Oh yes! I am THAT awesome! Come on! Say you love me! ;P

Sooooo! That’s for those of you out there, going “Bleaaaaauuuaaaaaaa, she’s uploading a bunch of other stories, she’ll neglect “I Sold..” I want more Blaaaaaake” *grips the buttom of my pants*

So! To you all. No.

Just no.

Seeee? When I write it makes me write more. Yes I know that doesn’t make sense, but go ahead and argue with my messed up brain, you’ll see there’s no point in arguing. So you should be thankful for those new stories since it’s because of them that I wrote this chapter so fast. Bazinga!

Sorry about that…

Anyway! This is short, very short I know, but it needed to be short. Trust me on this! lol

Love you guys! :D

Oh! And for those who haven’t and feel like reading more of my crazy ideas, do go check out my new stories. Who knows, maybe you’ll enjoy them too! ;P

For now, enjoy this! :D

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I didn’t over sleep in the morning. I would have loved to, but somehow, at six o’clock in the morning I was wide awake and couldn’t fall asleep, even if I rubbed my face in Blake’s hoodie, there was just no falling back to sleep possible.

I tossed and turned in my bed but there was really no point. I wasn’t falling asleep again.

I got out of bed, picked up a book, tried to read, but I couldn’t get past one sentence and I just kept re-reading it over and over again. It wouldn’t register with my brain.

I was just way too hyper, on the verge of jumping up and down, or running around my room with joy.

All I really wanted to do was to get dress, eat, well not really eat because I was seriously not hungry, get in my car and drive to Blake’s place.

That’s when it occurred to me that I didn’t really need to wait any longer. Blake had said “come see me in the morning” and as far as I knew six o’clock was the morning. And how many times had the boy just barged in my room, in the middle of the night, pretty much unannounced?

It was my turn to come at crazy hours. I wanted to see him right now. I wanted to know what he wanted to tell me. And I wanted to lick his god damn chest!

So the decision was made before I could even over think it and I put on some clothes and ran downstairs.

When I did, I was surprise to see dad sitting at the counter, the newspaper opened in front of him, eating cereals and drinking coffee.

“What are you doing up so early on a Saturday morning?” I asked him and walked to the fridge to grab something to eat. I didn’t feel like cooking anything so there wasn’t anything interesting in there aside from an apple that I picked. That ought to do it.

“The question should be more what are you doing up so early?” dad laughed.

Ya, okay whatever, I had kind of brought this on myself, hadn’t I?

“Ah you know, scientific experiment, I’m trying to see if I can function as a morning person.”

“I’m sad that you aren’t just accepting the facts kid” he laughed, his eyes fixed on his newspaper, his mug of coffee half way to his lips.

Well if he was the one saying it…

“Do you mind?” I asked sheepishly.

My father turned his head, looking at me with a warm smile. “Are you happy?”

The question was easy, obviously. “Yes,” I smiled too.

“Then no, I don’t mind, not in the least. Just don’t do anything stupid,” he told me and then looked back down on the news before adding “And by anything stupid I mean come home pregnant”

I rolled my eyes. “Thanks, because I totally needed to have that reminder!”

He smiled. “Always glad to be helpful”

I laughed and rolled my eyes again. “Bye dad”

“Have fun kid,” he called back his voice just a tiny bit mocking.

The weather was chilly when I stepped outside and I hurried to my car to start the heat and not freeze. The warm was leaving way too soon. I still wanted it to be summer time.

The drive to Blake’s house wasn’t too long. The streets were completely empty, seeing it was so early and the weekend.

All I could really think about was Blake. I was still hyper in my seat. As silly as it sounded I had missed him since last night. After spending four days almost always with him, not seeing him for an entire night had been long. Of course I knew it was over dramatic and I was sure I would snap out of it at one point, but for the moment being, I just wanted to see Blake and wrap my arms around him and feel his soft lips against mine.

When I finally arrived at his place, I parked in front of the house, smiling like a little kid on Christmas Eve.

Instead of walking to the front door though, and wake everyone up by knocking or ringing the bell, I walked around the house towards the indoor pool like I had the last time I had snuck in here.

The glass sliding doors were unlocked yet again. They should definitely do something about that… I mean it wasn’t the brightest idea to have unlock doors in a huge house like this…

On a personal Lexi level it rocked but it wasn’t the best way to keep robbers far away and why the hell was I thinking about robbers right now? Seriously?

I was just way too giddy, and excited!

I quickly made my way inside, this time knowing where I was going.

When I got in front of the door that lead to the stairs to his room though I froze.

And the question I had been asking myself the last time I had barged in unannounced pooped in my mind again. What if he was naked in there or what if I walked in on him doing something inappropriate or something…

To be sure, this time, I softly knocked on his door but got no answer.

Should I just walk in, or knock harder. Maybe he was still asleep… okay he always said he never really slept but maybe today was an exception, plus he looked tired the last time I had seen him…

And because I was a stalker and maybe I was developing some mental imbalance, seriously there was something obviously wrong with me these days, I pushed the door open and walked up the stairs to his room.

When I got there, Blake was in his bed, his face turned my way, eyes closed, holding on his pillow, the sheets only covering the lower half of his body his naked back inviting.

Licking his back was just as good as licking his chest right? Because that back was hot hot HOT!

I suddenly didn’t mind so much that I hadn’t come last night. Because walking on him like this was definitely really really nice.

I walked slowly towards him, trying to not make any sound and wake him up and, crouching beside his bed, I brushed my hand through his hair, my eyes leveled with his.

Very slowly he opened them, and when he his gaze locked with mine, a small smile pulled at the corner of his lips and his hand stretched towards my face, curling around the edge of my jaw and my neck, bringing my lips to his.

“Blake, how many times do I have to te…”

My body completely froze at the sound of the voice that uttered those words.

Oh my god…

A girl voice.

Dear dear freaking god…

A girl that was walking out of Blake’s bathroom, only wearing a bathrobe, her blond hair still wet from the shower she had probably just taken.

My mouth opened and closed, my brain unable to form words to say them out loud, my eyes quickly filling with tears.

All I could do was get back up on my feet and turn around.

Without one word. I just go up and ran to the door.

Frack frack frack frack frack frack FRACK!

I should have known! I should have fracking known! The little voice in my head had been telling me from the freaking start to not get attached to Blake! That something exactly like this would happen!

Crap! Crap crap crap!

Behind me, Blake had gotten out of his bed and was running after me. “Wait! NO no! Lexi wait! Let me explain. It’s not what you think!”

I was in the hall leading to the Titanic stairs when I abruptly turned around to glare at him, tears threatening to spill out of my eyes. But I wouldn’t cry.

I should have known. I should have freaking known!

“The always say that! You know in movies in books, it’s always that line! “It’s not what you think.” Go ahead Blake! Go right freaking ahead and give me that made up explanation that will solve everything! Go ahead, lie to me you asshole!”

Blake looked at me with what would have been usually a heart breaking expression, his eyes almost tearing up, but truth be told I didn’t give a crap about him right now, he could cry all he freaking wanted he could burn in Hell for all I cared. He had a girl in his freaking room! The very same room he had said he didn’t let any girls get in.

Had he lied about that?

Had he lied about everything?

He had lied about everything, hadn’t he?

I couldn’t help it, one tear spilled out at the corner of my eye trailing down my cheek.

And then the girl, the freaking whore stood behind Blake, looking my way like I was trash or something. “What’s this all about?”

I hated her, I didn’t even know her and I hated her. I hated her for being so pretty, because she was, she was undeniably beautiful with her blond hair, delicate feature, and British accent, and Blake must have seen that and that’s was why she was here right now.

“Really not the time” Blake groaned, not looking back at her.

“Bloody hell,” she rolled her eyes, waving her hands over her head “Don’t you pick booty calls a little less stalkerish and possessive?”

I couldn’t even reply to her, the blow was just too hard. I turned around and tried to sprint away again but Blake ran after me and grabbed me by the arm, turning me, trying to make me look in his eyes

“Lexi, wait please, don’t listen to her. And it’s not what you think. It’s Kendal. Jayden’s girlfriend. Please just listen to me” he pleaded, his eyes boring into mine.

For one second, my heart stopped beating…

Could…

But the tramp talked again! “Well isn’t that bloody fantastic. You’re Lexi. Well I don’t feel bad about making you feel like crap one bit then.”

I wanted to choke her. Seriously!?

“What the hell is wrong with you? I don’t even know you.” I hissed at her.

Okay I knew the girl had lost the love of her life and all but why the hell was she being a bitch to me?

“Well I know you” she sneered, “You don’t deserve him, you don’t deserve to have him care about you the way he does! Even when Blake and I were dating he,”

Oh. My. God.

My eyes bulged as I tried to break free from Blake’s strong grip on my arm. “WHAT?”

Blake tried to explain himself yet again though. “No, look that was a long time ago,”

“She’s you’re first and only girlfriend?” I yelled, trying to stop the choking sound of cries that built up in my throat.

“Yes but that’s not the,”

I cut him. “You dated her? How could you have not told me this before? You dated your dead brother’s girlfriend? How could you do something like that?”

That was disgusting! How could he do something like that? How could he do that to his brother, dead or not?

“It was a long time ago and I didn’t know what I was doing and,”

I cut him again, rage in my tone. “Oh okay, so that makes it alright?

“I’m not saying it does, but I just want you to stop freaking because there’s no reason to freak!” Blake stated jaws tight.

“Oh you think so? You know what? It’s fine, I should have known. It’s ALL my fault. I should have known better to care about someone like you that only cares about girl for one thing,” I said and tried yet again to rip my harm out of his hand.

That bastard! That sick sick bastard!

And I had loved him and he was a sick bastard!

“Oh my god! What is wrong with you? Why can’t you fucking see? God dammit open your eyes Lexi!” Blake yelled at me, his eyes desperate.

Be desperate all you want you asshole!

“Open MY eyes? FINE! You wanna know what I see? A guy that can fuck any girl that comes around even his brother’s girlfriend! That’s what I see! That’s what you are,” I yelled right back at him, hitting him on the still naked chest with my free hand.

“Jesus fuck Lexi when will you STOP being so stubborn!? When will you STOP jumping to god damn conclusions! What the HELL did Alex do to you to screw you up like this?” he screamed, his hand furiously running through his hair.

“Shut up!”

“What did he do Lexi? Huh? What did he do?”

“Fuck you Blake! Shut UP!” I yelled and trashed.

“And I can’t believe you still hang out with him and pretend everything is perfect but don’t even want to open your eyes and see how much,” he stopped speaking abruptly, his eyes completely filled with tears.

Stupid bastard!

“How much what? HUH? How much what Blake?” I shove him on the chest, my arm still trapped in his strong hold, “How much of a jerk you are? How much of a man-whore you are? You don’t know ANYTHING alright!”

Blake gripped both of my arms, bringing me closer to him, “Lexi please” he begged.

“What do you WANT from me Blake?!” I shouted at him, our faces barely an inch apart and I could feel the warmth of his breath on my lips

“Everything…” he breathed.

“Well that’s too bad because I don’t want anything from you anymore!” I screamed, and used the second of shock to break free and ran for the front door.

“Have fun fucking your brother’s left over’s” I snapped, unlocking it door and ran out.

My hand covered my mouth to stop the sobs but I really couldn’t and I had a hard time breathing.

I sprinted to my car, almost dropping my keys on the ground, the tears spilling out of my eyes like a god damn waterfall, stubbornly not looking back to Blake.

But when I got in my car and drove away, and looked back in my mirror I could see him. He had fallen on his knees on the front porch and was covering his mouth with his palms, and I could almost see the tears in his eyes.

Oh my god…

What had we done?

What had he done?

What had I done…

[A/N: Now, no hate comments or threats on my life, alright kids? Mommy knows what she’s doing! ;P]