We split up, Aran and the Karasuno manger Yachi went inside, but I know she's probably somewhere outside. But I sent them inside since I knew she wouldn't listen to them if they spoke to her.

Honestly I don't even know if she'll speak to me.

But I'll have to at least try, I won't let her suffer alone this time.

I checked the front and sides of the school, I didn't see her anywhere. I also checked the extra gyms not connected to the main school, she wasn't there either.

Maybe she's behind the school.

So I quickly walked around the school, the back was pretty open since this is where we did the penalty runs. But if you keep walked their is a small gated area. It has lots of trees and flowers, it seems like a very calm place.

She might be in there.

I opened the gate and looked around a bit, the area was very beautiful, the flowers were in bloom and the cherry blossoms littered the ground making everything a nice pink color. As I was walking around and enjoying the view I didn't see (Y/N) anywhere.

But she has to be here, I don't think she'd go inside since if she did someone would end up seeing her, then everyone would questions what's wrong with

her.

And knowing (Y/N) she would never want that.

Anyways I looked around some more I saw a nice little pond with a small waterfall. The pond was filled with koi fish swimming around. Then there were many other things around the pond.

There were some frogs, a bench, a birdbath, (Y/N), a bush, a bird feeder, some more flow- wait (Y/N)!?

I looked back and there she was, (Y/N) was sitting under a tree. She was starting into the sky, she looked like she was lost and thought. So I slowly walked up to her, I knew I couldn't call her because her hearing aids.

So instead I put myself in her line of vision, and the first thing she did when she saw me was look away.

How dare she....

Anyways she started starting at the ground and I just frowned, why do I have such a stubborn friend?

I squared down so we were at the same eye level.

'Listen to me.'

I mouthed and she slowly brought her hands to her ears. "What do you want?" she said coldly while she slightly glared at me. "I'm here to make sure you're all right." I told her and she just scoffed.

"Of course I'm fine." she sighed, "(N/N) you can't just push your feelings aside, I know your hurt.". "And why would I be hurt, there's no reason to be hurt by a bunch of asshat.". "Don't talk like that, I know your mad but their still your team.".

"No they're not, that so called team is just a bunch of goody two shoe bitches that'll do whatever a god damn teacher tells them to do just because their a bunch of suck ups!" she yelled.

"Their a bunch of shitheads that think it's alright to mess with someone's feelings and get them to open up and in the end crush her like a fucking leaf!". "UGH their just a bunch of assholes who I wish I never fucking met!". "I HATE THEM I HATE THEM I HATE THEM!"

Once she was done yelling she threw her head in her hands. "I never should have fucking became their friend.".

"Well what are you gonna do?" I asked her and she finally looked me in the eye. Those beautiful eyes I would always see before, were now dead.

"I don't even know Shin, I'm stuck here until the end of camp, and it'll be hard to avoid them since i'm supposed to be their god damn strategists.".

"Come with my team.".

"Oh oka-, wait what did you just say?".

"Come help out my team, there's only a few games left then tomorrow coach told me we're having a barbecue, then everyone is leaving.".

"Well then how am I supposed to get home? I have to ride the bus filled with all those shitty bastards.".

"Ask another team from Miyagi, all the other teams seem to like you, I don't think they'd mind if you rode with them." I stated. "I guess, but I still don't want to go yet, I just want to be alone." she replied.

"Well sorry but I'm not leaving you anytime soon.".

"What about going to eat with your team, then your practice?".

"I guess I'll just miss out until you decide to come with me.".

This bitch really isn't gonna leave me.

It's been maybe ten minutes since Shin told me he wouldn't leave, and he really hasn't. And we're gonna have dinner in like five more minutes. "Shin just go I'll be there soon." I told him but he shook his head no.

"I can't leave you alone.".

"And why not?".

He stayed silent, he was just looking me in the eye, like I was already supposed to know what he's thinking. And sadly, I think I do know what he's talking about.

"I wouldn't try to do that again." I told him sternly. "I don't know that, so I can't leave you." he replied. "Listen Shin I already told you I'll be fine, I wouldn't try that just because some bitches made me feel bad.".

"I wouldn't give them the satisfaction of knowing I killed myself because of their petty words.".

"So you're really okay?" he asked once again.

"Yes, I don't care about them, you can't break something that's already broken.".

At my last words he seemed hurt, he looked guilty, but there's no reason for that. I have been broken for a long time. I've always known this buts before I just pushed it aside. And instead of telling myself how broken I was I just told myself how much I deserved to die. And honestly I still do, but the only thing keeping me alive before was pure hatred for myself. I let myself live so I could suffer alone.

But now I hate the team, almost as much as I hate myself. Even thought I hate them, I won't die, cause like I said before I won't give them the satisfaction of knowing I cared for them so much that the second they turned on me I killed myself.

I'll live out of spite.

I took a risk opening up to them, and it was one shitty risk. So never again, the only people I have is Shin. He's the only one who I know won't betray me like the team did.

And maybe the new people I made friends with won't hurt me, but I'll still stay cautious.

I can't be too open like I was before, I was too naive when I poured my heart out like that. But I know better now, and I won't let myself be so vulnerable ever again.