After I left with Jussie to go shopping after the whole thing went down with Bryshere we came back to Tarajis to chill..

I admit when we got back and I realized Bryshere was gone a part of me was sad and disappointed..

I wanted him to make this right..

I didn't want him to be that guy, I felt something in me.. Something that was real, something that I never felt for Julius or anybody for that matter..

I only ever felt this is for Bryshere..

But I snapped out of it remembering what he said to me.. I stayed the whole weekend and had such a great time! The concert was EVERYTHING LIFE WAS ABOUT! They even through me a little party.. on my way back to the airport before I left Taraji pulled me to the side..

"So did you have fun this weekend?"

Taraji said nudging me..

I smiled..

"You know I did! It seems like I'm always having a good time over here.."

"I'm glad you did.. Jussie told me you had a birthday coming up and he wanted to do something nice for you.."

She said pinching my cheek like she normally does..

"That's my boo.."

I said looking over at him..

"You know Bryshere didn't mean anything he said to you out there to hurt you.."

I sighed..

"He didn't mean anything he said to me ever period.. And it doesn't even matter if he did or didn't mean hurt cause it did hurt."

"Reign, Bryshere is a lot of things.. He has a ego out of this world. He can be trifling sometimes and say some fucked up things that you'll have to go upside his head about.. But he would never lie about his feelings for you.. He really does care for you.. He's just, difficult to understand at times.."

"But that's the thing momma T,

I don't want to figure shit out.

If you tell me your gonna do something than that's what you need to do.. The least he could do is communicate.. Plus he came at me all wrong.."

She smiled...

"He cares more than you know..

He fired Charlie because of you.."

I grabbed my suitcase seeing that my cab was outside..

I gave her a hug and kiss..

"Well he shouldn't have.."

I was back at home in an empty space with my babies Sir and Rick..

Brandon hadn't been answering the phone so I couldn't talk to Amber..

All I could do is focus on my career..

I unpacked and just sat on my bed..

My mind was so hazy..

My phone rang, I dragged myself to pick it up..

It was Sherry..

"Tell me something good Sherr.."

I heard her sniffle..

"She lost the baby.."

"Wait what? Who lost the baby?"

It was silent for a minute...

"Simone.."

"When?! How?!"

I said feeling so sad hearing her tone..

"It happened the day me and you last talked and I went with her to her doctors appointment.. the babies heart just stopped beating.. that's why she been feeling funny.."

"Oh Sherry I'm so sorry honey I'm on my way.. You want me to come be with you.."

"Yeah Hunter and Candice are here already.."

"CADINCE!? Whatever.. Okay, look I'll be there.. I'm booking a flight out now.."

I booked my flight out and got there around 7 pm..

I finally got to her and Herbs house..

Candice answered the door..

She reached out to give me a hug and I walked past her..

"I'm not here for all that.. Where's Sherry?"

She looked at me funny and pointed towards the living room..

Sherry was sitting balled up laying on Hunter on the couch..

I put down my little duffle bag..

I went up to her and gave her a hug..

I crunched up next to her..

"I just feel for her.. Even though this whole situation is fucked up she didn't know about any of this just as much as I didn't.. and Herb was finally starting to step up and look forward to this whole thing.. I just can't imagine how she's feeling inside.."

Sherry said wiping her face with a tissue...

"If you ask me it's better this way.. You get yo man back all to yourself.."

Candice said and we all looked up at her upside her head..

"What I'm just saying"

"You sound real simple.. Why are you even here?"

I said looking at her in disgust..

"Girl relax.. Let's look at the facts here Okay.. Look Sherry I know you care and you feel for Simone but that whole crap about her not knowing about you is BS.. I've heard him mention you in more than one interview! The bitch is a opportunist.."

"Girl you're an opportunist!"

I said pointing at her..

"What! Girl what the hell is your problem?"

She said bucking up towards me..

"You're my problem.. Where the fuck you been? I haven't heard from you period! And you send me some tacky ass invitation to your wedding.."

I said getting back up in her face..

"Tacky!!?"

Candice said opening her eyes wide..

"TACKY AS HELL!"

"Bitch at least I'm getting married and in a relationship I'm happy in.. What you got!? Nothing!! Girl you so worried about me and my relationship you can't keep one of your own.. That's why you really mad! I got too much shit going on to stop and check on Reign every five minutes! You need to be worried about why Bryshere ain't text you back and leave me and my nigga out of this!!"

She said..

I starred her in the eyes...

"I almost had a mind just to slap the fuck out of you just now, but ima let you make it.. You think that's what this is about!? That I'm not happy for you!?

Bitch all I ever did was root for you since I met your dingy, scary ass! So you running behind some needy ass nigga and fucking with peoples emotions is your definition of Happy? Cause if that's it I'd rather have nothing! Where were you on my ceremony night?"

I said watching her face..

I turned around to Sherry..

"So this what we doing now Sherry? Telling all my fucking business!"

I grabbed my bag..

"Fuck y'all.. Enjoy your wedding Candice, the crazy thing is I was gonna come and go all out for you despite everything you been putting me through these past three years, you been a shitty friend.. I been carrying around your invitation cause even though you treat me fucked up Im proud you've found what you want even if I think it's not healthy, I support you.."

I reached in my purse and grabbed Candice invitation and threw it down..

I took the bracelet Sherry bought me and put it on her table..

"Reign where you going?!"

Hunter said coming over to where I was...

"What it look like Hunter.."

I left out and caught a Uber back to the airport..

"Y'all just gonna let her leave like that! Sherry she came here just to see you!"

Hunter said facing me

"I KNOW!

It's too much going on..

I already feel fucked up..

She's really just angry with Candice she's not mad at me.. at the end of the day this is your mess.. You need to go find her and make this right! That's the only reason I agreed for you to come here!"

I said wiping my tears looking over at Candii..

"Both of y'all are fucked up!

Sherry you had no business telling her shit..

She looks up to you and she's always good to all of us even when she shouldn't be! Candice you're just a fucked up person..

honestly I don't know why you're even here.."

Hunter said looking between the both of them...

"She expects me to do this and that and I got a man.."

Candice said..

"No she expects you to be the friend she met in the 2nd grade!"

I said feeling bad..

"Things change.. people grow apart.."

Candice said..

"Things change!

But she looked at you like a sister, not a thing..

That's low Candii..

Even for you!

And I haven't been so good either.. come on let's go Hunter.."

I said sitting up...

"No you stay here, you got a lot going on.. And I think you two are the last people she wants to see right now..

I'll call you later Sherry.."

Hunter said heading towards the door

I sighed and nodded..

"Tell her I love her.."

Hunter nodded leaving out..

"Fuck this shit! Y'all play favoritism and I have more important things to plan for.. Like my wedding!"

Candice said..

"I don't know why I invited you!

Take this weak ass invitation and get the fuck out my house!"

I said opening my door as she left and I slammed it..

I wanted to call Reign but I was feeling way too bad to pick up the phone so I'll just wait for Hunter..

I got to the airport in Austin and got my little luggage..

I was on my way to Reign's when I seen Yazz..

I walked up to him and pushed him...

"Girl what The HELL!"

He said looking up..

"Oh aren't you Reign's friend?"

"Best Friend!"

I said tugging my shirt...

"Why you here?

To try and fuck up her life some more?"

"No I came here to see her..

I have to talk to her and apologize the right way..

I wanna be with her..

I gotta see her.."

I sighed..

"What are you tryna do to her Yazz?"

"What do you mean?"

He looked confused..

"She was doing just fine before you came along.. Her heart and mind was healthy and she was brave again..

She got her strength and confidence back..

And here you come, with your Fuck Boy charm!

And lies!"

I said pointing at him..

"Hold up I never lied to Reign!"

He said holding out his arms..

"Then where were you the night of her ceremony..

She waited for you, she looked for you...

She was so pitiful when you didn't call or show up..."

He sighed...

"Look I fired my manager Charlie so things been kind of crazy..."

"Is your phone broke!!?"

I asked

"What?"

He looked crazy..

"Is your fucking phone broke!"

I said poking his chest...

"Ouch! Damn girl! No it's not broke.."

"Okay, So a text or call was too much!

You even ignored her on Christmas!

You BITCH!"

"Look can you calm down please! Psycho!"

"No I can't! Explain yourself or I got pepper spray with your name on it.."

"I don't have an explanation okay! I fucked up.. I honestly forgot about her ceremony until she brought it up at Tarajis the other day.. but when she text me on Christmas I had just slept with someone I knew in my past the night before and felt fucked up.. but there's no excuse.."

"You DAMN RIGHT!

All that shit you told her was a front.."

He grabbed my wrist..

"No it wasn't.. I meant every word! Every single word... And seeing that pain in her eyes after she walked away made me feel real fucked up..

I don't wanna see her hurt like that ever again!"

I watched his eyes..

My dad said you can always tell how someone feels by the look inside their eyes..

I didn't see anything fake in his eyes..

Just pure sincerity...

"You really like her?"

"I love her.. I did when she first came into my dads club I just didn't know how to honor that.."

"Look this is going against everything I believe in.. but I can tell that you're not lying.. Do you know where she lives?"

"No I was gonna figure that part out somehow.."

"If I take you there you better make this shit right!

No fuck ups!

Cause I will kill you myself.."

I said flashing my gun..

"How the fuck did you get that past top flight airport security!"

He said wide eye..

"Eh.. I'm a sexy ass, rich white girl in America and my dad owns everything! You do the math.."

"True.. Will you go with me?"

"Nope! I was gonna go talk to her but somehow I think you're the one she needs to be seeing and taking her anger out on.."

He looked scared..

"What if I don't make it out alive?"

"Didn't ya mama ever teach you to have an extra lifeline.."

He looked confused..

"It's a Chris Rock joke..

Look if you die, you die..

But if you live than you'll know it went the way you intended.."

I said patting his shoulder..

He nodded..

"So what does that mean?"

"It means try not to die!"

I said laughing..

He swallowed...

"Should I buy her something?"

"Uh! Yess.. Lots of bleach.."

I said shaking my head..

"Why?"

"Don't you care about the blood on her floors!

Damn you so selfish..

come on here boy!"

"But what about roses?"

"That's way too typical..

Look Yazz, Reign doesn't care for materialistic Bull crap.. Never has.

She just wants the real..

The honesty..

She just wants you.."

I said pointing at him..

He nodded as he followed me..

"But seriously buy some bleach and duck tape on the way.."

When I got back home I just cleaned..

I cleaned and cleaned and cleaned from bottom to top..

The more I cleaned the more I cried... it's healthy to cry sometimes.. I flopped down in the middle of my freshly mopped floor..

My phone rang and I just sat there and ignored it...

It rang and rang..

I ignored it...

It rang one last time..

I sighed and got up answering the phone...

It was Hunter...

"Hello.."

I said low..

"Can you come to the door please?"

I sighed...

"Hold on.."

I said taking off my gloves and slipping off my house shoes...

I staggered to the door opening it and seeing Bryshere in front of me holding a lot of bleach and duck tape..

I looked in the back of him and seen a car roll down the window..

"HEAR HIM OUT BEFORE YOU KILL HIM!

OH AND SHERRY SAID SHE LOVES YOU!"

She said rolling the window back up...

I looked at him and stepped back..

He looked so silly holding all the stuff..

"And exactly why do you have that?"

I said trying not to laugh..

"Hunter said I shouldn't be selfish and I needed to bring you some cleaning supplies just Incase I didn't make it out alive.."

I laughed..

She is such a fucking idiot..

"Come on in.."

I said stepping aside ...