About 20 mins later there was a knock at the front door. I shakily get up and walk to the door slowly, nervous. I open the door and a angry Jayden comes charging in. I quietly close the door behind him. I walk of to him and grab his hand and take him to the couch, and surprisingly he doesn't fight back. I take him to the couch and sit him down, then I sit next to him.

He hooks his hands under my knees and drags me to a position where I am now straddling in his lap. He grabs my hands and looks down at his lap. I don't protest because I know he needs this, I do too.

He takes a deep breath than starts to speak. "When I was nine and my brother was seven we went down to the rocky stream, on the bridge. We were playing around on then bridge and than he ticked something off in me. We started to wrestle. He stood on the railing of the bridge pretending to be one of those stupid tight rope walkers. I yelled at him out of rage than left, leaving him because I was so annoyed that he wasn't listening to me.

"A few hours later the police were at the door. Someone found his body washed up. He fell in and the tide was to strong that he drowned. Two days later my dad left and it was just my mom and I. The funny this is that he always told me he would never leave me. Than about a week after the accident my mom committed suicide. I found her when I got home from school.

"Do you have any idea what it is like to lose your three favorite people in the time span of a week. And to be the one to find you mother dead. And to know that you could of prevented it all just by staying with you little brother at a stupid bridge." He said with much emotions.

I sit there shocked. "It wasn't your fault, even if you stayed he would and he fell in you wouldn't have been able to find him." I whisper as he laid his head on my shoulder and I wrap my arms around his neck.

"If you don't mind me asking what did you do after that?" I ask softly.

"I went and lived with Connor than once I turned 18 a few months ago I moved out." He answers and I nod.

I slid off of his lap and stood up, I grabbed his hand and lead him to my room. "Hav, what ever happened to your dad?" Jayden asked once we got to my room and he saw the picture of me and him. I took a deep breath fighting back my tears.

"Hey calm down, calm down you don't have to tell me anything." he soothes me.

I nod, "No I need to." my voice cracked.

He sat of the end of my bed and when and say in his lap laying my head in his shoulder. I take a deep breath before starting. "I-I" stuttered.

"Shh calm down it okay." he whispers wrapping his arms around me, pulling me in tight.

"Okay.. When I was 12 my mom and I where at one of my softball games. I was playing right field and I dove for a ball and broke my wrist. My mom rushed me to the hospital and called my dad to rush over to the hospital with my brother. They were making a u-turn and a tractor trailer with a drunk driver hit them. They died on contact. If I had just not done the game it would all be fine right now. I was already not feeling well before the game but I insisted on playing. God I was so stupid." I cry into Jayden's shoulder.

"Shh you not stupid, never ever call yourself that again," he whispered. "It's not your fault it was that drivers fault." He continues. I nod and take deep breaths.

"Hey I have one more question?" I nod signaling that he can continue.

"What did you mean when you said you can't do this anymore? Why did you say that?" He asked.

"I umm..... Us I meant us because I was thinking... That I can't give you what you want but the other girls in school like Jessica can. I didn't want you to waste your time with me." I tell him shakily with many voice cracks.

His voice gets darker, "Who said that?" I stay quiet making him ask again.

"Who said that?" He asked with a dark voice but still trying to be gentle.

"Jessica." I say. I can feel the warmth coming off of his face from anger. He positions me to where I and now facing him.

"Don't ever listen to her Haven she is just a slut trying to break is apart." He said into my ear softly.

"Why did you come back if you though I didn't like you?" He asked sincerely.

"Be-because I can't stay away from you, you make me happy and I need that. A lot. And I care about you a lot and I'm so selfish and need you." I say as my whisper turns into a louder tone.

I stand up and start pacing back and forth. Did I just say that? He gets up from my bed and walks to me stopping me in my tracks. I look up at him as he looks down at me. "Haven you make me so happy, I have so much that is fucked up with my life and you make it all disappear. Don't ever listen to anyone about us okay?" He asked, wiping tears that are falling from my eyes. I rest my head in his hand and nod.

He picks me up bridal style and takes me to my side of the bed. He gently lays me down and walks to the other side. He slips of his shoes and shirt than laid down. He puts is arms around my waist them pulled me toward him so that I am pressing against his chest. He kisses my forehead and turned the lights off as we fell asleep.