I want to stop everything and look in the mirror,

Do I like my face or my voice which has gone pale?

Do I like shiny make-up on my eyes

or just want to hide the marks from the tears I shed last night?

Isn't there an end, a stop or a pause button

that will just make everything silent

Drowning in the ocean of my emotions

I have created so that I can feel, when my body goes numb underwater

when my hands cannot move any longer when I'll be able to destroy every fiber of my being

That is when I will truly breathe

When I don't have to be stressed about anything, when I don't feel like a disappointment

when my body will just give up, That is when I will truly breathe

When I will jump from a building and let gravity kiss me

when I will hang myself from the ceiling and let my air pipes combined

That is when I will truly breathe

If you have ever felt this way, but are stopping for some reason, I hope that reason stays forever

but fuck everyone who says that giving up is a coward act, it isn't!

It is the most courageous one in my opinion when one has become free of all the duties,

all the relations, all the shit and fuck all that stupid fake happiness, when I would be able to kill myself, That is when I will finally breathe