November, 1, 1900

We have been talking about random things, for the past few minutes. Not, that I'm complaining it's just so new to me. All of it is. Everything is just something; I've never felt and saw before. It feels so surreal.

I want this moment to stay like this. I want so many moments to stay like that. I don't want it end. Ever. Something, like this will stay in my memories for the rest of my life. For eternity. Even in my next life.

We were busy laughing and teasing each other, that is until Mother said something that made me blush. Mother asked me, with a teasing smiled plastered on her face.

I quickly shook my head, and looked at her, whether she was for real or not. I asked her, pretending to not know what she means.

Father suddenly said which made me look at him. He was serious.

I was taken a bit back. Since, I didn't expect that from them. No, from him. I looked down. I sensed that they noticed I was thinking about it.

I asked them. They just looked at each other and sighed before nodding.

I was still busy thinking about it, when somebody suddenly knocked on the door. We all looked over to it, just to see a Castle Maid.

The maid said. I heard my parents sigh, before looking over to where I was. I just gave them a little smile, telling them it was fine.

They both stood up from sitting on the couch. They both looked at me once again, before they really went out the room. While, I just stayed in the same position.

It's been minutes and I still can't make up my mind! How come my mind always floats to Beomgyu, whenever I'm thinking whether I should leave or not?! I don't even talk to him anymore, but still

Argh. I should go somewhere relaxing, for me to clear my thoughts. But, where? I mean I can go to the docks. But, that place would be a bit too noisy for thinking. I was still thinking where I should go, when I suddenly want to go to the Castle Gardens.

I stood up, and went over the door to leave the room.

I reached the entrance to the Castle Gardens, I saw some people in the place. Gardeners. They already know me since I always go here to either clear off my mind or to just relax. I smiled at them, and continued walking towards the spot where I usually go.