WARNINGS — smut

you sat on your sofa, stuffing tissue paper into your nose. red after red, it seems like your bloody nose never wanted to stop. you have been taking drugs after drugs after drugs for the past week. chase left again after your fight, which pulled you into a slump. you didn't want to bother pietro or wanda, and you didn't even want to think about going to bucky, so it was just you and your cocaine all day.

headaches ached your head, and you had barely been eating due to the loss of appetite. you saw how your weight has drastically changed and how grayed you looked. but that didn't stop you.

you blew your nose into the last tissue, barely seeing any red left. "finally," a knock startled you, resulting in you dropping your bloody tissues, "god! hold on!"

you snatched your tissues up, grabbing the tiny can, dropping them in, swiping the leftover drugs right in, hearing the cane hit the metal. you snatched one of the bags of coke and stuffed it in your pants.

you headed to the door, opening it up to bucky standing right before you. he had sweat dripping down his temples, eyes were puffy like he has been crying. he looked out of breath like he just ran over here.

he looked so fucking good though, his hair was swept into a style, his leather jacket hugged his muscles so godly, making you want to jump on him right now. his pants hugged his thighs in all the rights places. you couldn't even imagine what you wanted to do with them. you shook your head, noticing you have been staring at his thighs for 3 minutes straight. you stared back at him with skepticism and confusion.

bucky stared at your frame in a daze. you were wearing gray sweatpants and a black lace cami top, which hugged your body more ways than possible. your eyes were bloodshot, so he knew you just took something. he saw the dry blood on your nose, which you kept trying to wipe off subtly. bucky thought it was hot, which surged more blood through him straight to his pants.

"what are you—."

"is your boyfriend here?"

"no, but-"

bucky stepped inside, getting close to you. he softly grabbed your face, smashing his lips onto yours. your eyes widened, but you went with the flow, kissing him back. you looked into each other eyes with a red glow of lust. you knew this was risky, but you didn't care right now. you grabbed a ball of his hair, pulling him closer, deepening the kiss. he clutched onto your waist, biting your bottom lip.

you moaned from the pain and pleasure displaying in the kiss. bucky lifted your ass up, latching you onto his waist.

now this was a full-on makeout session, sloppy kisses, groans, and moans, bucky went down to your neck, knawing and nibbling it, giving you love bites. your back crashed onto the wall, "god, you drive me crazy."

you went down on bucky's neck, showing him the same appreciation that he gave you. you heard bucky whimper in your ear, making you wetter by the moment. you were already out of breath, feeling yourself melt with each of his moans.

bucky grabbed onto you again, stumbling into your bedroom. he dropped you on the bed, taking his jacket off as you started taking your sweatpants off, revealing your matching lace panties hugging your bottom half.

"god, you're just so beautiful," his top was entirely off, he climbed onto the bed. he grabbed your waist, pulling you onto his lap, "i saw you staring at my thighs, doll." he put his finger on the rim of your panties, running his finger along, teasing it along the top of your pussy.

your started panting, your face completely crimsoning from embarrassment. bucky shook his head, grabbing your chin, holding it while staring into your eyes, "no, no, no. doll, i thought that was hot."

bucky took his pants off, leaving his boxers on and his glorious thighs out in the open. you ripped your top off, leaving you all naked in front of bucky. he stared at you like candy, how perked your nipples are, how your ass looked so tender that he just wanted to fucking slap it till it turned crimson.

you bit your lip, climbing onto his thighs, your hips rocking back and forth as you rode his thigh. you gripped onto him as you rode him breathless, penetrating your clit, dripping a pool onto his boxers.

"i can feel how warmth you are. are you always this wet for me, doll."

you ignored his words, feeling the bubbling feeling in your abdomen, knowing you were about to burst. he held onto your body, kissing your breast, leaving you in a disheveled state. he saw how you were breaking in pleasure right in front of him. he thought it was fucking attractive, and it made his dick harder by the minute.

bucky abruptly stopped you, harshly grabbing onto your waist, pushing you on the bed. he took off his boxers, revealing his length. your mouth ajar from the sight of his dick, you didn't know if it was the high talking, but it seemed longer and thicker from last time. he started stroking it in fluid movements. he lowered himself, sucking your thighs.

your head bucked down, feeling the sensation go straight to your core. he moved your panties aside, seeing the glistening slick of the pool that your pussy created. he edged the rim of it, his finger running around it. your breath was already staggered, the effects of the high being enhanced with every move.

he got back up, slamming his dick right in you. you let out a gasp from the intensified pleasure that surged through you. you latched on the bed covers, crinkling them. bucky movements were fluid but rough at the same time. he was grunting, sweat dripping from his temples already, letting all his built-up feelings with each pound.

he lowered himself, you gabbing his body, pulling him closer to you. you kept moaning into his ear, which drove him crazy. "huh, doll, i fuck you good, right? i hit all the right spots, huh? do i?"

he sang praises into your ear, which made you squirm in all the right places. you felt your orgasm coming from a mile away, and your face showed it. bucky started roughing up his movements, pumping in deeper. which left the room in moans, grunts, and heavy breathing, just the lavishness and raw cut of sex between two people who are crazy for each other.

"bucky, i- i'm about to-"

"yeah, i know, love, let it all out."

you listened to his gentle words, letting the wave of blood rush out of you, screaming bucky's name as he clutched onto you. but he kept going feeling his own orgasm coming on. he kept pounding into your pussy. you felt overwhelmed with pleasure and felt your sore vagina getting beat up.

"keep going, doll. you're doing so good."

you felt tears running down your face as bucky released in you. you both collapsed on the bed. heavy breathing left both of your mouths, chest heaving, sweat dripping, you felt stars popping in your brain.

"that was—" you both spoke, then laughed. bucky grabbed your waist, pulling you closer to his chest. you both stayed silent, just indulging in each other warmth. you look out into the nothingness of your room, looking at the picture of you and chase smiling from a year ago. you sighed, closing your eyes.

"do you ever thinking 'bout running away from this place," bucky spoke in a low voice as he held you next to him.

"yeah," you replied, opening your eyes, "it's kind of funny, but i always wanted to go to virginia. no reason why but i just wanted to get away from here."

bucky stayed silent after that. you sighed again, assuming he went to sleep.

that dream that you always wanted. someone to take you away from here cause you know that you wouldn't be able to on your own. you thought bucky was your angel who would take you away. more like a devil of your dreams, who you wanted to do anything to you. you didn't mind. bucky kept you great company, even if you didn't want to admit it yourself.

you started to close your eyes again, pulling yourself away from bucky. he pulled you closer, burying himself into your neck. which made you shoot your eyes open.

"what if we go together?"

you turned your head to him, seeing that he was staring right at you.

"someone i know has a place down there, just saying if you want."

you chuckled, burying yourself into his chest. you looked back up, "i don't know buck. i have a job, i have friends here," you became silent, turning your head away from him.

"and chase is here," your voice was quiet.

bucky's face was coated in pain more hinted with jealousy. every time you said his name, your mood changed. he knew that chase hurt you, and he wanted to hurt him with the eyes of him, but bucky knew how it would end. you would go back to him, and you and bucky would stay in this sex purgatory forever. and frankly, he didn't want that.

bucky grabbed your face, turning you to face him. he gave you a sweet and tender kiss, not hinted with lust or anything. it was a genuine kiss, which surprised you.

"i'm not saying we have to move there, maybe stay there for a week and just relax. i don't think peggy would get mad."

you thought about it for a while. telling peggy your sick for a week was easy. she wouldn't care, and she could find more workers. you barely checked up on the twins, so they wouldn't mind, but chase was tricky. chase had already gone to who knows where and could come back any minute. you didn't know if you wanted to risk it.

but when you looked back on bucky's face, the answer was already formed. you nodded, which gave bucky the biggest smile ever imagined. he grabbed you closer, kissing every part of your face.

"you bring out the parts of me that i thought were gone," bucky spoke out from his heart, and he meant that he thought when evie died, all his best parts left him, and he had to use other ways to fulfill that. either if it was riding his motorcycle, having sex, or just drinking until he passed out. he didn't know that you would bring something in him that he thought he lost long ago.

"you're on birth control, right? it's not like i don't want kids, but i don't think i'm ready. like one time I was babysitting my sister and-"

"barnes."

"yeah?"

"don't ruin the mood."

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