

"By the way, Mr. Kim wants to come over soon. But not today."

"Your best friend?" I asked while enjoying my chicken wings. I was pretty sure chicken wings were made in heaven. This was just so delicious.

"Yes. With his son." I stopped eating and lost my appetite.

"I don't want to." I sighed. This wasn't going to be better.

"I'm not saying that you have to immediately date him. Just give him a chance." If he knew how my current situation was. Dad personally hated it when I was dating someone I haven't introduced to him yet. No, I didn't belong to the ones who never had a boyfriend. I had a boyfriend when I was in elementary school, does it count?

''I'm tired.'' I said.

''Just do me this favor. At least talk to him.'' He spoke before closing the door again. I looked out of the window and closed my eyes for a moment.

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Weekend was over way too fast and I didn't really expect anything at school. It was a day like every other school days, some threw paper on my face telling me to disappear or die. Well, nothing new to me. Though, I didn't get to see Jungkook in the first period and the rest of the day as well. This continued for a few days too and I started to wonder whether it was because of me.

It was lunch time and I packed my books to head off to the cafeteria. On my way to the cafeteria I saw Taehyung on the other side who smiled at me and another group of boys laughing and talking. It took me few seconds to notice that Jungkook was there too and I suddenly smiled. I was happy to see him though, I wasn't sure whether I should approach him or not. Since he told me to keep it a secret I decided to continue walking to the cafeteria but something stopped me.

"Our Jungkook. Didn't know you were able to seduce that YeonSeul."

"She really despised you at the beginning. What a twist. You truly get every chic you want." Jimin said. "But you did act weird at first."

"I guess it really was a challenge for him to win over that girl's heart." The other friend commented.

"Hey, say something. You won the bet so you're supposed to be happy. Good thing too is that you don't have to hang out with her anymore." Jimin spoke but Jungkook's expression was stiff and rather annoyed than happy. He soon noticed me and few tears were already making it's way to my cheeks.

"YeonSeul!" He shouted and was about to run after me, but Taehyung saw everything and was a step faster than Jungkook.

No. This couldn't be.

I went to the rooftop, trying to surpress my urge to cry. My heart felt heavy and breathing got harder from time to time. Everything was fake. He was playing with me the whole time. I knew there was something suspicious however, I didn't want to believe it. Everything seemed so surreal.

I heard someone coming closer and sat next to me although I didn't really pay attention.

"I'm sorry." Taehyung suddenly spoke. "I should've told you that." My eyes were still focused on that same spot.

"Don't say that." I said. I actually didn't want to hear him saying that. "It's not even your fault. I was just too gullible. Ha, how could I fall for this." I tried to hold back my tears. It wasn't that I didn't reckon this, I wasn't even surprised about this but my heart was in an unbearable pain. Something I couldn't control by myself.

"I don't even manage to find friends. In fact I'm always alone. I don't have anyone." It was silent again. At once Taehyun stood up and hugged me.

"You have endured it enough. It's fine to cry, just let it all out." By that I started to tear up and was sobbing silently while he patted my back to console me. I suddenly saw Jungkook watching us, not saying anything but in this moment I ignored the surroundings.

It was the same situation. That embrace, the tears. This was almost identical except it was Taehyung.

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Another few days passed and I didn't see Jungkook at school. Since then I was getting closer with Taehyung. My heart was at ease when I was around him.

''YeonSeul.'' Taehyung said.

''Hm?'' I replied still focused on eating my food. There was a huge silence until Taehyung finally spoke again.

''You have time today after school?''

''Sure.'' I smiled at him.

As I went to my locker to get some books I needed I suddenly saw Jungkook and my eyes grew big. As soon as he noticed my presence I averted his gaze. My heart wasn't healed yet and I never wanted to see him again. I wanted to forget everything that happened between us. He was only bad for my life.

After finishing today's lessons we went to a coffee shop.

''Hey, what's wrong?'' Taehyun asked.

''Nothing. Everything's fine.'' I answered which actually didn't really sound convincing.

''You sure?'' He raised a brow and I nodded giving him a little smile. Although he still didn't believe me, he just let this pass. To be honest, if I didn't see Jungkook, I wouldn't be this way. The sky was getting darker and darker by every hour and the orange leaves were falling preparing for the winter. On the way to my house Taehyung suddenly stopped walking.

''Yeon Seul.'' My pace slowed down and I turned around to face him. His face turned serious, no signs of the usual nice and happy Taehyung.

''How's it being around me?'' His voice changed. I was surprised by his sudden question but I didn't hesitate to answer it immediately.

''I like it since you're nice, funny, sometimes kind of stupid and my only friend. You're one of the important ones in my life. Besides my family I only have you-''

''I like you.'' Taehyung interrupted and I froze, surprised by this sudden confession. ''You're special, not like the ordinary girls.'' I didn't answer.

''Do you know how much it pains me to see you getting hurt by that bastard? I only want to see the happy side of Yeon Seul.''

My heart started to beat faster than usual. I was nervous and I didn't know how to react. I wasn't sure how I felt for Taehyung. We kept silent for that moment and I didn't say anything to his confession. I honestly didn't answer because my answer wasn't a no. I wasn't sure about my feelings. I didn't also want to lose Taehyung as a friend. I was afraid of that, because he was my only friend.

''Thanks for bringing me home.'' I answered, feeling a little uncomfortable.

''Sure.'' He smiled at me, but his eyes seemed sad in a way. I was about to tell him that he might have a chance but I didn't want to give him false hopes so I kept silent and entered my house.

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Yesssss, I updated!! I'm sorry for updating soo slow *Kneels down*. But I hope you enjoyed this chapter ! :) Excuse for any errors I'm too lazy to reread looool