The second my eyes opened , I had butterflies in my stomach for anticipation of what was to come of the date I had planned later that night. I had alot I needed to say to Nix, and I hoped he would understand and we can begin to coexist better again.

I pulled on some leggings and a sports bra, then tied my hair into a tight bun . A run is for sure what I needed at the moment, to relax me and the fact I haven't worked out in ages would make me feel good.

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After my run, I was in need of a nice long, hot shower. So naturally that's what I did. I took my time scrubbing my scalp with a lavender smelling shampoo followed by the matching conditioner.

My body was due for a good shave and scrub, so I made sure to shave everything until it was smooth then exfoliate all the dead skin off.

Once I got out, I even took time to put on a face mask to prime my skin for the full face I was about to cake on in the hours to come.

I highly tool dried my hair, but left it alone, going for the natural look and wanting my waves/curls to look extra popping.

I walked to my closet, getting frustrated on what to wear. I wanted to look nice but I didn't know what type of look I was going for . After a long while and trying on what felt like a hundred different combination outfits ,I choose some tight, light washed ripped jeans that made my butt look rather nice.

For my top I slipped on a strapless bra and a white off the shoulder top that showed a tiny bit of my stomach, so I made sure to put in a cute belly ring.

I took a deep breath after looking in my full length mirror, examining myself mostly because I was insanely nervous. I tried to hide my nerves behind a full face of foundation, contour , false lashes and red lipstick.

I knew I looked nice , but my stomach felt like it was literally rolling out of me.

After one good look at myself I looked at the clock and realized it was time to pack my purse and slip on some brown wedged heels.

In middle of throwing a 'just in case' tampon in my bag, I heard the front door start to open and it felt as if someone kicked the breathe out of me and I gasped hard.

Nix apparently heard my gasp because he gave a small, half smile. "Sorry." He offered, closing the door behind him.

His hair was cut shorter than the last time I seen him, and he was dressed in his normal officer uniform which I had to hold back an eye roll.

"That's how your going?" I questioned , trying to hold back a hostile voice.

"Uh yeah. I technically have an hour left on the clock, but the guys are gonna cover for me. We can leave now." He said, averting eye contact.

"Yeah. Im ready." I replied, letting him lock up and following him out.

He led me to his squad car, which was a a for suv.

Holding the door open for me, Nix held my waist slightly as he helped me get in. I smiled softly as the old, kind gesture.

He soon got in, and we were off to an unknown location.

"What are you in the mood for?" he asked after a few moments of siting in silence.

"Ive kind of been craving a burger." I admitted, still look down at my lap, feeling slightly awkward.

"Burgers it is." he agreed , leaving the parking lot and taking us onto the main roads.

We still sat in silence, until a familiar song began to play over the radio, making me smile and reach over to turn it up out of instinct.

"Slide in that thang

Real deep game this is so good girl what's my name?

Hit it from the back here boy swag

Wanna talk shit? shorty answer right back

I be on her like"

Began to blast through the cop car speakers, making Nix shake his head and laugh. "You're trying to get my fired huh?" he laughed , looking away from the road briefly to glance last me.

I smiled at his laugh that I had missed so dearly as I began to shout out the next lines.

"Who booty is it? who booty is it?

Who booty? who booty? who booty is it?

Who booty is it? who booty is it?

Who booty? who booty? who booty is it?"

I belted out at the top of my lungs, throwing in a few dance moves.

Nix was full out laughing, and before long he joined in.

Our song session was cut short when a voice began speaking through the car, causing Nix to immediately turn it down.

"Unit 194 Please report to a severe domestic violence, a neighbor reported screaming adress will come through soon copy." A women spoke.

Nix cursed, hitting the steering wheel slightly.

"Mia, Im sorry but I have to go-" he tried to explain but I shook my head giving him a small, sad smile.

"Take it.Your still on duty Ill just wait right here until you get back." I sighed, knowing nothing about this date would be chill now, and remembering the reasons all of our fights began.

"Unit 194. Copy." he spoke back, and soon received an address that was in a pretty sketchy part of town.

I sat back, and scrolled through my social media until we arrived.

Nix parked across from apartment complex , where there was lots of noise and countless people loitering outside..

He sighed and requested a few more units, all which replied they would be there as soon as possible.

"Alright, Im going in. Do not step out of this car for any reason Mia. Seriously. Whatever you hear or see stay right here with the doors locked." he said sternly, looking deeply into my eyes.

"Ok. I promise." I said, sticking out my pinky to him in a joking gesture.

He locked his pinky with mine and brought our hands to his mouth where he gave mine a kiss.

"Be safe!" I called out naturally to him as he headed across the huge lot that was still loitered with a lot of noise, considering the apartments were pretty large and there was train tracks with active running trains.

He soon disappeared into the complex and I sighed, turning back to my phone and taking a few shameless selfies.

I was already slightly nervous for Nix, but the pit in my stomach grew after 10 minutes passed and then 20 with no sight of him. At this point the sun was setting and almost no one could be seen anymore.

I was seriously tempted to get out, but I forced myself to stay, not wanting to hear Phoenix yell at me or get mad at my actions.

Once the forty minute mark came around, My whole body was on edge. I desperately wanted the back up he called a while ago to arrive and make sure everything was going ok.

The second it hit the hour mark, the trains stopped running and it became eerily quite and I had decided to get out of the car and go peak around for Phoenix.

I had my hand on the handle of the door to step out when I seen him in the distance heading back.

I let out a huge breath and my body shook with relief as he began to get closer, holding his jacket close around his body.

In all honesty I was planning on slightly telling him off when he got back in , but I decided against it when he got closer and I realized Nix was staggering slightly.

I realized he wasn't holding his jacket around his, he was holding the side of his stomach, and my mind automatically went back to the time he injured his ribs and though he some how injured it again.

I quickly got out and almost fainted when I looked up and seen his face.

My knees wobbled as he came closer, within arms length at this point and blood poured from his mouth and onto his neck, quickly staining is shirt.

He removed his hand from his stomach and I heard myself scream an ear piercing shriek when I seen the gaping hole that was where his hand was covering.

I choked on my own screams as he slowly fell onto his knees and then onto his hands, gasping hard for air.

I ran back a few steps and swung open the cop car door and nearly ripped out the radio when I grabbed the small intercom.

"Please help me!" I shrieked through it breathlessly.

"Unit 194? Who is this?" The dispatched asked , confused.

"My n-name is Mia and I-I think Phoenix g-got shot." I cried covering my mouth as his breathing started to become more labored.

"Closest Unit in 2 minutes away. Stay there with him please.Help will be there honey." She rambled but the only thing I heard was ringing and my world started to spin.

My screaming intensified , as he went from his hands and knees to onto his back.

I hurried over to him and pushed my hands as hard as could against the bleeding wound.

Phoenix's eyes were wide he was gasping harshly , trying to make words come out that wouldn't form. "Don't say anything. I got you. Were going to go eat right now ok? Everything is ok." I tried to comfort him.

I was at a loss of words and actions and just continued to apply pressure with my hands that would not stop shaking as hard as I willed them not to.

He let out of a small tremor as his body started to slightly seize.

The movements made the contents begin to fall out of his pockets.

"Please Nix stop!" I sobbed over his body as is eyes began to roll back and his body started to jerk more harshly.

These final movements caused a black box to pop out of his pocket and roll a few inches , making it open.

Inside was a Dimond ring a small piece of paper. I could only see the top and it read "My sweetest Mia"

By the time I looked back a Nix's face a few seconds later , he was still.

"No please! God please!" I sobbed hitting his still chest slightly.

He remained still so I finally let myself collapse on top of his body, still shrieking and sobbing at the same time.

Police sirens and ambulances began to the round the corners sharply , but I continued to hold Nix's face and stroke it softly.

"Its ok. You're ok. I love you so much ." I cried over and over as his head lolled limply.

The only thing that could be heard besides my loud sobs were the upcoming Sirens In Seattle.

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