The next morning, I woke up feeling nauseous. Probably because I overworked myself, both physically and emotionally. I went to the bathroom to throw up, but the door was locked. That's when I noticed Siddharth was not on the bed.

"Siddharth....Siddharth.... Are you in there?" I asked him and I got no response. The urge to throw up kept increasing. I knocked on the door more loudly and this time I heard his voice.

"What is it?" his voice was muffled, probably because he was in shower.

"Siddharth, come out faster!!! I want to throw up," I said and kept banging on the door. I felt something uncomfortable on my throat and I knew I couldn't hold onto it any more longer. I banged on the door one last time, using all my strength. Suddenly, the door opened and I fell onto something harder, but not the ground.

I fell on Siddharth below me and I...I puked on him. Oh my god!!! What the hell have I done. I got up from him when I finished puking. He wasn't wearing a shirt with a towel covering his lower body. He is half naked. And his torso is covered by my vomit. I myself felt disgusted with it.

"I am sorry....I am so sorry. I didn't meant to do it. I am sorry," I said quickly. The first time I saw him shirtless and I couldn't even enjoy the view. Wait... What did I say? Eww how can I say that?

"Urmm, it's okay. Are you okay? Why did you vomit all of a sudden?" he asked me, concerned written over his face. It was not okay. Oh my god. This is so embarrassing.

"It's just morning sickness. I am really sorry about this," I apologized again.

"It's okay... Really!!! It's just that I have to take bath...again," he merely whispered the last word, but I heard it. I felt embarrassed. He went inside the bathroom again and I went and sat on the bed. Why god? Why? I waited for him to finish bathing so that I could finally talk to him about what happened yesterday.

After nearly 15 minutes, he came out of the bathroom. He was now fully dressed. What a disappointment? He was wearing a light blue shirt with black pants with a brown belt. His sleeves were rolled up and his moving biceps was evident with every action he made. He looked extremely sexy.

I suddenly had the urge to tear his shirt off. I want to do more things to him. He has not even touched me like that, but here I was thinking about being sexually involved with him. What would it be like to have s** with him. I mentally smacked myself for thinking that.

"I am sorry Siddharth," I said slowly, suddenly feeling my voice got lost somewhere. "Ananya, I told you, it's okay. It's not your fault. I heard its normal during pregnancy," he smiled to reassure me.

"Not only for that... Also for last night, I think I spoke too many things. I am sorry if it hurted you," I trailed off.

"Ohh that... I am sorry also. I shouldn't have talked like that to you. I know that it hurts you..." he looked down.

"Siddharth, I know I went overboard with the shouting and honestly at that time, it was only about me. I didn't think how you must've felt telling me that. But, after that I talked to Sandhya and she put some sense into me," I said and he cut me off.

"S-Sandhya? Wh-what did she told you?" he tensed.

"Urmm, she told me that you didn't r-realize you was hurting me and all," I said the half-truth. I want him to tell me that he loves me. I don't want to tell him that I know it from another person. He visibly relaxed, so I continued.

"So, as I was saying, I am sorry for my little outburst. But, the things I said, you have to think about it. This is not only about me. I understand that you just want me to be happy. Then what about you? I appreciate you looking out for me, but don't do that again. I want you to be completely honest with me, so that we can work on this relationship. Because, I don't have any plan in aborting this baby and I honestly want to try it with you," I finished my rambling.

"You don't have to apologize Ananya. It is really my fault and whatever you said was true. I understand that I made a lot of mistake. But, please give me a chance to make it up with you. I promise I will work on this relationship better than before," he said and I smiled.

"Also, I want to tell you something," he said. I nodded and waited for him to continue.

"Urmm, I want to... I t-think I want no I am..." he was clearly nervous and I think I know what he wants to tell. I was suddenly filled with excitement and was eagerly waiting for him to finish those words. I am dying to hear those words from him.

"What is...." Before he could finish the sentence, Sandhya's screaming echoed through the whole house. Siddharth and I rushed out of our room to check on her.

"What happened Sandhya?" I rushed to her side. She hugged me tight and pointed towards the kitchen. "THERE IS A COCKROACH. A BLOODY COCKROACH. AHHHHHH!!!! SIDDHARTH KILL ITTTTT" she shouted like her whole life depended on it.

"FOR GOD SAKE!!!! Stop shouting!!!!" I shouted and she flinched. Siddharth went and found a small cockroach.

"OMG it's not even that big," I said and she hugged me tightly. I can see that she was truly terrified with it. "Okay fine. Relax!!! It's gone now," I said and patted her back. Siddharth got her water and she chugged the whole glass down.

"She is the MOST afraid of cockroaches. We have pranked her many times with it," Siddharth said and I chuckled. "Okay I am going to get ready for work," Siddharth sighed and went inside our room. I saw that he no more in the mood to tell what he wanted to tell.

I sighed and placed myself beside Sandhya in the couch.

"What a timing Sandhya? Can't you have shouted after a few minutes? He was this close to telling me," I asked and she looked at me confused.

"What can be more important than me dying because of cockroach?" she asked and I chuckled.

"That's just a cockroach, you won't die because of it," I argued back. "Are you not afraid of it? Most of the girls hate it!!!!" she said.

"Well then I am in the least, I guess. I am used to it," I said and she shot me what-do-you-mean look.

"Even though my father is rich, my mother have never got any special treatment. My mother got married to my father because her father forced her. Then, my father just used her for his...pleasures, you know? My father had his mistress even when he was married to my mother. When my mother found out, she moved out of his place. That time she was pregnant with me. That time she had no money and her father didn't accept her back," I stopped in the middle and Sandhya patted my back.

"We lived in a house where this is all normal. Cockroaches, rats and all. So, I am used to it," I smiled bitterly. "Then, when did you got back with your father?" she asked.

"When my mother died. She died because of cancer. After that, my father accepted me back, scared of what the society will talk about him for abandoning his own daughter. But, life was difficult for me without my mother. My stepmother and my stepsister never treated me good. My father just ignored my existence. My brothers were the only comfort for me in my life," I said and tears formed in my eyes. That's when I realized how much I miss my brothers.

"They took care of me better than my own father. They love me more than their own sister. They always look out for me, trust me, protect me. But, all I gave them back in pain. No one would believe they are my half-brothers. I have never considered them my half-brothers. They never gave me the chance to make me feel left out," I couldn't hold it anymore and let the tears fall freely.

"They will understand one day Ananya. That this all happens and this is not your fault!!!" she hugged tightly. "And yeah, what was that Sid wanted to tell you?" she asked me and I froze. She asked me the question to distract me from my brothers but this is much worse. I can't tell her how desperate I am to hear him telling me he loves me.

"Nothing really. I got to get ready for work. See you later," I said and she nodded clearly not buying the lie. But, at least she didn't push me further.

I quickly went into my room and bumped into Siddharth who was coming out. His hair was now combed neatly and he looked smart, the look I normally like on boys. Oh shit, I am talking like a teenager instead of a young adult. I think I am crushing on my potential husband, as weird as it may sound.

"I'll wait for you outside. Let me drop you at your office," his voice bought me out of my thought. I nodded, not trusting my voice. I am feeling weird and have this fuzzy feeling in my stomach. I guess I am feeling h-horny. But, why? Must be something wrong with the hormones. I sighed and quickly took a shower, a cold one at that.

I wore a loose top with a blue jeans. I had a very slight bump. If people saw me, they will probably think it is a food bump. But, in any case, I don't want to take a risk. So, I started wearing loose dresses and I am running out of loose fitting clothes. I had a great body and I like wearing tight fitting dress. I mean, I have a great body so why not show off? So, now it is really difficult to find some loose clothing in my closet. I sighed and went with the blue top which had embroidery on it, which on normal days I probably wouldn't even give a second glance.

Fate.

"Ready?" he asked me as soon as I came out of the room and I nodded. "Let's go then," he said and I nodded again. I think I became a mute temporarily.

***********

"Ananya!!! Where are you lost?" Harish asked me loudly that the whole office turned to our direction to see what is going on!!!

"What???" I asked him back. I was not paying attention to him, because I was thinking about Siddharth. I have really started to think about him more.

"For god sake, you weren't listening to anything I was telling?" he asked me, slightly irritated. I shook my head negatively and looked down.

"I am sorry yarr, I was just thinking something else. Can you please repeat that for me?" I asked with puppy eyes. I know this will work on him.

"We are planning to go hiking this weekend. You remember the place we went during our high school? That will be so much fun," he said and I smiled at how excited he looked. Kavya nodded, agreeing to what he told.

"That sounds like a plan. Enjoy guys!!!" I said.

"Hello, We means it includes you also," he said. "Are you serious? I am pregnant!!! I cannot come with you guys. You guys enjoy. You have take care of me if I come. I am not coming," I said, trying to be reasonable.

"Ananya, come on. Then we don't have to go hiking. We will go somewhere else," Kavya said. "This is why I don't want to come. I don't want you guys to change plan for me," I said.

"Ananya, how can you have the heart to refuse us? Are we not your good friends? Did you forget how much fun we had during our high school? We used to have fun so much and nowadays you don't have time for us already. How can you..." Harish started his blackmailing section.

"Arey yarr. Stop!!! I am coming okay? Just don't start again," I said irritated. He hugged me tightly followed by Kavya.

"Okay then. I am gonna call Siddharth, Sandhya and Abhi to join us!!!" he said and before I could react, he retreated to his table.